Tongue Tied *some sexual content*

Harry's pov:

" No I'm fine..." I say to Lindsey for the thousandth time. I havnt seen her in like a week and she calls non stop so I answered today.

" Well I havnt heard from you ever so-"

" Calm down... Aye I got to go so maybe I'll call you later." I say cutting her off.

" Please do I'm really worried.." I just hang up and sigh. Goddamn now. Remember why I don't have friends that are girls. They are clingy as hell.

" Louis we got any good booze!?" I shout out as I throw my phone on the table. Lately I've just been fed up with everything. Women, Family problems Hell, fucking life itself!

" No harry you threw it all away yesterday when you said 'I'm a changed man now Louis." He mocks.
its true.

I've been going through a rough identity crisis lately. one day I want to be the good boy. Next day I want to fuck every girl. Then I'm guilty. Then I wanna be alcohol free. And now I don't know what I want to be. ugh.

" Shut up Lou you have no idea what I'm going through right now!" I shout.

" I was in "love" or whatever too." He says emphasizing love like it's some kind of joke. He's beginning to piss me off.

I need a drink. I wanna get my mind off of life... I wanna soak my brain with nothing but the now. I don't want to have to live in the past anymore. Because the past is nothing but pins and needles the whole way down....

" I'm going out you fucking prick." I say grabbing my coat off the table. I grab the keys and am about to walk out the door.

" Your phone." He says like a smart ass.

" Don't need it." I slam the door on my way out making the house tremble. I can hear him yell something through the walls but ignore it and hop in my car.

It's chilly and I crank up the heat and turn the radio on and the bass all the way up. I wanna be completely secluded in my own stuff right now. My own idea of fun. I pull out the driveway and drive slowly not wanting to get pulled over.

" Mate you made it! Havnt seen you in a while." The bartender comes from behind the bar to greet me.

" Been busy is all.. But I'm back for a good time.. Ladies night tonight by any chance?" I ask. I remember that's how I met Lin- no.. It's just my favorite time. That's it.

" No.. No not tonight it's just the dance night.." He says scratching his head.

" I'll get you the reg and I'm sure there will be others looking for a good time too." He winks and goes behind the counter stirring up one of his infamous mix drinks that doesn't have a name. It's just good as fuck.

I sip slowly sort of enjoying the quiet bar. There isn't any one here yet besides some bikers and an elderly man wacthing football.

I feel for my phone then remember I left it at the house. Fuck I should have grabbed it and not been such and ass to Louis.. Shit I was a jerk to Lindsey too! I feel the guilt set in. No I don't wanna feel it.. I don't wanna feel it.

" Please another drink." I hold up the money and slam it down. He quickly mixes it up. I put it to my lips and it tastes stronger than the last. Good. Exactly what I need.

after my seventh or so drink I can feel nothing but guilt and grief and pain. I thought this shit is suppose to dissolve all that. I sit at the bar with my head down overthinking every little mistake in my life.

Falling in love... Huge mistake. Befriending Lindsey. Bigger mistake. Causing Louis relationship to go downhill. Big ass mistake. Sleeping with every girl. Big mistake. God why am I such a fuck up!i slam my fists on the bar and Bill walks over to me.

" Harry what's up... You havnt been yourself since the moment you walked in here." He asks caressing
my back. I'm sure my face is red from the tears I'm holding in my eyes but I look at him.

" I... I'm suc- such a fuck up..." I say then out my head back down crying.

" No.. No your not... You may not always make good choices but your not a fuck up... Just need a few good friends in your life." he says pulling away and going back to the bartending.

Good friends? Lindsey and Louis... They would help me in a heart beat. Maybe not Louis but Lindsey.. She cares right..? Yeah.

I quickly stand up and walk outside which is pouring rain. I wobble over to my car. I am a little drunk but not so drunk to where I cant think straight and drive. I fumble in my pocket for the keys as the rain drenches me. I can't get them out.

" FUCK! I'm walking." I exclaim outloud. I head off down the road. I know the campus is around here somewhere.

I walk and walk until I finally reach the big university gate and climb over it. I feel boss and smile after I get on the other side. My vision is a little blurred and my pants are extremely tight on my body because of the rain. Yuck. I trudge through the mud mixture and make it to some doors.

Where is Lindsey staying at.... I wipe some tears off my face sniffle and look around. 24? I don't know. I walk up to the door and pound on it.

" somebody here! Come on answer please.." I say. More tears stream down my face when someone answers the door. It's not Lindsey but a hot blonde.. She looks familiar. To much to think about right now.

" L-Lindsey.. She... She's here yeah?" I say stopping more tears from coming so I look more manly.

" Harry oh my god.. Yes she is come in.. Lindsey get up!" She says as I walk in still a little wobbly and I fall onto my knees as she rushes over to me.

" Harry oh god.. Jess call someone!" Lindsey shouts as she supports my upper half. Jess... Oh another mistake. I feel more tears welding up but I manage to speak.

" No.. Don't it's okay." I say and turn my attention back to Lindsey.

" I'm so sorry.. Sorry about everything,,, I am a fuck up.. And it's taken me this long to relize it..." I say. She settles down a bit and looks my face up and down.

" No.. Your not a fuck up.. Harry shh.. What happened to you..?" She asks caressing my cheek with her hand.

" I drank a little.. But please.. Ple.. Please hear me.. Me..out..." I stutter a bit but resume speaking.

" I don't treat people he right way.. I'm mean.. I'm a mean man.. I just don't want to lose you. I lost Courtney and I can't lose.. Loose." I suddenly feel light headed.

What the fuck! I feel like I'm going to vomit. But instead of that everything goes black. And I feel as if I'm in a deep sleep...

Notes

Oh my god. Harry finally came to his fucking senses yeah?
what do you guys think? He needs to move on for sure but is Lindsey really his best option right now?
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