Never Is A Promise

My stomach churned I wouldn’t see him in time! I raced up stairs to take a shower and change clothes. Aly was in the kitchen when I came back down. She took one look at me and knew something was wrong. She immediately handed me her own tea and a plate with toast.
“He didn’t show did he?” she asked.

“How’d you know?”

“I didn’t hear any screaming or fighting or anything that would have happened had he come over and you’s told him.” She said sitting across from me on the kitchen counter.

“Yeah but now he’s going to hear it from Simon.”

“True but you’ve already explained thing to him and you’ve connected the dots, you can always explain after the meeting.” Aly said. “Now finish we have to be there in a half hour and I’m guessing you want to get there early incase he’s early so you can tell him first.” I nodded shoving the toast in my mouth as I grabbed my bag.

We arrived to the office early hurrying to print our reports for Simon, my eyes glued on the door for the boys as the clock ticked closer to 11:30 my heart was speeding up even more my stomach clenching and felt sicker and sicker as the moments passed.

“Dearth! Terranova!” Simon yelled from the floor above one the other side of the room where the executive offices were; waving us up to his office. I nodded to him, my stomach dropping there was no sign of Harry or the boy yet. Aly and I grabbed our stuff, notes on the current rumors, and the schedules for the boys when they were going on tour in America. I walked quickly across the room noticing that the boys had just walked in as I got to the stairs. They had a copy of their new CD and their fast food bagged lunch. I scampered up the steps quickly feeling sick, Aly right behind me, waving to Niall. The boys sped up racing behind us to get to Simon’s office on time.

“Simon, I need one more day” I said as Aly and I came to a stop in front of his desk. He looked up and shook his head no my stomach dropping.

“You had time MJ.” He said so only I could hear. “Hello girls” he leaned around us “and boys.” He added as a chorus of ‘Hi Uncle Simon’ echoed back to him. Simon raised an eyebrow at them smirking. “Right then, give me the update girls.” He said. All the boys were looking between me and Simon, just waiting. They had to have known Harry didn’t come over last night and they were all waiting for the ball to drop.

“Well all the nasty rumors are taken care of we sent press releases to the media. So we don’t have to hear about Harry getting it on with another woman almost twice his age, quite as much. Or any of the other weird rumors that have been flying around.” Aly said handing Simon the press releases she’d sent.

“Alright so I just finished booking the hotels for the rest of the tour since we just finalized the dates we are looking good nothing to outrageous.” I handed him the document with all the hotels, rooms, dates of stay and price for one night in a single room and the total price.

“Mick some of these are pretty low 700 for 6 rooms with room costs of 200 each?” he looked at me. I nodded my eyes flashed to Harry, his fingers froze over the keyboard of his phone then he shook his head blowing it off, he’d missed it he was staring at his phone texting someone.

I smiled “I bargained, I wanted to keep all the boarding costs under 1000 so I mentioned who was in the room, and promised them a good press release, or if the boys were up to it a meet and greet.” Simon smiled.

“Good job, I like it,” he nodded to us, our signal to leave. We smiled and started toward the door “Oh Mickole!” I froze. That Harry would have heard, I shook it off quickly turning back to Simon, my eyes closed as I told my self ‘pretend it didn’t happen’ I thought to myself “Next time have the hospital send your test results to your house.” He handed me the envelope. Harry’s eyes were watching me the wheels clicking behind his eyes.

“My blood work results.” I explained, “It must not have been forwarded to my new address” I said “I’ll change it next time I’m in at the doctors” turning back to the doors.

“Good choice Ms Dearth.” Simon said smirking.

The rest happened so fast, as five pairs of eyes were suddenly on me, Aly’s eyes widened from where she was holding the door and I did the only thing I could think of, run. I was out the door without a second thought. I didn’t know why I thought running from Harry was going to work again, but the only thing running through my mind was how much I’d hurt him and didn’t want to drag him down again. Fight or flight and I choose flight. For some stupid reason I thought my smaller sick body could outrun him.

A hand wrapped around my wrist as I got to the back stairs, it pulled me back hard into his solid chest, halting my escape plan. I turned to see emerald eyes tracing my features closely.
He stared at me in confusion. “Mick?” he asked quietly brushing back my hair looking down at me. I just nodded putting my hands on his waist. He starred at me eyes wide and pained as he took deep breaths running a hand through his hair. He was looking around not sure what to focus on as everything clicked, sending his mind reeling.

“I’m so sorry.” I mumbled looking down at our feet. “I’m sorry this happened this way Harry” I whispered pulling him close to me resting my head on his chest.

He pushed at me trying to push me away but I held on tight to his waist my head buried in his neck before he shoved me off after a few seconds. “You ran from me, again, why?”

I shrugged not wanting to tell him, stupid I know but I’m afraid I’ll lose him. “I didn’t know what else to do I panicked. I’m sorry.” I said looking up at him.

He closed his eyes turning away running a hand through his hair again before he took a shuddering breath and open his eyes, anger. "Sorry?!" He rounded on me gripping my shoulders "Two and a half years, a letter, and a fake death later and all you can say is Sorry!?!?" He bellowed, mocking me, his eyes wide and tortured as he stared at me. “I deserve an explanation! A few of them!” he yelled his eyes wild looking for something from me, anything. "You've changed Kole." He shook his head looking at me, confusion and anger marring his handsome face. As his head collapsed onto my shoulder his arms winding around me tightly.

As much as we hurt each other, we needed each other more finding comfort in the other’s touch. “You didn’t think that this summer!” I countered coursly before breaking down, my arms encircling him, holding him back as I sobbed dryly into his neck. Replying softly “I told you everything a week ago when I told you the story about me getting cancer, you just didn’t realized we were talking about the same person.”

“No you’re not the same person, my Mickole wouldn’t hurt me like this!” he yelled into my hair. His knees buckling under his own weight falling onto me, my legs unable to hold both of us as we crashed into the ground.

“I didn’t want to hurt you. I’ve never wanted to hurt you Harry. It killed me to see you so broken hearted I never wanted to do that to you. You know you mean as much to me as I do to you.”

“Don’t.” He cut me off pulling away, his eyes going steely trying to stop his break down. “I don’t want to hear it Mick, just stay away from me.” Harry said tear rolling quickly down his face. He stumbled up, backing away slowly shaking his head before walking away. I got up moving toward him for a second before thinking better of it and stopping myself, my hand itched to reach out to him and wipe away the tears I’d caused.

"As if I could Harry" I whispered to myself. All I wanted to do was throw my arms around him and never let go but I didn't want to cause him any more pain. Just as he got to the end of the hall I spoke again. "I was hoping you would have gotten over me. I didn't mean to reopen any old wounds.”

"I'd never get over you, you were mine, all mine" he trailed off whispering his head dropping. He looked up green eyes clashing with my blue and brown speckled ones "Congrats Kole, you've done the one thing you said you didn't want to do, break my heart again," He turned away as a fresh wave of tears formed in his eyes, storming off again so I wouldn't see them fall.

"Let me know when you want me to fix it." I sighed shaking my head "Believe it or not Styles, but you’re still my entire world.” I said letting myself slide back down the wall behind me. “I do love you.” my voice cracked, and I could no longer find the words to say anything. Harry's words cut deep, numbing out all the pain of the my already sick body, and now the pain was being replaced by something else. I gripped at my heart feeling like I was being ripped in two my heart clenched and felt like it was crumbling in on its self. I could only curl into a ball and hold my knees to my chest hoping that if I made myself smaller it would stop the pain, rocking back and forth as sobs shook my body. That was how Liam, Louis and Aly found me leaving Zayn and Niall to look after Harry.

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