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Vivian's POV



I laid in bed as I played with the locket around my neck.

Memories.. Memories.. Memories.. I needed to have more memories..


I needed to see more about my "past" life. Why? Because I felt confused with my feelings for both Louis and Liam. I haven't spoken to Louis today, and it was killing me mentally. I missed him. I missed him so fucking much. But I missed having Liam with me, too. It all made me feel like a dirty little slut. I felt lonely being alone in my room. Just as I brushed hair from my face, my ringtone went off. I reached for my phone that was laid on the open pillow next to me and answered after sawing Louis' face.

"Hey," I mumbled.


"Hi beautiful," he spoke softly. My heart flattered. "Were you sleeping?" He asked me.

"No, I can't sleep." I sighed.

"It's 2 AM," he chuckled.

"Yeah.." I lazily said. There was silence for a few seconds before he spoke again.


"Could I come over?" He quietly asked.

"Sure,"


"I love you," he paused. "I really do," my heartbeat rose at the small words which meant so much to me.

Love; is it possible to feel love towards someone you don't really know anymore?

I mentally kicked myself for questioning my love for Louis.


"You too," I mumbled before he hung up. As soon as there was silence in my room again, I questioned my feelings for Louis. He knows me better than I know myself at the moment, but I can't love someone I don't really know anymore. Were we rushing things? I reached for the switch next to my lamp and the pink fairy lights that hung over my bed's headside sparkled to life. I stared up at the twinkling lights and sighed heavily.


I miss Liam.


The doorbell rung, signaling that Louis was here. I stood up and made my way downstairs. When I opened the door, Louis stood with his hands in his pockets, staring up at the night sky. His face dropped, eyes meeting mine.

"Hey," he smiled. He took small steps towards me and gently placed his hands on my hips.


"Hi," I looked up at him. He walked be backwards and closed the door behind him. "Why are you awake?" I questioned.

"I've been missing you," he shrugged.


As we passed the sofa, Louis grabbed my hand. We walked to my room and he closed the door before following me to my bed. The room was dark, except for the light pink lights above my bed. I laid down and Louis did too. We turned; facing each other. We just laid there for minutes passing, looking at each other, observing each other with Louis' fingers gently caressing my cheek in the twinkling light. Louis pulled his phone from his pocket and seconds later, music started playing. He laid the phone in between our bodies, and we continued laying there, just listening to the words and looking at each other. I closed my eyes the same time Louis' lips met my temple. He pulled away again and continued caressing my cheek. My eyes opened, and he started singing along to the song.


"Yesterday is history Tomorrow is a mystery I can see you staring back at me Keep your eyes on me Baby keep your eyes on me."


He smiled. The song suddenly became familiar to me.

"I don't wanna lose you now
I'm looking right at the other half of me."


I tried hard to know why the song was familiar to me, but I just couldn't get it.



"Can I ask you something?" I whispered. My hand found its way to his tattooed arm. He nodded once, allowing me to continue. "Why is this song so familiar?" I asked.


He lightly chuckled before answering. "This was our song before your accident," he informed me. I stayed silent as I let the words which fit our moment perfectly sink in. "We used to watch the stars while singing this song," he told me. My hand pulled away from his arm and took the locket around my neck again. Louis watched me and sighed heavily. "When are you going to get rid of that?" He whispered. I locked eyes with him before looking away.

"I don't know," I told him softly.


Louis stayed silent after my reply. He sat up on the bed and ran a hand through his hair. "Do you miss him?" He asked without looking at me. The words hit me like a storm. "He misses you," he spoke again. I pulled on his arm to get him to lay back down again, and he obeyed. He closed his eyes when his head met my pillow. The song wasn't playing anymore, but I wanted to listen to the words again. I reached for his phone and pressed play again. I smiled at his home screen photo which was of me.


"Louis?" I whispered. He opened his eyes, the pink from the fairy lights sparkling in his eyes.


This is love. Love does exist and I feel it, I feel it with Louis.

"I love you," I told him. His hand lifted from the bed to my face. His fingers traced my lips.
"I know," he told me. "But do you love only me?" He asked.


"I do," I told him.


"Then I ask again, when are you getting rid of that locket?" He whispered. I closed my eyes and sighed.


"I don't know," I told him with closed eyes.

"Then you don't love only me," he said softly.


"How can I love Liam when I don't know him anymore?" I asked, a bit annoyed with his behavior. He sighed and rolled onto his back.


"I watched videos before I came here," he told me. "They were about times spent with friends and family and you were in most of them. The first two, was only me and you. But the others," he sighed. "Was about everyone,"

"Everyone?" I frowned.


"Yeah, like the lads, the girls and you," he spoke. "You were with Liam because well, you two dated," he folded his arms behind his head. "And the way you guys were, that's not something you see everyday." He stayed silent for a few seconds before turning his head towards me. "You know, Vi," he took my hand. "I've seen you happy before," he smiled. "And I worry that I won't be able to make you happy the same way he did," he spoke honestly. I questioned, if it was true, if Louis couldn't keep me that happy. But then again, how would I know how happy I used to be with Liam? Louis' love is all that I know.

"I know you can," I dared to say.


"I know you might think that," he nodded. "It would be so damn hard for me to let you go," he looked away again. "I love you, Vivian. It would kill me to see you with Liam again, but if I can't make you happy like he used to then we shouldn't be together."


"Give me time, Lou, I'm going through a lot," I told him.


"I know babe," he sighed. He pulled my body to his. I laid my head on his chest and listened to his heartbeat. "I know," he whispered as he brushed my hair. "Get some sleep, you have a date with Liam tomorrow," he said. He kissed my temple once, letting his lips linger for a second before laying back down.

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I opened my eyes to my bright room. The sun greeted my underwear-clothed body. I turned around and looked at Louis who was still sleeping. Or so I thought. He pulled my body to his chest and brushed my hair.

"Good morning beautiful," his raspy voice spoke. I smiled and kissed his bare chest.

"Good morning handsome,"


"Handsome, huh?" He playfully asked. I shrugged and sat up. Louis patted his thighs, motioning for me to sit on his lap. I did as he wanted, and he smiled. "You're the more attractive one between the two of us," his chest vibrated because of his chuckle underneath my hands.

"I doubt it," I frowned. "Have you seen yourself?" I pouted. "You're a walking orgasm," he laughed loudly and shook his head.


"Where the hell did that come from?" He continued laughing.

"Just thinking out loud," I shrugged with a smile.


"Well, you're a walking orgasm yourself," he winked. I smiled brightly before pecking his lips. "Is that all I'm getting?" He pouted. I smiled and kissed him again. The kiss was passionate, it made sparks ignite through my entire body. His hands roamed my body, making shivers rise on mine. But of course, something had to interrupt us. "One second," he help up his finger. "What's up?" He asked into the phone. I kissed his collarbone a few times before I kissed his shoulders. "Yeah alright," he sighed from underneath me before throwing his phone down on the bed next to us. He pushed my body away from his gently.

"What?" I frowned at his sudden behavior.

"You have a date with Liam in an hour," he told me as he pulled his shirt over his head. He pushed his phone into his pocket before walking over to me. "Text me when you're done, I have the day off. We can watch movies or something," he smiled. I nodded and leaned into his lips. He pecked my lips, then my temple, then left my room.


I felt disappointed for Louis leaving, but excited to see Liam again.

Notes

Hello my Louvers! I hope you lke this chapter! Leave me some comments so I know what you think :) You cannot vote between Liam and Louis anymore. I didn't continue counting the votes, because I saw a comment which made me team up for a certain boy. When the story takes off in that direction, I will leave a shout out to that person, I LOVE YOU GUYS. Please vote? xx

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