Roses & Wallflowers

He made me sit down on my couch and he started to pace back and forth.

“I’ve just never felt so… So… Nasty.” He frowned and shook his head. “I was walking in the alley and I saw a guy. He was raping a girl and I thought about doing something about it but, Julian walked up and-” He shook his head and looked at me. “Are you even listening to me?”

I nodded, “Yes. And why did you come over here to tell me about Julian? Clearly I’ve already had enough.”

“You didn’t think that when he smothered his body all over yours on New Year’s.”

“Oh my God Harry!” I yelled, walking up to him. “Get over yourself! Stop suspecting things that aren’t even true!”

“So you’re telling me what I saw was all I my head?” He laughed and pointed at me. “If that’s not what happened, then tell me what happened. Why was he on top of you Haize?!”

“Because I was drunk!” I yelled and he stepped back. “And I was scared. I didn’t know what was happening because I was confused and he told me that he wanted me. And I was so caught up in the moment that I actually let him kiss me. And when you saw it, I felt like my whole world had crashed. Harry I-”

“Don’t even say that you loved me because I know it’s a lie.” He shook his head. “If you loved me, then we would be together right now.”

“You think it’s my fault that we’re not together?”

He sighed and said, “Yes. It’s 100% your fault.”

“Because I’m the little drama queen that takes everything so seriously when I don’t even know what the hell is going on.” I mocked his accent and he growled.

“No, you’re right. You’re not. But you know what you are?” I shook my head and crossed my arms. “You are a piece of trash. I don’t even know why I’ve spent all this time trying to give my heart to you when all you would ever do is throw it away.”

“I’m the piece of trash Harry. I always have been, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. But you’re the one who is afraid to admit things.”

“Me?” He laughed again. “I have admitted everything to you baby doll.”

“You haven’t admitted your feelings. I had to find out your feelings when you were drunk.” I said, crossing my arms again.

“You wanna know my feelings Haize? Fine. I’ll tell you. I hate you.” He held out his hand and I dropped my arms. “And I love you. You make it so impossible to be around you sometimes and you drive me insane. I hate to do this, but I think that we should be just friends.”

“Just friends?” I nodded my head and swallowed hard. “Okay.” No, no it wasn’t okay. But I had to go through with it or I would lose him all the way.

“You’re okay with that? I mean, there’s no way in hell that I could possibly be okay with that. But if it’s what you want, then so be it. I just suggested it because I didn’t want to keep arguing with you about what I want to have with you even though I know it will never happen.” He smiled and motioned for me. “Come here and hug me.”

I walked up to him and hugged him, his strong arms wrapping around my torso. Making every feeling that I had for him come back stronger.

All of a sudden, Luke came out of the hallway screaming, running towards us with a bat. But she stopped when she saw me.

“Holy cranberries. I thought we were getting broken into. God, don’t scare me like that again Haize.” She rolled her eyes and fixed her gaze to Harry. “I should pummel you to the ground. But I’m being generous tonight, and plus I’m really tired.” She rolled her eyes again, dropped the bat, and walked back to her room.

“I hope I’ll see you at school tomorrow.” He muttered softly, looking down as we walked to the front door.

“I don’t see why I can’t go.” I stated and he looked at me.

“I just want to apologize for any arguments that we’ve had and all the disagreements.” He said as I opened the door.

“So what if we fight? That’s what friends do, right?” My God I died saying that. It just didn’t seem right.

“Yeah. I guess so.” He stood on my porch and sighed. “I’ll see you tomorrow Haize.” He then kissed me on the forehead and left almost immediately after.

So this is what it’s like to have feelings for your friend? Huh.

Notes

Just friends... With the sexy god Harry Styles? Um well. Let me think about that for a second.
HELL-TO THE FUCK-NO!
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