eunoia. h.styles
chapter two
Entry 1096 January 1 , 2015
You have a girlfriend which i hate and i can’t help but be sad because my chances with you are over. Whoever she is she’s one lucky girl and i bet she’s happy because you can make anyone happy , especially me. Even though you don’t talk to me you still make me happy. Even if when don’t know each other i want you to know that you make me happy. I’ve always have a crush on you , every day i just like you more and more and its crazy. Thats why i'm always writing about you another thing I have things to confess to you , every night when i get in bed i imagine you by my side , and i cannot fall asleep for another hour. Its just too much heaven , way to much. Everytime i see you , it blinds me because you're just one beautiful human being.
I stopped writing when a voice scared the shit out of me.
“ You know who ever you're writing about , you should probably get some monkey girl balls and go talk to them you must really like them if you keep writing about them “ Harry said putting his hand on his face , gosh he is perfect.
“ T- they aren’t gonna like me back i know it .We don’t even talk “ i said in a low voice.
“ Well talk to them ! Start a conversation ! “ he said laughing hot hot.
“ I cannot do that “ i said putting my head down. but i'm talking to him right now.
“ Try to ta- “ Diana had came in and cut Harry off. “ Well Laura “ he knew my name. he knew my name ! “ talk to you later. wait can i get your phone number “ and i nodded and gave it to him. Diana was there wide eyed.
“ You talked to him ! “
“ He just sat in front of me ! “ I said whispering and smiling
“ OMG ! and he asked for your number he must like you ! “ Diana said then looked towards the door and her face turned down. I looked towards the door and seen a girl with black long hair and she was tall she look like a model.
“ Who’s that “ I asked. “ Kendall “ she’s actually pretty i remember Diana telling me about her yesterday in the car.
“ She’s here for Harry “ she rolled her eyes I turned around and looked at her and Harry came out the kitchen smiling hard at her. He went over to her and hugged her then kissed her. I couldn’t take my eyes away from them because i was hurt. I shouldn't have looked i should've turned around and kept talking to diana but i didn’t i kept looking at them. Harry looked my way and shot me a confused look i just got my stuff and walked out the bakery shoulder checking Harry.
I shouldn’t be mad i know but it hurts so bad to see your crush kissing another girl. I was crying by the time i got home and Lou was in the living room with Zayn and the other two boys.
I went to my room turned ‘ 505 ‘ by the Arctic Monkeys on and turned it up loud. This song brings me back to life. Everything soon started flooding through my head again, Harry kissing her and hugging her , how i wish that was me . i never thought you could feel this jealous about something.
My phone had vibrated and i had a unknown text from someone.
Unknown : Are you okay
Me : who is this ?
Unknown : Harry ! you remember you gave me your number
Me : sorry i forgot.
Harry : as i was saying are you okay ? you rushed out of the bakery pretty fast.
Me : i'm totally fine
Harry : Are you sure ?
Me : Yes i have to go
Harry : Alright bye then.
Harry POV
She drives me crazy she just doesn’t know it. I know she writes about me in her diary i just want her to confess it to me but i know its not that easy. I knew she was jealous when she she seen me kiss Kendall which i didn’t enjoy at all , but i just wanted to ask where she okay. I have liked her ever since high school she came here in the beginning of 12th grade. I have never talked to her more than once or twice and never about anything of substance , never made an attempt. Not to long ago my senior year had came to an end i couldn’t help but regret being such a lovesick idiot of a boy and not having the guts to say anything to the most beautiful girl i have ever seen. I thought i would never see her again because Lou had told me she’s always moving. I had cried every night because i never acted on my feelings. I didn’t see her for the next few weeks and i still where depressed. I had got a job at the bakery to get things off my mind and then she came through the door and she kept coming till this day and i kept liking her more.
She goes to the library every friday reading a book and sometimes she was crying. Once i almost asked her what was wrong the first time i had seen her crying , then i saw the book she was reading and realized she was crying because of it. I was interested though because i never read anything that moved me so much. I had checked out the book she was reading and guess what ? I cried just a little too. Thats how my liking towards her got stronger the library. Every time i went to the library she was almost there usually with a completely new book each week. Sometimes she would smile , laugh out loud , or cry again , and everytime she did i would check out the book she was reading. I wish she had noticed me sitting a few tables away from her reading the book she was reading a few days ago.
I wished she had smiled at me.
but i don’t go to the library anymore because of kendall.
Laura POV
The rest of the day i sat in my room reading the book I have been reading for the past few days , Harry Potter I love this book and it's honestly one of my favorite books of all times. My phone had vibrated again but this time it wasn’t Harry it was another unknown number.
Unknown number : How’d Harry get ur number. ?
Me : Who is this ?
Unknown number : Who ya think ? Kendall
she’s staying unknown in my phone.
Me : Bye.
Unknown Number : Don't be a bitch ! He’s my boyfriend tell me !
Me : idk
I blocked her because she was aggravating me ! Why don’t she ask Harry ? I went downstairs and Lou was there with … harry.
He keeps popping up everywhere.
“ Hey Laura ! “ Lou said turning around “ You finally decided to come out your room and join your very lovely sexy cousin ? “ i rolled my eyes.
“ sure “ i sat on the end very end away from them.
“ what’s wrong “ Harry asked and I just looked at him rolled my eyes and got up to go to the kitchen. I was looking in the refrigerator for something to drink but didn’t see anything. I turned around Harry was there sitting on the counter.
“ Laura please tell me what’s wrong “ he said looking at me.
“ Nothing is wrong i told you that “
“ No you didn’t you just rolled your eyes “ he said smiling.
“ Nothing is wrong with me “
“ You’ve just been acting weird ever since kendall came into the bakery earlier “ he paused “ do you not like her ? “
“ I don’t know her i cannot say i don’t like her “ I said leaving and harry following me .
“ Well what was it “ he grabbed my wrist.
“ I can’t tell you now leave me alone “ i pulled away and continued walking and Harry pulled me back again.
“ Lia tell me “
“ I said leave me alone Harry “ and i pushed him away. I went back to the spot where i was sitting.
“ What movie “ Harry asked like nothing happened moments ago.
“ You two can pick i'm going to sleep “ Lou said.
He went up stairs leaving me and Harry alone.
“ Laura i know we just started talking but you just seem so upset with me or something you won't even look at me without rolling your eyes “ he said why does he cares so much about this.
“ Harry i said to drop it “ i said throwing my head back .
“ But i'm not till you tell me why “
“ No “
“ Yes “
“ No “
“ Yes “
“ Why ? “
" I wanna know “
“ No “
“ Laura jus- “
“ AHHHH! You wanna know fine then ! I fucking like you and i was jealous because you were kissing kendall and hugging her when that could be me ! you never talk to me and i wanted to talk to you but i'm always nervous ! I like you okay ? okay bett- “ i stopped what I saying because i couldn’t believe what i had already said. Harry was sitting there with wide eyes i bet he hates me now.
I ran up to my room locked my door and got on the bed sitting there crying because i just messed up big time with my chances.
You have a girlfriend which i hate and i can’t help but be sad because my chances with you are over. Whoever she is she’s one lucky girl and i bet she’s happy because you can make anyone happy , especially me. Even though you don’t talk to me you still make me happy. Even if when don’t know each other i want you to know that you make me happy. I’ve always have a crush on you , every day i just like you more and more and its crazy. Thats why i'm always writing about you another thing I have things to confess to you , every night when i get in bed i imagine you by my side , and i cannot fall asleep for another hour. Its just too much heaven , way to much. Everytime i see you , it blinds me because you're just one beautiful human being.
I stopped writing when a voice scared the shit out of me.
“ You know who ever you're writing about , you should probably get some monkey girl balls and go talk to them you must really like them if you keep writing about them “ Harry said putting his hand on his face , gosh he is perfect.
“ T- they aren’t gonna like me back i know it .We don’t even talk “ i said in a low voice.
“ Well talk to them ! Start a conversation ! “ he said laughing hot hot.
“ I cannot do that “ i said putting my head down. but i'm talking to him right now.
“ Try to ta- “ Diana had came in and cut Harry off. “ Well Laura “ he knew my name. he knew my name ! “ talk to you later. wait can i get your phone number “ and i nodded and gave it to him. Diana was there wide eyed.
“ You talked to him ! “
“ He just sat in front of me ! “ I said whispering and smiling
“ OMG ! and he asked for your number he must like you ! “ Diana said then looked towards the door and her face turned down. I looked towards the door and seen a girl with black long hair and she was tall she look like a model.
“ Who’s that “ I asked. “ Kendall “ she’s actually pretty i remember Diana telling me about her yesterday in the car.
“ She’s here for Harry “ she rolled her eyes I turned around and looked at her and Harry came out the kitchen smiling hard at her. He went over to her and hugged her then kissed her. I couldn’t take my eyes away from them because i was hurt. I shouldn't have looked i should've turned around and kept talking to diana but i didn’t i kept looking at them. Harry looked my way and shot me a confused look i just got my stuff and walked out the bakery shoulder checking Harry.
I shouldn’t be mad i know but it hurts so bad to see your crush kissing another girl. I was crying by the time i got home and Lou was in the living room with Zayn and the other two boys.
I went to my room turned ‘ 505 ‘ by the Arctic Monkeys on and turned it up loud. This song brings me back to life. Everything soon started flooding through my head again, Harry kissing her and hugging her , how i wish that was me . i never thought you could feel this jealous about something.
My phone had vibrated and i had a unknown text from someone.
Unknown : Are you okay
Me : who is this ?
Unknown : Harry ! you remember you gave me your number
Me : sorry i forgot.
Harry : as i was saying are you okay ? you rushed out of the bakery pretty fast.
Me : i'm totally fine
Harry : Are you sure ?
Me : Yes i have to go
Harry : Alright bye then.
Harry POV
She drives me crazy she just doesn’t know it. I know she writes about me in her diary i just want her to confess it to me but i know its not that easy. I knew she was jealous when she she seen me kiss Kendall which i didn’t enjoy at all , but i just wanted to ask where she okay. I have liked her ever since high school she came here in the beginning of 12th grade. I have never talked to her more than once or twice and never about anything of substance , never made an attempt. Not to long ago my senior year had came to an end i couldn’t help but regret being such a lovesick idiot of a boy and not having the guts to say anything to the most beautiful girl i have ever seen. I thought i would never see her again because Lou had told me she’s always moving. I had cried every night because i never acted on my feelings. I didn’t see her for the next few weeks and i still where depressed. I had got a job at the bakery to get things off my mind and then she came through the door and she kept coming till this day and i kept liking her more.
She goes to the library every friday reading a book and sometimes she was crying. Once i almost asked her what was wrong the first time i had seen her crying , then i saw the book she was reading and realized she was crying because of it. I was interested though because i never read anything that moved me so much. I had checked out the book she was reading and guess what ? I cried just a little too. Thats how my liking towards her got stronger the library. Every time i went to the library she was almost there usually with a completely new book each week. Sometimes she would smile , laugh out loud , or cry again , and everytime she did i would check out the book she was reading. I wish she had noticed me sitting a few tables away from her reading the book she was reading a few days ago.
I wished she had smiled at me.
but i don’t go to the library anymore because of kendall.
Laura POV
The rest of the day i sat in my room reading the book I have been reading for the past few days , Harry Potter I love this book and it's honestly one of my favorite books of all times. My phone had vibrated again but this time it wasn’t Harry it was another unknown number.
Unknown number : How’d Harry get ur number. ?
Me : Who is this ?
Unknown number : Who ya think ? Kendall
she’s staying unknown in my phone.
Me : Bye.
Unknown Number : Don't be a bitch ! He’s my boyfriend tell me !
Me : idk
I blocked her because she was aggravating me ! Why don’t she ask Harry ? I went downstairs and Lou was there with … harry.
He keeps popping up everywhere.
“ Hey Laura ! “ Lou said turning around “ You finally decided to come out your room and join your very lovely sexy cousin ? “ i rolled my eyes.
“ sure “ i sat on the end very end away from them.
“ what’s wrong “ Harry asked and I just looked at him rolled my eyes and got up to go to the kitchen. I was looking in the refrigerator for something to drink but didn’t see anything. I turned around Harry was there sitting on the counter.
“ Laura please tell me what’s wrong “ he said looking at me.
“ Nothing is wrong i told you that “
“ No you didn’t you just rolled your eyes “ he said smiling.
“ Nothing is wrong with me “
“ You’ve just been acting weird ever since kendall came into the bakery earlier “ he paused “ do you not like her ? “
“ I don’t know her i cannot say i don’t like her “ I said leaving and harry following me .
“ Well what was it “ he grabbed my wrist.
“ I can’t tell you now leave me alone “ i pulled away and continued walking and Harry pulled me back again.
“ Lia tell me “
“ I said leave me alone Harry “ and i pushed him away. I went back to the spot where i was sitting.
“ What movie “ Harry asked like nothing happened moments ago.
“ You two can pick i'm going to sleep “ Lou said.
He went up stairs leaving me and Harry alone.
“ Laura i know we just started talking but you just seem so upset with me or something you won't even look at me without rolling your eyes “ he said why does he cares so much about this.
“ Harry i said to drop it “ i said throwing my head back .
“ But i'm not till you tell me why “
“ No “
“ Yes “
“ No “
“ Yes “
“ Why ? “
" I wanna know “
“ No “
“ Laura jus- “
“ AHHHH! You wanna know fine then ! I fucking like you and i was jealous because you were kissing kendall and hugging her when that could be me ! you never talk to me and i wanted to talk to you but i'm always nervous ! I like you okay ? okay bett- “ i stopped what I saying because i couldn’t believe what i had already said. Harry was sitting there with wide eyes i bet he hates me now.
I ran up to my room locked my door and got on the bed sitting there crying because i just messed up big time with my chances.
Holy chickennnnnnns ! Monkey girl balls ? Lmaoooooo update !
4/13/15