Roses & Wallflowers

I grabbed every piece of strength I had and I pushed Harry away from me and yelled, “What in the world is wrong with you?!” I looked at Julian and he was just standing at least 6 feet away from us.

Harry laughed, “What do you mean what is wrong with me?”

“That was a dumb question Harry. You just kissed me!”

“And there’s something wrong with that… Why?”

I growled, “Well for one, you have a girlfriend. For two, I hate you!”

He flinched and smiled again. “You were the one who almost let me undress you. So, I guess the question is. What is wrong with you? Can you not make up your mind? Is it me or Julian?”

I looked at Julian and took a step towards him, but he took a step back. Then I looked at Harry, “First of all, I wouldn’t even think about being with you. Second, it’s Julian. It’s Julian over you any day.”

I looked at Julian and took another step towards him. “Please say something.”

“I have nothing to say.” He muttered and tears stung my eyes.

“Well… Can you just tell me what you think of this situation?”

He looked at me and shrugged. “I told you that I have nothing to say. I mean, clearly you’ve made your decision. You like Harry, and I knew that you wouldn’t want anything to happen between us.”

“What?!”

“Haize, you like Harry more than you will ever like me. And that is such an obvious statement. Listen new girl, I thought that me and you could be something. And please forgive me for inviting you to this dinner.”

We both looked at Harry, and he was just smirking.

I hit his chest, “Leave!”

Then he grabbed my arm and put his mouth beside my ear, “You will not speak of this night to Dianne. Understand?”

“Like I have to listen to you-”

“Do you understand?” He grated in my ear, probably ripping my arm from it’s limb with his grip. I tried to pull his hand from my arm but he grabbed my other arm with his other arm.

“Let me go.” I gasped.

“Not until you tell me that you understand, doll.”

He let go of my other arm and I smacked him hard in the face, making him take a step back. But then he looked back at me and I swallowed hard. Then he returned the favor; he smacked me in the face.

“Maybe you should learn to keep your hands to yourself. Do not speak of this to Dianne. And if you do, I’ll hit you harder.” Then he got in his car and left.

I looked at Julian and he had his hand over his mouth. “Haize…” He muttered, taking a step back. “I don’t know if I can look at you without wanting to hold you… And clearly you don’t want that to happen. So, I’m going to leave now. And, I guess you’ll see me tomorrow at school, because I’ll just try my best to not look at your painful, beautiful eyes.” He shook his head and walked away from me.

I let my burning tears fall, and began to walk home.

When I got home it was only two in the morning, so mom wasn’t there yet. Which means I have time to take a shower, and then cry.

When I got out of the shower, I walked downstairs and grabbed the can of peanut butter out of the cabinet and sat down on the couch. I decided that I wasn’t going to cry, but my decision was wrong. Because I immediately started to cry when I started to think about Julian.

Then my mom walked into the house with many bags in her hands. When she looked at me she sneered, and then she scoffed. “What are you still doing up? And why are you crying?”

“I’m not crying.” I wiped the tears from my cheeks and took the bags from her hands, taking them into the kitchen.

I went to walk to my bedroom, but she stopped my by grabbing my arm and then grabbing my jaw. She wiped away a tear that just fell and shook her head.

“What happened?” I went to say something, but I just started crying again. She brought me to the couch and made me sit down. “Hey, crying isn’t going to make this any better Haize. Just take a deep breath and tell me what happened.” She snapped.

“I kissed a boy tonight.”

Then she just looked at me, and a smile appeared on her face. “You should be happy about that? Why are you crying?”

“Because it was the wrong guy. I kissed the wrong guy, in front of the right one.” She covered her mouth, trying not to laugh. “Mom!” I yelled, hitting her shoulder and standing up.

“No. Haize I’m sorry. But this is not a good reason to cry.”

I shook my head and said, “How would you know what a good reason for anything is?”

“Excuse me? But I believe I am giving you good advice.”

“You would give a dog better advice than you would ever give to me. Besides, you wouldn’t know anything about love. All you know is how to shove the people you think you love away.”

“Well then I must’ve taught you well because you pushed that boy away, and you’re pushing me away.”

“You think I love you?” I muttered.

“What?” I sighed and looked at her, tears filling her eyes and an angry expression flooded her face. “Listen here young lady! You will not talk to me like this! You will not treat me like a piece of trash!”

Anger flushed through me and I stood in front of her. “Why should I treat you any better?! You treat me like a piece of trash! So why should I treat you better than you treat me?!” She growled and grabbed my arm, but I pulled away from her. “No! I hate you! Don’t you ever touch me again!” I yelled, and it just made her even more mad.

“Don’t you dare talk to me like that-”

“I don’t even want to see your face right now. You’re making me sick-” She slapped me in the face. It didn’t hurt, but it shocked me.

“Go to your room.” She hissed, and I scoffed and ran to my room.

Notes

Hello! It's me! I have internet at the moment, so I might post this chapter and couple more!
Did you miss me? I missed you so much!
I was going to leave you hanging with a huge ass cliffhanger for almost three weeks, but I'm feeling pretty damn generous today, so I am posting a couple chapters. But this doesn't mean I will have internet every day. So I am going to savor it while I can.
And reading, writing, and listening to "Fool's Gold" is a really awesome thing to do all at once. You should try it, lol.
I love you all, and please enjoy the next few chapters! :) -K. xx