Roses & Wallflowers

“Haize you have to calm down.” Luke kept trying to assure that everything would be okay, but no not everything is going to be okay.

“No. No! I blew it! He’s never going to forgive me and it’s going to be so super hard without him and….” I trailed off because of my on-going tears.

“So what are you going to do about it?” Luke asked and I stopped pacing back and forth, putting my hands on my hips.

“I’m going to go see him. That’s what I’m going to do.” I grabbed my jacket and walked out of my room.

“Just like that? Wait,” She grabbed my arm and I looked at her. “Let me drive you.”
I then nodded my head and we walked out of the house and into her car.

When we arrived at the jailhouse, I jumped out of the car and practically sprinted to the front doors. When I walked up to the front desk, I had to stop because I was breathing so hard.

“May I help you?” I looked up from the counter to see a woman in black, smiling extremely too big at me.

“Yes. I am here to visit someone.” I breathed and she smiled wider.

“Here,” She handed me something and nodded her head. “Take a seat over there and fill out this form. Once you are finished, bring it up here and we will be with you shortly.”

Why do I have to fill out a stupid form? What am I doing, signing into jail?

The form had a bunch of questions like ‘Have you ever been married?’ or ‘Have you ever been pregnant?’. In my opinion, half of the freaking questions were irrelevant.
I walked up to the counter and handed the lady the paper back, and she nodded at me when I sat back down.

It took them at least ten minutes to get back to me, and I told Luke to stay in the waiting room when they pulled me back.

Two officers pulled me back.

“I’m sorry, Miss Jones. But Mr. Styles doesn’t want to see you.” One of them said and my heart immediately dropped to my stomach.

“Well can you let me see him anyways?” I was practically pleading.

“We could arrange something, yes.” They both nodded their heads and I went back to the waiting room. Five minutes later, only one of them came calling my name. “Right this way.” He said, guiding me towards a metal-plated door.

I looked inside the small, square window and saw.. Harry. His hair was longer and he had cuts on his knuckles. Had he been fighting? He had his fists sprawled out in front of him and he was looking down with his eyes closed.

I slowly opened the door and walked into the empty room with Harry. I was afraid of what he might say, but I slowly walked to the table and sat down in front of him.

I cleared my throat and put my hand over my mouth. “Hi.”

It took him a moment to look up, but when he did, I never felt so guilty. His eyes were a light shade of green and he had a smug frown on his face.

“Hi.” I said louder and tried to smile, but he looked back down.

“Who the hell do you think you are, showing up like the way you did.” Was all he had to say to get the tears to form in my eyes.

“How are you?” I ignored his question.

“How am I?” He made eye contact with me. “How could you even ask me a question like that? A question to which you already know the answer to. So Haize,” He squinted his eyes at me. “How am I?”

“Harry I’m sorry.” I mumbled and he laughed a little.

“Yeah. You say that so sincerely and truthfully. Others would believe you. Normal people would believe you. But, I have feelings so I guess I’m not normal. I have real feelings so I guess I’m not like other people. So that sincerity and your honest lies mean nothing to me.” He slammed his hand on the table, making me jump.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you.” I looked down and he slammed his hand on the table again. “Please stop. I don’t want you to be angry with me.”

“Well Haize-” He stopped himself and took a deep breath. “Why Jax? Why did you have to go on a date with Jax? Why couldn’t it had been someone I didn’t know? Or.. or someone who I wouldn’t care about. But Jax? That makes it ten times worse because Jax is my best friend. And you’re the girl I love. So do you know how much that hurts?” Tears began falling from my eyes and he looked at me. “I would never hurt you like that Haize. I would never even think about hurting you like that. I would give my own life for you, and you go on ahead and repay me like this? What did I to you that was so wrong?”

I buried my face in my hands and began to sob. “I’m sorry. I am so sorry.” That’s all I could say. I didn’t know what else to say, and he’s over here pouring his heart out to me, when all I can say.. Is sorry.

“I know you’re sorry…” He mumbled and I ran my sleeve over my eyes, looking at him. “But I guess I’m not dumb enough to forgive you.”

“God.” I mumbled, more tears falling from my eyes.

“But.. I do love you Haize. And I would do anything to be able to hold you freely again.” He stood up and I stood up with him. “But I think Jax can do that for me.”

“No one holds me like you do.” I hugged myself and he looked down.

“Did he kiss you?” He asked, his voice hoarse.

“Me and Jax aren’t like that.”

His eyes went crazed and I took a step back. “Did he kiss you?”

“Yes. He did.” I nodded my head and he threw his hands on top of his head.

Then he walked up to me and stopped when he was looking down at me. “I won’t let him do it again Haize. I don’t care if I’m locked away. I won’t let him kiss you again,” He put his hands on either sides of my neck and lifted my head up so I was looking at him. “Because you’re mine, and mine only Haize Jones. And I do not have to share you.”

Then he lips touched mine and I put my hands on his. I missed the feeling. I missed having him kiss me. But this time, it was different. There was more emotion. More… Love.

I let a tear slip from my eye and he disconnected his lips from mine.

“I can’t keep living like this though.” He shook his head and I frowned. “I knew that sooner or later you would replace me.”

“I’m not replacing you Harry.” I shook my head and he gave me a lazy smile.

Then he kissed me one more time and mumbled on my lips, “Goodbye Haize.”

And when he walked out of that door, I couldn’t help from crying again.

Whether he likes it or not, we will make this right.

Notes

It's been about a month... Apologies have been set out... How are all of you? Are you okay? I hope you are all okay :) It's been ages since I've updated.
But here's one and I hope you liked it :) Much love to all of you xoxx