I won't change. Because I can't.

Harry's POV

That asshole, how can he say it's was nothing serious?!
I fucking risked everything kissing him on stage, the whole world knows how I feel and he just goes and chews me up before spitting me out.

I storm up to our bedroom and lie face down on the bed, I'm not even in the mood to cry or whine, or even shout. I just want to do nothing, just think. My feelings for Louis have always been strong but ever since last night and this morning I have to admit that after all these years, I love him.
And it brakes my heart knowing he might not feel the same.

The door unlocks and light footsteps are heard, I hide my face in the pillow, refusing eye contact.
A hand is placed on my back as the bed dips.

"Harry?" His voice calls, of course it would be him. Louis and all his perfectness.

"Hm" I moan not even knowing what I was meant to say.

"Come one Harry don't be like this, it's just that we're not officially even together" He presses on. Urgh shut up Lou.

"Well do you want to be with me?" I ask looking up to face him, he bites his lip and rubs his arm.

"I-I don't know, I still have El and I'm not sure about my full feelings for you" I roll my eyes and turn away from him.

"Well then don't touch me until you make up your mind" I snap. He removes his hand from me and I can feel him glaring at me.

"Fuck Harry this isn't easy for me, I've always thought I was straight and now after what we have been through I don't know. Can you just give me some time?" He begs, I groan and face him.

"And how long will it take for you to make up your mind huh? A day, a month, maybe even a bloody year! I can't wait that long Lou, I want to be with you and I want to be able to say to people that your my brilliant boyfriend who belongs to me and no one else. I can't wait for that!" I yell getting up as Louis does the same, he stands one side of the bed as I stand the other.

"Well I'm sorry Haz but you're gonna have to wait because I can't just suddenly drop El and run to you, I have to make sure I want this, I have to make sure that I want you" His voice becomes still and I shuffle my feet, I want to be sincere but in all honesty I'm fed up of his un-deciding mind.

"Like I said, don't touch me until you know" I mumble and sit down on the bed away from him, rustling is heard before the door closes.
Tears build up in my eyes but I just shake my head and promise myself I'm not going to cry over someone who clearly does not feel the same towards me.
I need something to take my mind off him.
My phone slips easily out my pocket as I grab it and dial Grimmy's number.

"HEY HARRY!" He yells through the phone bringing a smile on my face.

"Hey Nick, want to go out for a drink? I'll invite Ed if he's around too" I ask wiping my eyes and scanning for something to wear, we have a concert in two hours but that's enough time to get shit faced and then forget. I think.

"Yeah sure, haven't gone out for a drink in ages. Is Louis coming?" I stop my movements when he mentions Lou but I shrug it off.

"No, I'll meet you at the Flying Duck in ten minutes" I instruct before hanging up, I then text Ed and take a shower.


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Louis' POV


I unpack my stuff in Liam's room, my eyes swelling but I won't cry over him and his stupid hissy fits.
Why can't he understand that I need time to know what I want, right now I don't want this side of Harry.
I've always questioned all the rumors and wondered how it would be if it were true. Me and Harry, Harry and me. Even at this moment where he's pissed me off I still want his touch, I want to hear his beautiful laugh and feel his lush hair.
But right now I think it's best if I just have my time to think.

After unpacking I head to the green room where the rest of the lads are, apart from Harry of course.
Zayn gives me a cheerful smile, I'm guessing he knows. I don't give any emotion and just sit in the corner and go on my phone.
Everything just seems horrible when me and Harry fall out.

"Uh Lou had did the talk with Harry go?" Liam asks, I sigh but don't respond. They should be able to figure it out.

"I'm sleeping in your room tonight Liam, if that's alright?" I mumble but keep scanning through my Twitter, not diverting my eyes.

"Uh sure, take as much time as you need" He replies.
As I scroll through my Twitter of course it's full of me and Harry kissing, my eyes clamp shut and I breathe out.
One fans post catches my eye.

'@LarryTho- Its so obv that Harrh kissed louis y do u guys believ that this is lurve? lois does not even embrace harry...

After reading the through the horrible spelling and punctuation I start typing back.

'@LouisTomlinson- It was an unexpected kiss, that's why I did not embrace him.

My phone starts ringing and it's El, oh great.

"Hi El" I breathe.

"Don't you 'hi' me, what is this picture on Twitter of Harry kissing you?!" She yells.

"I'm still figuring it out myself babe, just give me some time and I'll answer you"

"You better and if he touches you again I will personally kill him"

"Don't worry, I think he made it clear about the no touching" I sigh.

"Whatever, speak later"

"Bye" I hang up and Niall sits next to me, giving me a small cheerful nudge.

"He'll come round Lou" He says and I nod slowly.

"I hope so"

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