The Test Subject

I walked to the lunch hall. Becca and Zayn came in sight almost immediately. It felt ages since i have spoke to them. So much has happened in a space of one day. It all seems so crazy to think about. I remembered Zany's and I disagreement. Hopefully he's calmed down a bit and hopefully Becca will be talkative today. I sat down and smiled weakly at them. This was the usual routine. It felt good to get back to 'normal' "hey" i said looking at the goo Becca was eating. They nodded and my stomach dropped. "we heard that you're new cell mate is a criminal. You must be so scared" Zayn said surprising me. My stomach did flips when i thought back to Ashton. "he's not that bad. In fact, I'm starting to think he's innocent" Becca looked up at me and worry flashed before her eyes. Of course, she stayed quiet. She looked at Zayn. I knew she was keeping secrets from me once again. I swallowed because i was getting extremely hungry, Plus anger was brewing also. Zayn shook his head. "what? If you have something to say, Just say it"
"You're blind. You cant see the bad in people" He shrugged like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Not everyone in this world is bad" I retaliated. I knew i contradicted myself because I thought Harry wasn't that bad. I thought he was the light at the end of the tunnel. It turns out he was just a train. I looked down, trying to disguise the hurt that filled my heart. The lack of reply wasn't the victory i was expecting. I actually felt sad. Perhaps He was right. I am blind. I am naive as Ashton would say. "How have you been, Becca?"
"shes fine" Zayn answered for her. Becca and I both looked at him with angry eyes. I knew Becca would just be silent because she can never find her voice. "what is your problem?" I spat harshly. A few heads turned towards our table. The most frightening thing is I didn't care when guards glared at me. I felt untouchable. It was a dangerous thing to feel in a place like this. Zayn looked dumbfounded. "My problem is you! You act like everything okay, In reality its all going to shit. Its obvious you're working for them" my mouth dropped. "Thats why they never lay a finger on you" Zayn crossed his arms to add effect. I looked to Becca of clarification if shes feels the same. Becca avoided my eyes. Of course she did. Before i could speak i was interrupted. "I think you should leave the girl alone" a familiar Australian accent said. The whole table looked up to Ashton and a smile crept up on my face. His hair was messy as was his clothes. His posture was still strong, really intimidating. I prayed they wouldn't argue in front of everyone. The consequences would be dire. "If you think someone as innocent as her could work for someone evil then you don't know her at all" Ashtons green eyes turned a dark shade of brown, His fists were in balls by his side and he took short breaths.
"You must be the man that went in jail when he was 16. You must be the sick criminal that killed his girlfriend" I raised a eyebrow at Zayn. How could he stoop so low. "Zayn, Seriously?" Becca said hitting his arm softly. Her voice was still soft like a mouth. She reminded me of Alice. Her whereabouts are still unknown. I stood up quickly, preventing Ashton from lashing out. Thats all we need. I realized my strength has grown because I actually kept Ashton back. "You don't know anything" Ashton shouted. Guards from every corner started rushing over towards us. "Ashton, please stop" I whispered in his ear. "for me" and with that his body went from defense mode to soft. "This isn't over" Ashton began walking away. I knew I didn't belong with my old friends anymore. They couldn't trust me anymore. "I'm sorry you feel that way Zayn. But i promise you, I'm not working for anyone, especially miss Butts." I followed after Ashton slowly. I wanted him to calm down before i went over. With what just happened, I noticed the hunger went away. The need for destruction evaporated. My shoulders could relax now. Ashtons head was in his hands, his body was shaking slightly, because of the fury presumably. I sat opposite him. I felt the body heat radiating off him.I would be lying if i said i didn't find Ashton attractive. I reached over the table and took his large hands into my small ones. I wanted to comfort him anyway I could.
"Thank you, Ashton" I whispered, looking at him directly in the eye. He tangled our fingers together, like a pad lock. This kind of contact no longer bothered me. "You didn't have to do that" I said slowly. His eyes grew colder. His tight on we grew tighter. "I hated the way he was talking to you, accusing you of shit" I shuddered at his foul language. "sorry" he giggled like a school girl. There was something about him that made me want more and more of him and that scares me. I hated depending on people because they either die or let you down. "I'm sorry... for what.. Zayn said. He had no right bringing something like that up" I said looking down at our still intertwined fingers. "You're right. He doesn't" and with that we sat in silence. None of us finding the courage to talk. "how are you even walking about?" He said, demolishing the comfortable silence. I bit my lip, racking my brain for a good enough lie. "I thought you would of died" I raised my eyebrow. "I'm glad you didn't though" Ashton said, realizing his earlier mistake. "i heal easy" my voice trailed off. "Its no big deal"
"you get stabbed in the back literally by your closest friend, and its no big deal? where do you find the strength?"
"You just go with it." I said as if it was easy. I couldn't believe i was lying. I'm not strong. I'm weak. "do you really think im innocent?" I asked, a small smirk filling my face. "oh that? Nah i just couldn't find anything else to say" I laughed. "oh really? It sounded like you really meant in. I was beginning to think you liked me"
"when I said innocent I meant naive" Lately everyone's been saying im naive, im blind. I choose to be like this. I would hate to hate the world. "You've said that numerous occasions now" Ashton suddenly went quiet. His gaze met someone behind me. I saw him tense up right before my very eyes. I felt someone whom i once knew behind me. The coldness came off him like it was snowing outside. I wanted to cry but i wanted to show strength. "Lily can we talk?" I stood up harshly. Harry's hair was a messy. It wasn't combed like it usually was. Under his eyes were drowning in darkness. I felt pleased. "Im sorry. I did it because----" i cut him off. "you did it because they threatened you? Yeah I know Harry" i spat. All heads turned to us. I felt Ashton behind me, giving me support. On some levels he knew i didn't need it. "Lily, please Im sor--" I placed my finger on his lips, silencing him. "Don tell me you're sorry, because you're not. You are a coward, Harry Styles. We were friends. Friends don't stab each other in the back, Literally! If you ever come any where near me again I will Kill you." I was dead in his face now. Ashton was gripping onto my waist, keeping me balanced. Harry just nodded and walked away. I was scared because his eyes held no emotion. I destroyed the little humanity that remained in his body. I wouldn't allow myself to feel bad, he deserved this. I swallowed the threatening tears and turned around to face Ashton. "seriously, how do you find the strength?"
Lunch was going to end soon. I was sharing small talk with Ashton about food on the outside. All the promises of making my mouth water was nothing compared to the thought of blood. "and thats the story of when i fell into a marsh. I scrunched up my nose at the image of all that mud. "that's disgusting" I laughed. "im sorry you've never experienced the world beyond these walls." he looked down. "I often feel bad about that" He finished off, surprising me. "you don't have to feel bad for me, Ashton. Im perfectly fine"
"Lily?"
"hmmm?"
"Im really glad you didnt die"

Notes

Short and sweet
But at least Theres a lot of Lily and Ashton
Im crying because its so cute :(
question of the chapter
How would you react to Harry if you were Lily?

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