The Flashbacks

I walk out of his front door quietly, leaving Niall upstairs sleeping soundly as I slip my arms through the sleeves of my thick winter jacket and get in my Jeep quietly. I shut the door softly and throw my jacket in the passengers seat, buckling in and pulling out of his driveway. I sigh heavily, running a hand through my hair and driving to the coffee shop.

You don't love him, Kaitlyn. Why did you tell him that? I think to myself, bottom lip trembling slightly as my hands shake.

I slam my hands to the wheel, groaning in anger and frustration. I was an idiot, an idiot for telling him that. It was far from true and it's been years since I've loved Niall. I lied, and I have no clue why I even showed up at his house at 4:30 am and told him that. Perhaps it was from pity, or guilt. I had no idea, but now I regretted telling him because I knew that he wouldn't forget.
I sigh loudly, unbuckling my seat-belt and opening the door. I slip my jacket back on, getting out and clicking the doors locked and going inside. I hear the bell ring, walking to the counter slowly and lean against it.

"Hello Kaitlyn!" Jack smiles widely, wiping down the table and throwing the rag in the bucket, wiping his palms on his apron.

"Hi Jack." I say quietly, smiling sadly and sitting on a booth at the counter.
"What's wrong, Kitten?" he says, bottom lip jutting out in a pouted expression as his eyebrows scrunch together.

I look at him quietly, ordering my coffee and sighing softly. I think silently to myself, running my hands through my hair.

"I'm a fucking idiot, that's what." I sigh, closing my eyes and waiting for my coffee to be done.
"C'mon, you're not an idiot." he says, pinching my cheek lightly as I swat away his hand, shaking my head. He sighs, wiping down the other end of the counter as I take a deep breath.
"I told Niall I loved him, and I didn't even mean it." I say. "Just write idiot on my forehead please." I say, groaning as he slides my coffee to me.

I take my coffee, sipping on it quietly and look at him. "I love you, Jack." I whisper as he smiles, kissing my cheek softly.

"I love you too, Princess."

-Flashback-

I felt my heart pounding in my chest as I slipped my finger under the seal, opening the envelope and pulling the letter out. I take a deep breath, unfolding the paper and reading over it, screaming loudly. "MOM!" I yell, running upstairs and showing her, jumping up and down as she hugs me tightly.

"Congratulations baby!" she says, rubbing my back and smiling widely.
I smile, dropping the letter and hugging her. "I've gotta go tell Niall!" I say, pulling away from her and running to my room.

I pick up my phone, scrolling through my contacts and clicking his name.

'Come over, ASAP!' I send, squealing.

'On my way gorgeous.'

I smile widely, putting my phone on the nightstand beside the bed and clapping my hands together. I run downstairs, grabbing a fridge magnet and putting the paper on the fridge as the doorbell rings. I smile, running to the door and opening it, hugging him tightly.

"I got the scholarship, Niall!" I squeal, hugging him as he wraps his arms around me tightly.
I grip his shirt between my fingers, burying my face in his chest.

"How far away is it?" he asks quietly, rubbing my back.

I freeze, closing my eyes. "LA." I lie, smiling sadly.

I was lying, and he smiled softly. The college was Ireland, and it was thousands of miles away from where we were in California. I wanted to tell him, I did. But I couldn't tell him now, not yet.

Several months later

Kaitlyn's POV

I hear a car door slam outside, looking out the window and smiling softly as he walks to the door and rings the doorbell. I open it, hugging him tightly and burying my face in his chest, sighing heavily.

"Hey Jack." I whisper, smiling softly and kissing his chest softly.

"I'm gonna tell him don't worry." I say, smiling sadly. and closing the front door behind him. "I'm gonna tell him after the after party." I confirm to him, smiling softly.

"I'll be here waiting so we can pack and then leave the next morning." he smiles, brushing my cheek with my thumb and kissing my nose gently.

I scrunch my nose slightly, placing my hand over his and nodding my head.

"Alright." I whisper, kissing him softly.

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