Leave Your Lover

Vivian's POV




"Ready?" Louis smiles at me as we stand outside of Zayn's house. I exhale sharply and nod. He leans down and places a soft, lingering kiss on my cheek, then pulls away leaving some distance between us, knocking on the door.

I don't feel ready for this.. It's been a long day..

"Mate," a dark haired guy opens the door with a bottle of beer in his hand. He looks at me and smiles.

"Zayn," he holds his hand out for me to shake. I can only guess how weird it must be to introduce yourself to someone who you've known for years. I smile at him and shake his hand.

"Perrie has been dying to see you, she was so worried," he shakes his head chuckling.

I give Lou a questioning look.

"Perrie is Zayn's fiance, you're friends with her," he encourages me. I nod and smile at Zayn.

"Well, come in," he stands to the side making just enough room for Louis and I to squeeze in past him.

"Vivian!" A beautiful blonde girl embraces me in a tight hug.

"Hi," I smile shyly.

"Perrie," Zayn whispers, giving her a stern ook.

"Oh, sorry," she giggles. "I'm Perrie," she winks at me. I nod and look at the faces of the boys in the living room. They're all smiling at me, but I make no mistake to notice the worried expressions on their faces.

"Harry," I smile as I sit down next to him.

"At least you remember me," he chuckles as he hugs me. I lean into him, but it's not the same as when I'm with Louis. I miss feeling his hands in mine, I miss his lips on mine too. He walks into the room smiling at me.

"I'm Niall," a cute Irish one smiles.

"Hey," I breathe.

I notice only 4 boys and one girl, but if I have it right, there should be 5 boys, and the 5th one should be my boyfriend. I sigh at the thought. Maybe I should spend some time with Liam and get to know him, see what I feel for him and see if I love him. If I don't, I'll have to talk to Louis about what we are going to do about this situation. I know Liam and Louis are friends and I really don't feel the need to fuck up a friendship.

"Looks like you need a drink," Perrie chuckles as she places a cup of what smells like beer in my hand. I look at Louis, kind of asking for permission to drink, and he nods at me with his beautiful smile lingering on his lips.

I take a sip of the beer. 'Not that bad,' I think to myself.

"Do you guys know what time they'll get here?!" Another voice is heard from somewhere else in the house. I give a questioning look to Louis and he sighs.

"This is so fucki-" he stops mid sentence and looks at me with wide eyes. After a few seconds he runs up to me, embracing me in a tight hug. He's kissing my cheeks, my temple, my hands, my mouth, my chin, my eyes and my lips, whispering 'I love you' over and over. I guess he's a great guy, but I don't feel affected about this at all. I smile at him.

"I've missed you," he tells me as he sits down on the sofa where I sat, pulling me onto his lap with his arm around my waist. This is really, really uncomfortable. I clear my throat and look at Louis. He doesn't have a soft, loving and kind expression on his face anymore, it's replaced with anger. And he inhales and exhales sharply, never looking away from his stare at Liam.

"I'm gonna get me some water," I stand up from his lap. Zayn points to where the kitchen is and I follow his instructions, taking a glass standing next to the sink after I've found the kitchen.

This is a mess..

"Vivian," I feel strong arms wrapped around my waist from behind me, and I lean back inhaling the smell off his scent.

"I want you all to myself," he whispers as he kisses my neck.

I sigh and turn around.

"I don't want him," I tell Louis. And it's true, I don't. I know I don't remember anything, and I wish I could remember my memories with Liam. I don't want to break his heart, but I don't want to fall in love with him all over again. I want Louis, I crave Louis, and Liam isn't a priority to me.

"I know baby, shh, we'll think of something," he kisses my lips softly.

"Just give me 5 minutes to talk to the boys, then tell them you're tired and you want me to take you home. We can leave then," he winks at me causing me to giggle at him.

"You're parents are out for the evening, this should be fun," he whispers, leaving a trail of kisses on my neck.

A soft moan escapes my mouth and I cover it with my hands, knowing that my face is already red.

"Let's go," he whispers after kissing my temple, walking away with a smirk. I pour water into the glass and chuck it down, walking back to the living room.

"Vivian?" Perrie calls out for me as I reach the living room.

"Yes?" I frown at her.

"Don't look at me like that," she laughs. I sit down next to her on a two seat couch, not wanting to be near Liam at all.

"Let's have a girls' night tomorrow?" She nudges my arm with hers.

"Sounds good," I smile at her.

"Great!" Her hands are clapped together. "I'll go to your house at about 6, we could have it here, but the guys are all going to be here. We need some alone time," she winks at me.

"Lesbian alert," Harry says in a girlish tone. I giggle at him and shake my head.

"She's off limits, Vivian," Zayn gives me a serious face.

Perrie bursts out into a fit of laughter and wraps her arm around my waist, pulling me closer to her. "Not for Vivian, she's my baby," she kisses my cheek. Are we always like this? I laugh at her and earn a smile.

"I'm feeling tired guys," I yawn. "Lou, would you take me home please?" I stand up from the sofa.

"I can do it?" Liam offers standing up as well.

"No, no. Her parents doesn't know that she came here. She's uhm, not allowed out," Louis rushes to my side, winking at me. I smile and say my goodbyes to everyone, and soon, we leave the company of the boys and Perrie.




"Come on before they get home!" Louis and I laugh as we run up the stairs to my room.

"Babe slow down," he pushes me against the wall next to my door with his body.

"Eager much?" I giggle.

"You have no idea," he groans. He kisses my lips, soft, and passionate at first. But the kiss soon turns rough and lustful. Is it wrong that I want every piece of Louis all to myself?

I push him away, opening my door as I laugh, rushing inside. He follows me and slams the door then pull my body against his, kissing my neck. I moan softly and he unbuttons his shirt. I sit down on the bed, admiring his body.

"You have condoms here somewhere," he bites his lip as he looks around the room.

How the hell does he know that? We must have been really, really close.

He turns around opening a closet door, reaching for something. I admire his back as he puts the condom between his teeth, pulling down his pants. I stare at his arse, damn..

"Like the view?" He laughs. I blush. "I know you by now, I can tell that you're staring," he turns around winking.

He walks back to me, pushing me down on the bed and start kissing me again.

"This is so wrong yet so right at the same time," he speaks, making his lips brush mine by the movement of his lips.

"Honey, we're home!" My mother calls from downstairs.

He sighs and I laugh at him. "Maybe next time," I peck his lips.

"You know, the good thing about us being best friends to everyone else, is that we can spend every day together without people getting curious. That's what we did in the past anyway," he shrugs as he gets up from the bed, putting his shirt back on.

"So what will we be doing tonight?" I ask

"What would you like to do?" He smiles that perfect smile.

"Let's watch the stars!" I sit up with excitement.

"A swim could work too," he winks at me.

"We are not having sex tonight, Louis," I laugh at him.

"Why not?" He pouts.

"Let's go," I pull his arm so he follows me downstairs.

"Hey," I smile at my parents.

"Hi," Louis joins me.

"I see you guys worked things out?" My mother asks. I clear my throat and look at Louis for help. My mother can not know about us. Not until I've ended things with Liam for good.

"We're friends, we'll always stay friends," he wraps his arm around my shoulders.

My mother seems pleased with the answer, and turns her attention back to my father.

"Let's go," Louis whispers to me.

Notes

"We are all dreamers, wanting to be competely out of touch with reality."