Clary's POV
Well my week kind of flew by. Today is Saturday and today is the day that Eleanor and Perrie are coming over to Nicole's place for the night. I am kind of nervous. I don't really want to go because well that’s just not my life anymore. But I promised Nicole that I would go. So here I am sitting in my room throwing clothes into a backpack to take over. Its noon and I'm hungry so I go and make a sandwich. Penny is out on her first date with Ryan today. They are going out and about. I'm really happy for them. So once again I was helping her pick out clothes to wear. She was beyond excited. Penny is naturally a bubbly person…but she was so excited I swear she was like bouncing off the walls. I sit down on my couch and just sigh. I hate being alone. This place felt so empty without Penny here. I think next weekend I am going to go back home. I haven't seen my mom in a while and I could visit Lilly for a bit as well. I sigh and get up to do my dishes. After that I head to my room. I grab my guitar. I strum mindlessly for a bit. I look at my end table at the family picture before my dad went over seas. God that felt so long ago.

"Daddy do you have to go?" I pouted while sitting on his bags hoping he wouldn't leave me. He comes over smiling. He had brown hair but green eyes. He picked me up off the bags even though 14. He was really strong. "Aw Clarissa…you know I don't want to but I have too. Now you be strong for your mother okay? And don't forget to send me those yummy cookies of yours." I smile and nod at him. My mom was crying while he drove away to the airport. We couldn't go with him to the airport for some reason.

I feel tears rolling down my cheeks when I think of that day. The last time I saw my dad face to face was 8 years ago. 8 years without him…8 years and the memories are still fresh in my mind, like they happened yesterday. I set my guitar down and decide to go shower and get ready for today's events. There was pounding on my door right when I get out and put on some clothes. I run out of my room to see who it is. I let Nicole in. "Hey Coley…missed me too much?" She just sticks her tongue out at me and sits down at my table.
"No…I just…I don't know. Liam hasn't texted or called yet…what if I scared him off? I am kind of hard to love…" I sit down next to her.
"Preach it...OW! I was kidding Nicki." I rubbed my arm where she punched me.
"Sorry…I just…I reallllyyy like him. I thought we had a good time…" I look at her…she seemed so dejected.
"What if I text him or Harry to see what is happening?" I sigh while she claps her hands and squeals. I roll my eyes again before shooting off a quick text to Harry.

Me: Harry have you talked to Liam?...
Harry: Yea he had a blast, couldn't stop raving about it…why?
Me: He hasn't sent a text or called Nicole yet…she's kind of freaking out.
Harry: He'll call…maybe he doesn't want to sound desperate?

"Well? What did Harry say?!" Nicole was looking at me all hopeful…I need to send a quick text to Liam.
"Just hold on, he hasn't given me much." She slams her head on the table while I text Liam.

Me: Liam I swear to god if you don't call or text Nicole right now I will chop off your balls.

"Harry said Liam had a blast and should call you soon." Her head shoots up and she smiles at me. And just on queue her phone rings.
"OH MY GOSH ITS HIM! EVERYONE BE COOL." I laugh at her while she scrambles out to the hallway slamming the door behind her. And I, being the best friend, quickly follow and listen through the door. I text Lilly filling her in on everything. I know she can't come out this weekend and I don't think Eleanor and Perrie know that she lives over in Dublin now. I can't really hear what is happening. I hear a very loud and excited yes though. Then the door flies open, knocking me on the ground. Nicole quirks an eyebrow up at me. "Clarissa Diana…were you eavesdropping on my phone call?"
"I was attempting to…I couldn't hear much. What'd ya say yes to?" She just helps me up and smiles down at me. I glare at her waiting for my answer.
"I have another date tomorrow night. Well after your little gig we are going to a movie." She smiles triumphantly.
"Yay! Oh that's so exciting! You guys will be so cute." She smiles and checks the time almost 5pm because I glance at my phone.
"OH shit…come on Eleanor and Perrie will be here in an hour and I haven't set anything up yet!" I run to my room and grab my stuff then lock my door before bolting down the hall after Nicole. After about 45 minutes of setting up we sit down right when the buzzer goes off. "They are here. Well this will be interesting." Nicole gets up and buzzes them in. About 3 minutes later knocks on the door sound out. We both get up and answer. There stands Eleanor and Perrie smiling holding some bottles of alcohol and junk food. We smile back and let them in. Eleanor speaks up first. "You're building is so cute and charming! I always wanted to live in an older building but Louis hates them."
"Here I can take that stuff. Um make yourselves at home while I mix up some stuff." Nicole grabs the stuff and points them to the living room. I go and sit down, Perrie sits next to me. I look over at her and smile. She really hasn't changed too much, still dying her hair crazy ass colors. "This is going to be fun…just like old times. Right El?" Eleanor smiles and nods. I look back at Nicole, I feel so awkward.
"When is Lilly coming?" I look at Eleanor like she is stupid.
"She isn't. She lives in Dublin...since sophomore year when her mom got breast cancer. She's over there finishing off her nursing degree." Eleanor gasps and pulls out her phone. I roll my eyes and sit back with my arms crossed. "She's not going to answer. She works the night shift this weekend at the hospital." Eleanor looks back up at me and puts her phone away.
"I had no idea…god her poor mother. I should go and visit sometime. Anyways what's been happening with you guys?" Nicole comes and passes out drinks. Thank you! Nicole talks about school and her new book coming out soon. Its still currently in editing, but she is working on the sequel. They all look at me, I finish the rest of my drink before telling them all about my school experience and working over at Radio One. After a few more drinks we were all laughing and having a good time…I really did miss Ellie and Perrie.

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Niall's POV
It was really late and here I was sitting strumming on my guitar, playing some of Clary's favorite songs. I have been playing and singing to Florida Georgia Line since she loved them to pieces.

I'd sell my soul just to see your face.
And I'd break my bones just to heal your pain.
In these times I need a saving grace, but time is running out and I'm starting to lose my faith.

But if I told you I loved you, would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and making you walk away.
I should have took the time to tell you
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
I can't go another day without you
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
Girl you gotta know I love you

My heart's on my sleeve, but it's turning black.
I guess I know what it feels like it to be alone
Without your touch I'm not gonna last.
I know you know that I need ya just to carry on
It feels like my walls are caving in.
You'd always hold me before I left you hanging on
And I'll do anything to have you here again.

But if I told you I loved you, would it make you want to stay?
I'm sorry for the way I hurt you and making you walk away.
I should have took the time to tell you
And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
I can't go another day without you

Yeah, the days are cold, the nights are long.
And I can't stand to be alone.
Please know this is not your fault.

And all I want...

Is to tell you I love you and make you wanna stay.
There's gotta be a way, 'cause going on without you is killing me everyday.

And if I wrote you a love song and sang it to you every day, would it ever be enough to make you wanna come back home and stay?
I can't go another day without you
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
Girl you gotta know I love you
Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?
I can't go another day without you

Would it make you, make you, wanna stay?

I sigh and put my guitar away then head back to my living room. It was well past midnight and I couldn't sleep…again. I don't know why but this past week I have been tossing and turning. So I just stay up and watch infomercials, well more like laugh at them. So here I was watching about this stupid hair drying thing…I'm not quite sure. There was a loud knock at my door. What the hell? I groan and get up. I open the door and see Clary. "Clary what the hell--"
"I hate you! I hate you so much." Wow she was so drunk.
"Clary how did--" She just pushes her way through me and into my place. I sigh but shut the door following her. She is pacing more or less since she is really tipsy. She starts yelling at me again.
"I hate the way I can't forget about you…how my body still craves for your touch…I hate how no guy will ever replace you! I hate that I still want you even though it would be so pointless because we live two different life styles!!" I just gawk at her. This is so not how I wanted this conversation to go. First off, I would rather us both be sober and that she would finally realize we are pretty much soulmates. I go and sit down while she just sobs and stares at me.
"Clary…how did you get here?" I look up at her.
"Perrie told meee. Soo I ran here."
"You ran all the way here?" She just waves her hand but almost falls over in the process. I forgot that she was a big workout junkie. So I suppose that it wasn't that big of a deal to her to run all the way here. She sways a bit so I stand up and go by her. She reeks of mixed drinks. "C'mon babe lets get you to bed…how does that sound?" She just nods and I take her hand. I lead her up to my room and she goes in. She looks around studying things. Then she turns around and looks at me with those hauntingly beautiful green eyes of hers. "Clary does Nicole--"
"Niall…why did you say those things at the BRITs…it hurt me a lot…more because it came from you. You don't love me anymore do you?" She thought that I didn't love her? Is she stupid?! Of course I loved her. I love her more than myself. Before I can even respond she speaks up again.
"Is Barbara better than me? That's why you like her…she is pretty…I'm not. Its okay Ni…I just needed to hear it…then maybe we can move--"
"I don't want to! I love you Clarissa. Barbara was too whiny…she wasn't you baby. Come on look at me." She does and there are tears in her eyes. Good lord why do I always make her cry? I rush over and pull her into my arms. I don't think she is going to remember this tomorrow morning.
"Ni…I'm tired…" I pick her up and carry her to the bed. Which I probably shouldn't have considering my knee…but its Clary and I would do anything for her. I go to leave but she stops me. "No please stay…sing me a song Ni?" Ni…its like she has put a spell over me. I go and let her cuddle into me on the bed. She smells the same…if you get rid of the alcohol.

One day you'll come into my world and say it all
You say we'll be together even when you're lost
One day you'll say these words
I've thought but never said
You say we're better off together in our bed

I want you here with me
Like how I pictured it
So I don't have to keep imagining

Come on, jump out at me
Come on, bring everything
Is it too much to ask for something great?

The script was written and I could not change a thing
I want to rip it all to shreds and start again
One day I'll come into your world and get it right
I'll say we're better off together here tonight

I want you here with me
Like how I pictured it
So I don't have to keep imagining

Come on, jump out at me
Come on, bring everything
Is it too much to ask for something great?

I want you here with me
Like how I pictured it
So I don't have to keep imagining

Come on, jump out at me
Come on, bring everything
Is it too much to ask for something great?

I want you here with me
Like how I pictured it
Is it too much to ask for something great?

You're all I want
So much it's hurting
You're all I want
So much it's hurting

She was knocked out…and I didn't want to leave. If she wakes up and goes back to hating me then I want to have this to remember. I love her so much and I think she loves me too still. But I have to take it slowly again. I kiss her head and get comfortable so I could sleep. I forgot how good it felt to have her in my arms.

Notes

Oh mannn!! What do you guys think of this?? Drunk Clary speaking her mind? But the most important question....What will happen the next morning?! Will Clary stay or will she leave? Will Niall be heartbroken again or will he finally get the hint? Found out next time!!

Okay so here's the deal. I probs won't update tomorrow at all and just write a bunch on my laptop so I can update during the week. So today in my lesson a kid cried and I thought I was going to kill myself. Ugh...I love kids don't get me wrong...but sometimes I don't. I was filling in for someone so I wasn't even with my kids who are the bomb. They are the best ever...so nice and they listen and they just rock. Okay end rant. Right now I am watching the World Cup...Go Australia!! Well I will try to update Sunday but that's Father's Day soo...idk if I will have time. But I will try...so don't be sad/ upset if there isn't an update this weekend!

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~A xxx
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