Whiskey Lullaby UNDER EDITING!!

“Hazza? Where are you?’’ I hear Kendall call. I sigh as I turn off the lap top and slide it quickly under my pillow. ‘’In my room!’’ I yell back, annoyed a little. She quickly comes in the bedroom with Lily crying in her arms.

‘’What happened?!’’ I panic as she hands me Lily. ‘’I dunno, She just started crying.. what did I do, Harry? Did I hurt her? All I was doing was holding her!’’ Kendall says, her eyes watering at the thought of hurting Lily.

“Its okay.. she’s just tired and she only lets three people rock her to sleep.’’ I mumble as I gently begin to rock Lily in my arms. ‘’You and Katie.. but who’s the other person?’’ Kendall sighs as she wipes the few tears from her eyes and sits on the edge of the bed beside me.

‘’Niall.’’ I say. ‘’Why Niall?’’ She asks, confused. ‘’No one knows.’’ I shrug gently as I stare down at my angel.

‘’Shh…’’ I shush her as she cries a little more, but finally she stops and stares up at me as her eyes can hardly stay open any longer. ‘’Shh.. Daddy’s got you.’’ I whisper to her as she closes her eyes and grips my thumb with her hand.

“I’m gonna go back downstairs.’’ Kendall softly says as she kisses my cheek. I nod and she stands up, leaving the room quietly, not shutting the door. Even though the guys don’t like her, she’s kind to them. And she treats Lily like anyone would, just like the guys do.

But I will admit to something.. and that being that I do some times wish I hadn’t started this relationship with Kendall. I’m still in love with Katie, I always have been and I always will be. I remember the day I met her. I was ten, she was eight.

She had just moved to Holmes Chapel from Memphis, her dad had a new job location and all and they had to move over to England. It was like Heaven for me. She was the one I spent every afternoon after school with. Every summer day was spent going to the park, or swimming in the pool with her. The nights were spent under the summer night skies, staring up at the stars that shined brightly.

It was amazing to have such a close friend. I had never been so close to any one before. The bond me and Katie had was unbreakable. And it still is. I can still picture the way she was dressed the night I took her innocence, and she took mine. We were super nervous. It was forever ago..it seems that way.

She had on one of my shirts, her hair tied into a bun on top of her head, the fly aways were so adorable to me. We done it at least once a week after that night.

But my life hit a bumpy road about two years ago. She broke up with me because of stupid rumors and because I was always gone. She hated being so far from me, so she ended things. It wasn’t two weeks later that she called me.. I was in London, she had moved to New York to get away from me..

She told me she was pregnant and that the baby was surely mine. I spent those nine months with her. But not “with” her. I called all the time when I couldn’t be with her. But when I was with her, I treated her like a queen. I done everything for her, cooked, cleaned, house work, everything she needed. It wasn’t just because she was carrying my baby, I still loved her and

I didn’t want her to feel unloved just because we weren’t dating any more.

And god damnit,I had my fucking self for deciding to leave her again just after little Lily was born. I agreed to be able to see Lily as much as possible. But thankfully, for me, me and the boys decided to take things slow, and take a pause for a little while. We’re doing our own things. I’m doing a little singing by myself now. Niall’s got two records already out, the break up happened before Lily was born though..

I try not to think about the days though. I just want to be with Katie and Lily for the rest of my life. But I guess Katie’s happy without me.. but I know one damn thing.. I’m not happy with out her. Like Liam said, She’s moved on and so have I. But there’s one thing that makes us different.. She’s happy.. and I’m not…

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