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I'm Still The Harry You Knew - Complete

I Have Nothing Left To Say



Stephanie's POV
Harry, Niall and Lucy head into the living room as I get a quick glass of water, I can't believe things have turned out the way they have tonight. I take a large sip of water and I turn around to see Chloe walking up to me.

"You need to speak to Harry," Chloe says as she leans back on the breakfast bar. I nod as I know she's right but I'm just scared to find the answers out from him. What if Amy's right and he did like her?
"We will tidy things up and you two can go upstairs and talk." She adds and I hesitate to agree.

"I don't know how to resolve this as everything is just messed up." I say as I look at my glass.

"Well it depends if you want Amy to win. I mean if you two split up then she's done a pretty good job hasn't she? But if you talk it through and come to some sort of conclusion then you prove how strong you both are." Chloe says. She makes it sound so simple but I know I have to talk to Harry.

"Fine. I'll talk to him." I place my glass down and Chloe smiles, she quickly walks off and I slowly head towards the living room.

"Right you two talk upstairs." Chloe says as she meets me with Harry. "We can tidy down here and then put a film on." She adds as she looks at us with a pleased look that she's trying to help.

Harry looks away from me so I start to head upstairs. I don't look behind me but I can hear Chloe urging him to follow. I open my bedroom door and I sit down on my bed unsure whether Harry will talk or not.
He's been trying to talk to me since I caught him with Amy, but I wasn't ready to confront him. Maybe he feels a little awkward having to try and explain things to me.
it really sucks because I've lost my best friend, I don't know what I'd do if I'm going to lose Harry as well. I want him to know that I need him and I do love him. I just need answers.

"Hi.." I look up to see Harry closing my door. I feel relieved that he's decided to try and sort this out.

"Hi.." I say as he sits on the floor opposite me with his legs up and he rests his arms on his knees. It falls silent as we both look away from each other. What can I say? Why isn't he trying to speak as he was so sure earlier to explain? Someone needs to try and start this conversation off.

"I don't know where to start." I say as I look to Harry and I try to think about what to say first. No words seem to be coming to mind.

"Ok let me start." Harry says as he looks up at me and he wets his lips, "I want to get it straight that I never did anything with Amy. I never intended too and I never would have been disloyal to you." He says and I look at him as he runs a hand through his hair. He sighs.

"However, I may have gave her the wrong impression. Being so nice to her and trying to help her really didn't do me any favours. I get that." He says and I look away as he does. It secretly feels good to hear him saying this, I don't feel so jealous and insecure. I know it's my turn to speak,

"I just felt like I was losing you a bit. And then I thought I was just jealous but it turns out my gut instinct was right all along. She's planned to make you hers from day one and that's the most frustrating thing. She stabbed me in the back in the worst way she ever could." I answer and I feel the lump forming in my throat. Why did she have to ruin it? We had so many good times and I trusted her so much.

"I guess I just ignored or brushed off the hints she tried to give me. I thought she was being friendly because she valued you so much as her best friend. I never expected her to try and make a move on me." Harry shakes his head as he looks down ashamed.

"You should have spoke to me." I say and Harry looks at me puzzled. "If you thought she was hinting, you should have said." I add.

"I would have looked like an idiot. She eventually decided to take a risk and now we all know." Harry sighs as he moves his hair from his eyes. There's one question on my mind that I just can't control or hold back, I sigh as I begin to ask,

"Did you feel tempted when she came on to you?" My heart starts to pound rapidly as I wait for his answer. He looks at me and sighs.

"No not at all." Thank god for that! I smile softly as I appreciate his loyalties. "There was something she whispered in my ear and I.." He stops as he looks away again. My heart nearly stops as I'm in full panic mode to what he's about to say.

"And you what?" I snap impatiently at him as I fear the worst of what I'm about to hear.

"It doesn't matter." He says as he shakes his head, trying to dismiss the conversation.

"No Harry! Tell me!! And you what!?" I snap louder and he looks at me. "Harry!" I shout frustratedly.

"I got aroused okay!?" He snaps and quickly shuts his eyes in regret. "Fuck Steph!" He snaps again as he leans his head back. Why did I push him to tell me that? I feel like every little bit of happiness I had left has been sucked out of me.

"She made you aroused?" I ask slowly in shock. I feel like my heart has decided to stop as I feel my eyes prick as the tears form and my breathing becomes rapid. He quickly looks at me.

"She didn't, it was the words she used.." Harry says and I can't even look at him. I stand up and I turn away from him. He was attracted to her, he had to be to become aroused. "Steph.." He says as I feel him behind me. "I never wanted to anything with her, it was her choice of words that just made me feel-"

"Turned on?" I answer for him as I turn around to become face to face with Harry. "Great, so anyone who is a attractive can just whisper something to you and boom, they've seduced you!" I says in a harsh tone.

"If you're going to stand here and take the piss out if me then I'm not going to bother. I know how I feel and if I can't prove it to you then that's your problem." Harry snaps defensively as he heads to my door, he stops as he reaches the handle and looks at me.

"Did you ever stop too think that her words may have had an effect on me because I was thinking of you? All fucking day and evening I've been trying to distract my mind from you and from how bad I have wanted you all to myself. Mentally screwing myself up as I pictured you in my head in ways you don't want to know. Those words I wanted from you, when I heard them they just triggered all that emotion I was feeling towards you." I'm speechless as he stops as I try to process his words. I feel completely stupid and I have no idea what to think.

I didn't realise he felt that way, he never expressed how much he wanted to have sex with me, I just thought he was ready to take things further. I never imagined how much it meant to him. He shakes his head and opens the door and walks out. I can't let him go.

"Harry wait!" I shout as I see him in his room as the door is open wide. He's got his bags and he's forcefully throwing in his clothes. "Don't.." I cry softly as he ignores me.

"I have nothing left to say" He says effortlessly as he continues to pack.

"I had no idea you felt that way but you have to understand how I feel! My best friend has been trying to steal you from me and now I seem to be losing everything. I've done nothing wrong Harry!" I cry as I reach out and stop him. He looks at me.

"You didn't trust me, you never have. If you did you would have understood everything that I have said to you tonight. And do you know what the most fucked up thing is?" He says as he frowns. "It's not about you not trusting me or believing me. It's the fact that I swore to myself I'd never hurt you or get you caught up in my shit. But here we are, I've done the exact opposite." He adds and he pulls away from me.

"So that's it? You're going to leave?" I ask as I sit on the end of his bed. This can't be happening..

"Yes. I'm going Stephanie and you can sort out everything with Amy. Pretend I never came here and she never screwed it all up! Forgive her? Do what you please." Harry says as he zips his bag shut.

"So you're going to give up on us? Just like that?" I can't stop the tears from falling and he looks at me. This is not what I wanted, I need him here with me!

"I've got no choice. You were happy before I arrived. I can't stay Steph, I have to leave" He picks his bag up and he heads downstairs. I quickly get up and follow him, the lump in my throat grows bigger.

"Harry no!" I shout from the top of my lungs as he opens the front door. Niall and Lucy quickly appear from the kitchen and they see Harry leave. Niall looks at me and then quickly follows him out.

"Steph.." Lucy panics as she runs up the stairs and I fall into her arms. I've never cried or hurt as much as I do right now.

"He's leaving." I sob as I cry into her chest. I can hear Chloe asking what's going on but Lucy tells her. I've just lost the one person I love the most.



Harry's POV
"Mate she needs you so much right now." Niall says as he stops me getting into my car. "Don't give up." He adds.

"I have no choice. I knew I'd make things worse for her. Before I arrived she had everything going her way. Her and Amy were best friends, Steph was happy and now look.." I shake my head in disappointment.

"But you never screwed up mate, Amy did. You love Stephanie and now you can be with her without anyone getting in the way, Amy's gone she's out of your life because Steph isn't exactly her number one fan right now." Niall explains and I look at him and I nod.

"I appreciate you trying to help mate but I need to go. I'm no good for Steph and I can't stay here. I feel like I'm about to go insane because Stephanie doesn't trust me as much as she think she did. I can't change that and the best thing for us to have some space." I sigh as my own words make me feel so shit.

"Then you need to do what's best for the both of you. I just think you two are great together and I don't want to see you both miserable." Niall adds and I hold my hand out to him.

"Means a lot Niall. I'm glad we met tonight." He smiles as he shakes my hand. "But I know the heart grows fonder when apart. If I stay tonight, it will just be too awkward." I add and Niall nods.

"Okay Harry." Niall says and I appreciate him trying to help us. He knows I'm at the stage where no one can stop me from going. Not him, not Stephanie, not even myself.

"Can you do me one favour?" I ask and he nods. "Can you guys stay with her for two days until her parents get back? I don't want her being alone and if there's a guy here who I know I can trust, I think I'd feel a lot better." I add and Niall looks at me and gives a sympathetic smile.

"Yeah we can do that. But give me your number incase we need you if anything happens. Just on the safe side.." Niall answers and I nod. This is exactly why I know I can trust him, although I've known him for a few hours, I'm pretty sure my judgement of him is correct.

We exchange numbers and I feel a little sick at everything that's happened. Stephanie and I were getting on so well and now it's gone. I'm gutted but I know this is the right thing to do. She can grow stronger as a person and if we're meant to be together then we will be. But for now, I've got to go home and have some time to myself. It will do Stephanie good too, she may not see it like that now but she will soon come around.

"Take it easy Harry." Niall says and I smile as I climb in my car.




Stephanie's POV

"Niall is with him and I'm pretty sure he will make Harry see sense." Chloe says soothingly as we sit on stairs waiting for Harry to come back inside.

"What if he doesn't?" I ask and Lucy squeezes my hand in support. We both look ahead as the door opens and Niall steps inside, my heart is going crazy as I wait. He shakes his head and closes the door behind him.

"Where is he?" Lucy asks and Niall looks at me.

"I'm so sorry Stephanie, I tried everything but he says he has to go." Niall says and his words cause me to burst out crying. I've lost Harry, how can he just leave me? We're supposed to be strong, to be a team and that means we should fight through the pain and come out of this together, as a couple.

"He's pretty cut up about it too, but he's trying to do the best thing." Niall tries his best to explain. I sort myself out and start to control my tears as I look at him, I wipe my eyes.

"The right thing is to stay here and sort this out. But he's left me." I answer and Niall looks down as he looks a little uncomfortable.

"He needs space and sometimes being apart does help Steph. He may come back and realise that a day or so was all he needed. Just give him some time." Niall says in a gentle tone, he looks back up and I meet his eyes with mine.

"I don't get why I'm the one who is being punished when I have done nothing wrong. He's left me here on my own." I say as I start to feel anger towards Harry. Surely when you love someone you're supposed to fight for them, you don't just give up!

"Uh yeah about that, he did ask me if we would stay with you until your parents are back and I agreed." Niall says and his words make me feel so angry. My starts to boil as all the hurt starts to emerge into hate for Harry.

"How dare he?! This is my house and I do not need baby sitting! I'm quite capable of looking after myself." I snap as I feel so insulted.

"Babe, he doesn't mean it like that. Harry just doesn't want you on your own. And to be honest he's right, company is good especially at a time like this." Chloe says and I stand up.

"Why? No one has died, Harry has just left. That's all. There really is no big deal so please don't hold back on your lives for me!." I snap sarcastically as I walk into my room and I close the door behind me. I lean back and slide down to the floor as I softly begin to cry.

Harry's gone and there's nothing I can do.

Notes

Hello!
I hope you like this chapter! Please vote if you haven't already as it would be much appreciated!
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Poor Harry and Stephanie, do you guys think Harry has made the right decision? Or do you think Stephanie is right and he should have stayed and fought for their relationship?
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Comments

I will fucking kill Naomi if she ruins anything!

@xRock_Mex
You're welcome! I'm glad I found it. :)

@MelissaStylesInStyle
Awe welcome to the crazy world of Harry and Steph ;) thank you so much for giving this a go! :) xx

Just finished this and I can't wait to start She Belongs To Me!! I love Harry with Steph!

@soccerstar005
Thank you :)

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11/24/14