Grains of Gold

Harry’s POV

I arrived in LA, and the weather there was much better than at home. Sun, palms and so on and so forth. Seemed like nothing could spoil my good mood.

It’s been a while since my last message. I heard nothing about Nas and her life. Well, let’s hope she was just busy with her study and had absolutely no time and energy to answer me or at least to write anything.

I decided to write again, despite the fact that we had big time difference again. I hoped she didn’t take offence at me and would answer at least tomorrow.

“Hey, Nas! How r u feeling?”

And then another one.

“I’m in LA again… Long story.”

Okay… At least I tried.
In couple of minutes I got a respond. How fast. I really thought I would need to wait until nextt morning.

And then I counted the difference in time and realized that it was already night in her area. Like really deep and dark night. That was weird… Why didn’t she sleep and why did she answer me in the middle of the night?

“I… I dunno. It’s such a mess right now in my head. It’s… It’s like a bomb… Can’t think properly right now, sorry :((“

“Why? What’sup? Is it about me or… Is it your mom again?”

I looked at the phone. She haven’t responded for 10 minutes and I started to feel a bit nervous.

“Nas, please, tell me what happened”

Should I write her that I care about what happens in her life and with her as well?
She continued to be silent and I texted:

“I’m worried about you”

I was sitting and looking at my phone. I had nothing to do but to wait. Justsithereandwait. All plans for that day’s evening have already been canceled in my head. I would go nowhere until I found out what happened… And then my phone vibrated.

“Harry, I don’t think I’ve got a right for it… I mean, I don’t wanna bother u with my problems”

“But I do wanna know, Nas! At least when someone tells me smth is wrong in his/her life, I do wanna know what and why” “And aren’t you sleeping? It’s so late and today’s Wednesday, not Saturday. Is it coz of this…problem?”

“I just can’t. My head is literally burning of my thoughts right now. Why did it happen?”

“Happened what? Nas, I’m begging you, please tell me… Or MY head will be burning. And I’m not sure if that it’s a good thing.” “I already have about 7 theories of what happened and every minute I have one more theory.”

“Never mind. Please calm down. You don’t need to worry. It’s okay. Everything is okay. I’m okay now:)”

“Naaas… It’s not you. Stop pretending. I know you’re lying to me right now. Tell. Me. What. Happened.”

“Fine… Okay. Just give me a minute. I’ll try to sum everything up.”


Nas’ POV

I was looking at the phone and definitely had no idea what to tell him. I mean, from what I had to start my “super cool love story”. I wanted to tell him everything, literally everything. But how? How is it possible to tell anything, when just like 2 minutes ago I literally had an explosion in my head and everything turned upside down for me in my mind and with my feelings?

Things that I’ve learned to hide so carefully, broke out, and now I’m just like dove in this enormous ocean of illusions, hopes and useless dreams that, in the end, lead me to this one phrase…

He likes me. I love him.


*Flashback*


“What are you doing?”

- “MAX??? What??? What the hell?” - I almost screamed to the whole room, and added in a whisper, - “Since when you started to write me first?

As you see, I didn’t want to talk to him. Especially, after he had done to me… Although it’s been a year.

Damnit! I couldn’t let go this mess, that was in my life, for about a fucking damn year! Gooooshh… It was already almost a year, but it seemed to me like we had it about a couple or weeks or a month ago…

And although I didn’t want to talk to him, I couldn’t stop myself from answering him.

“Nothing”

“Okay, and what will you do in the evening?”

- “Sowhat? Mmm? Are you gonna ask me out for a dinner?” – I said with the voice full of sarcasm.

Why did he ask this like that? It seemed like he wanted me to meet him, but you know it was kind of unreal for him. I mean, he had never done this before, so what happened then? What could possibly be changed in his brain that he wanted me to go anywhere? Max! HIMSELF!
Oooookay. Stop it. Calm yourself down. You need to answer him as negligently as it possible.

“Dunno. Why are you asking?”

While I was waiting for his answer, I checked my fridge and found some really cool and tasty red apples there. Who put them there? It definitely wasn’t me. But… If I found them, it meant that I could eat them.

I made a bite and realized that this one was really delicious. I unlocked my phone and the apple fell from my hand on the table. Thanks God, it was just an apple, not my phone…

I kept my eyes and mouth wide open and kept staring at the screen and his message.

“Will you be my girlfriend?”

That was exactly the moment which turned upside down everything…


Harry’sPOV

I made a deep inhale, rubbed my face and then closed my eyes trying to calm myself down. I put my fingers on my temples and started to massage them. And for a very short time I felt myself better, but then the anxiety came back again. And my temples started to pulse with it. I opened my eyes and made an exhale when Ireceived an answer.

“It’s because of my ex-boyfriend-best friend… Well, I can’t call him ex and boyfriend coz in fact there was nothing between us… It’s a long story.”

“Ooooh… What has he done?”

Ex-boyfriend-best friend?... Is it even possible? Well at least it wasn’t about her mum.
“Can you not write anything before I finish the story?”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Okay. Sorry, I still can’t write fast in English. But I’ll try to.” “So, I was in love with this guy since I was about 7 or 8 years old.” “And I’ve tried so many times to ask him out, but it didn’t work out coz he always said he wanted to be with me nothing but friends.” “Well, technically we were sort of a couple about a year ago, but in fact we had nothing. I mean, he asked me to date him, but then he behaved with me as a friend.” “We went out only 2 or 3 times. And less than in a month he broke up with me.” “The reason was that he wanted to figure out smth about his feelings about his ex.” “To tell the truth, it was really hard for me to deal with it. Coz I loved him so much, and he did knew it, coz I’ve been telling it him at least million times.” “But you know even after this break up we still talked to each other, coz he was my best friend.” “And things seemed to be good, although I started to talk to him a little bit rude” “But today…He asked me to date him again! And that’s why I have such a mess in my head right now.” “I mean, I really don’t know what to do. I can’t… I can’t say him ‘No’, but on the other hand, I know that I need to.” “Coz I know that the situation like a year ago will repeat if I say ‘Yes’. He’ll still behave as my friend, though I’ll feel different” “And I don’t wanna it.” “Sooo, it’s the end of the story, and if you say I’m insane, I’ll agree”

Something has changed within me. I knew that she couldn’t lie. You should have a very bright fantasy to make up something like this one. But this story seemed for me a little bit unreal. I mean, how can you love a person, who is dating you and at the same time think of you as a friend?

“Wow… Well… Why can’t you just tell him No? I don’t understand”

“I don’t wanna hurt him”

“…And so you let him hurt you instead”

“No, it’s not true!”

“Yes, it is, Nas. Let’s face it. You know that I’m absolutely right. And all I wanna say is that you don’t deserve him.” “No. I’m wrong. HE doesn’t deserve you. And your love too.” “So I definitely think you need to tell him ‘No’”

“I know, but… I still think we could be something, and this thought really tortures me”

“So does he. He tortures you”

“No, he doesn’t! He’s very nice to me even when I’m rude to him”

“Nas… Stop defending him. He knew you were in love with him, and he’s done nothing about it for so many years.” “Do you really think he can see a girlfriend in you, but not just best friend, whom he can fool with his ‘love’?”

“YES. I mean, everything changes.”

- “It’s unbelievable”, - I shouted, splashing hands, - “How can you be so under his hypnosis and not able to see such obvious things?!”

“I don’t know this guy, but already hate him.” “Listen, Nas. He won’t change. Not now, not even in 2,5 or 10 years.” “You may be expect that he will love you the way you love him, but it will never happen. I’m sorry to tell you this. But it’s the truth.” “Sorry once again”

“May be you’re right… But still… I can’t tell him No. I dunno why”

“He’s just… He’s a wrong person for you. Totally wrong! Just imagine what and how you’ll feel, when you meet the right one. And I hope this will help you to tell him No.” “And if it isn’t, then I don’t know what would help you then…” “As an option, you can tell him that you’re dating someone. For example, me haha. Just kidding :)”

“That’sunlikely. He knows I have no personal life at all. Haha and who would believe that I date a celebrity?”

“Do you????”

“Yeaaah, sure. Like, 10 at the same time!”

“Yeah, that’s better, that’s the Nas that I really like haha!” “So did I help you to figure out your thoughts? Atleastalittlebit?:) I would be very happy then!”

“I dunno, but at least now I feel myself muuuuch better. Thank you so much Harry! :)”

“You are welcome ;) Any time, at daytime, at night…” “Btw about the night. All you need right now is to go to bed and try to fall asleep.” “You can answer your ex tomorrow, don’t think about him. You really need to have a rest.” “Better think about me haha :)”

“I’m afraid I won’t be able to sleep. And I’m already in my bed.”

“Don’t make me wanna come to you and lull you like a little child”

“WHAT??? Noway! And who said that I would open you the door in the middle of the night?”

“I can enter through the window…”

“Through aclosedwindow?”

“Well, that’s not a problem. I’ll just knock it out.”

“And I’ll be in really huge trouble with my mom. I’ll be not allowed to use the Net. For a month, in the best case.”

“But we’ll set up new windows then”

“GREAT (it was a sarcasm, just so you know)”

“And I’ll have a chance to see you more often, if your mom punishes you”

“And if she doesn’t, then we won’t have a chance to meet?”

“Hmmm maybe. Haha I’m kidding. Of course, we’ll have lots of opportunities to see each other”

“I have already been seeing you like every day.”

“Where???”

“In Twitter. And sometimes in my timeline when I check it”

“But that doesn’t count. Anyway. You gotta go right now! Or I’ll definitely come to you!”

“Okay, you’re right. I don’t promise I’ll fall asleep… But at least I’ll try.”

“Deal. Goodnight! Have nice dreams!”

“Thanks. And the same to you too.”

“It’s a bit early for me, but thanks”

“Are you having a nightlife again?”

“Nope. We just have a big time difference now again.”

“You’re in LA, right. Sorry, can’t already think properly”

“That’s okay. Close your eyes and sleep. And I’m gonna have a little bit of sunbathing”

“Oooh lucky you. We only can dream about sun and warm weather this season. Hope you won’t get a sunburn :*"

Notes

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