London Love

Today was the day Harry was leaving me. Niall, Zayn, Louis and Liam were going to be here at 10am to pick him up and head to the airport. My alarm went off at 8am and I was quick to turn it off. I nuzzled my face into Harry’s neck and lightly kissed him. He tightened his grip on my waist and kissed the top of my head.

“Don’t leave babe.” I whispered into his ear and kissed him on his cheek.

“You know if I could I would stay right here with you. Forever.” He said and moved his hand so our tattoos were now touching.

“I still can’t believe I got a tattoo. Only you could convince me to get one.” I laughed and ran my fingers along the tattoos all over his chest.

“We have to get up don’t we?” I groaned and Harry shook his head and gave me a deep kiss.

“The boys will be here soon.” He said as he pulled down the covers and headed to the bathroom.

I sat on the edge of the bed and attempted to walk down to the kitchen to make some tea. I was still sore from my night last night with Harry, but I managed.

I made 2 cups of tea and brought them over to the couch with me. Harry came down the stairs soon after carrying his bag. He was wearing his grey vneck, black pants and my favorite black beanie. His Ray Bans were hanging off his collar and he put his bag by the front door, joining me on the couch.

“Tea.” I said handing him his cup and he gave me a small peck before taking a sip. He put his arm around me and we sat their on the couch watching some TV. A commercial came on and Harry muted it, turning to face me.

“You’re so beautiful.” He said pulling me close to him. “Doesn’t matter where I am in the world, you’ll be the only girl I’m ever thinking about.”

“I love you so much.” I said pulling him in for a kiss. He pulled me on top of him and started to tickle my sides.

“Harry! STOP!” I cried between my fits of laughter. “HARRRRYYYYY!” I continued but was soon silenced by Harry’s lips on mine. He slid his tongue across my bottom lip, but I refused to give him access. He pinched my side and I let out a “yelp” allowing him to slip his tongue inside.

I smiled into our kiss and ran my fingers through the curls on the back of his neck. Our make out session was getting pretty intense, but of course there was a knock on the door.

Harry and I both pulled away and rested our foreheads on each other before I got up to answer the door, Harry following close behind me.

“Morning!!!” The boys all said in unison waving to Harry and I.

I smiled and hugged them all as them came inside.

“Can I get you guys anything? Coffee? Tea?”

“We’d love to stay Lindsay but we’ve got to get to the airport to make our flight.” Liam said and Harry glanced at me with a sad look on his face.

“Louis can you bring my bag to the car? I’ll be out in a minute.” Harry said and Louis nodded and grabbed his bag!

“Bye Lindsay!” They all chimed and I said goodbye before facing Harry.

“So this is it.” I said intertwining our fingers.

“6 weeks will fly by baby.” Harry said pulling me close to him and wrapping his arms around me.

“I’m going to miss you everyday.” I said trying to hold back tears, but a few managed to escape my eyes.

“Please don’t cry Lindsay. Please babe.” He said making it obvious that he was now crying too.

I looked up at him and used my sweatshirt sleeve to wipe tears from the corners of his eyes.

“Don’t you cry now too. You’re going to see the world with your best friends, I’ll be with you before you know it.” I said pulling him in for a kiss.

“I love you Lindsay Shaw.” He said.

“And I love you Harry Styles.”

“Forever.” We both said in unison before giving him one last kiss. I stood at the door watching him walk to the car and waved one last time to him and the boys before the car drove away towards the airport.

6 weeks apart and this huge house to myself. What was I going to do?

Harry had been on the road for a little over 3 weeks now and I had started to become quite bored with everything. Schooling was going good and I was interning for a marketing company but I was getting bored of the routine. Harry was always the one coming up with adventures or little things to distract me from everyday life, but without him here I started to get quite bored.

Mia had noticed and convinced me to start playing music at a few open mic nights at local pubs. Tonight was my first performance and I was beyond nervous, but excited to be doing something new. I decided I was going to sing “Heart on Fire” by Jonathan Clay and “The a Team” by Ed Sheeran, mainly because they reminded me of Harry and how we use to sing them together.

I put the finishing touches on my outfit and headed downstairs to meet the car.

The paparazzi had died down a little for me, because Harry wasn’t in London anymore. They mainly just asked me questions about him and our relationship, but I never answered them. I never wanted to say something wrong or make Harry upset, so I just chose to ignore them.

I got dropped off in front of the pub, grabbed my guitar and headed inside. The manager’s name was Sam and he lead me to the stage to set up for my performance. I had already tuned my guitar so it was really just positioning the mic for my guitar and my mouth.

“Ladies and gentlemen our next performer you may have heard of, but little did you know aside from being Harry Style’s girlfriend she has an amazing voice and is a very talented guitar player. Let’s give it up for Lindsay Shaw.”

There was an applause from the crowd, along with a few screams, which I could tell were for the mention of Harry and not me, but I didn’t mind, I was more worried about sounding good and not messing up on the guitar.

“Thank you. This next song is for a very special person in my life who I hope is having an amazing time in America.” I said laughing. “This is ‘Heart On Fire’” Then started the opening chords.

I'm falling in,

I'm falling down,

I wanna begin,

But I don't know how,

To let you know,

How I'm feeling,

I'm high on hope,

I'm really

The crowd seemed to be enjoying the song and I looked up into the audience to see two girls recording on their phones.

And I won't let you go,

Now you know,

I've been crazy for you all this time,

I've kept it close,

Always hoping,

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

I started to tear up a little, just because this song was so perfect for Harry and I and all I could think about was how much I missed him. But I continued.

Hand in hand,

Sparkling eyes,

The days are bright,

And so are the nights,

'Cause when I'm with you I'm grinning,

Once I was through,

And now I'm winning

And I won't let you go,

Now you know,

I've been crazy for you all this time,

I've kept it close,

Always hoping,

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

Let me walk through life with you,

Everybody dreams of having what we do,

Like we're holding thunder,

You pull me out from under

And I won't let you go,

Now you know,

I've been crazy for you all this time,

I've kept it close,

Always hoping,

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

With a heart on fire

A heart on fire

And I finished with the final line.

A heart on fire

Before the pub irrupted with applause. I couldn’t stop smiling knowing that these people actually enjoyed my singing. I smiled and said “thank you” over and over waiting for the applause to die down.

“Thank you very much. If you’ll let me I have one last song to sing.” I said and they hooted and hollered again.

“Alright so I’ll take that as a yes. This is ‘The a Team’ by Ed Sheeran. Please sing along!!!”

The crowd sang along with the song and applauded after I was done. I thanked them and put my guitar away. I was walking towards the door when I was stopped.

“Um Hi Lindsay.” He said and I looked up to see Ed Sheeran standing in front of me.

“Wha.. You’re Ed Sheeran!” I said covering my mouth.

“Yeah I am.” He said slightly laughing and rubbing the back of his neck. “You were great up there!”

“Oh my gosh. You saw it?! Ah I’m so embarrassed, it’s just something I do for fun. I’m sorry if you didn’t like me singing your song… I just. Um I really like your music and I had no idea you’d be here… and…” I rambled, like I always did when I was nervous, but I was cut off by Ed laughing.

“Love, calm down. It was great. I really enjoyed it. You have a great voice and I’m honored that you like my music. I’m a friend of Harry’s and have heard a lot about you. He’s crazy about you.”

“Thank you. And yeah Harry’s great, I kind of started doing the open mic nights to get my mind off of how much I miss him.”

“Let’s get a drink to celebrate yeah? Try to get your mind off of the cheeky lad.”

“That sounds great.” I said putting my guitar down and taking a seat at the bar.

Ed ordered us two pints and we started talking. He was really nice and I could see why him and Harry got along so well. Of course I was a fan, I mean how in theie right mind isn’t. I told him that my favorite song was “Lego House” mainly because of the meaning behind it.

We ordered another round. Ed told me about how he met Harry and some of the crazy things they had done together. We finished our beers and decided that we should probably get going home. By this time, a crowd of paparazzi had formed outside and the flashes were blinding.

Ed and I walked to our cars and said our goodbyes. We had exchanged phone numbers, planning to get together again to sing and have some beers. It was great to know I had someone else to hangout with in London while Harry was away. I gave Ed and hug and kiss on the cheek before getting in the car and driving back to Harry and I’s house.

I changed into Harry’s Ramones t-shirt and got into our bed. I opened my laptop and watched an interview of the boys before falling asleep.

I woke up the next morning to a text from Harry.

Harry: Good morning love :) Ed told me that he met you last night! Said you two got along well! Also, saw your performance last night at the pub! You were AMAZING and looked so fit ;) I’m so proud to call you mine. I love you. Forever <3

Lindsay: Baby I miss you so much. Ed is very nice and it was great to meet him! I see why you two are such great friends! I’m glad you liked it :) just something to get my mind off of missing you.. I love you Harry. Forever, call me when you can <3

I sat back and smiled. Even when he was on the other side of the world he never failed to give me butterflies. I decided to go shopping for some new clothes to pack for my trip to California. We were only a week away from leaving and I was already starting to pack. To say that I missed him would be an understatement.

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