Suicidal.

What am I doing? It's 11 at night and I'm at the beach way to far from shore.
I'm to far from shore.
I start to panic the waves are starting to come heavy. I start to scream.
"HELP , HELP IM GOING TO DIE PLEASE" only to have my pleas never heard. Me and Louis had made sure that no one could hear us. That no one could see us. I kept screaming for my life maybe someone would hear me. The waves kept crashing over me harder and harder. I swam towards shore. I was getting there to slow. I was going to die. My lungs weren't getting any air my body is starting to fail. I start to sink my heart is pounding everything is sore. This is it. This is how it's all going to end here and now.
I see someone swim out to me. It's Louis. How did he get out here? What the heck. Louis gets as close as possible. He dives underwater with me. Lou closes his eyes and holds my hand. I close my eyes.
Bye Lou, bye Zayn, bye Liam, bye Niall, bye mum, bye Gemma, bye Robbin, goodbye Directioners thanks for your support for me and the boys, they deserve it so continue to believe in them, I think my last thought before it all fades away. The pounding in my ears. My heart slowing down. My muscles aching.
This is it.





or is it?

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