Tongue Tied *some sexual content*

Harry pov:

" No Louis he just said I'm not getting any money from him!" I yell at him as he stares at me blankly.

" Well then you need a job.." He says.

" No shit I need a job! But I am not that kind if guy." It's true. I'm lazy as shit and hate working.

" I mean I have a job so I can still help with the bills but I can't pay the bills off myself." He's irritating the fuck out of me.

" Maybe if I walk outside there will be a job just waiting for me yeah!" I say sarcasticly throwing my hands up in the air. I sigh and look at my phone.

" Well then... I don't know what to say mate." He runs his fingers through his hair and breathes in deeply.

" Bottom line I have to get a job.. How and when I don't know... Fuck.. I need a drink.." I groan out.

" How about we light it up. I got some good bud, then head out to a bar.. You could use some tail it seems." He practically read my mind. He quickly gets up and scurries to his room. In no time he appears with a bag and a few papers.

he lays it out on the table and I hear my phone ring.

" Hello?" I say.

" Hey how did it go with your dad?" It's Lindsey. Now was not the best time.

" It went okay." I mutter.

" Oh well.. Glad to hear. Maybe we can hang out tomorrow if it isn't a bother." She asks. She always wanted to hang out and I'm not complaining I mean I've grown to like her.

She's nice and has an awesome personality. Not to mention she doesn't show that sex appeal it's more of a beautiful type face and body. Not that I wouldn't tap that in a heartbeat. It's just something about her... I don't know.

" Fuck.. I can't.. I don't think. I Have a few plans. But I can let you know when I'm free?" I ask.

" Yeah sure! That's perfect. So call me later?"

" yes.. Bye Lindsey." I hang up and look at Louis.

" Light it up man." I say as I see him rolling the last joint.

He smiles and hands me the joint with the lighter in his hand. I put it to my lips and lean so he can light it for me. He flicks on the lighter quickly an I inhale the smoke as it is getting lit. I let it fill my lungs and I lean back in my chair holding it in. About fifteen seconds then I exhale making little os with the smoke. I already feel the effect of the pot as my head leans back in total relaxation.

" Ready to head out?" Louis says sitting up and throwing his joint.. Or what's left of it on the table.

" Yeah.. Let's go."

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We get to the bar and I waste no time getting inside. With Louis following close behind me we make our way to the bar.

" Not many lady's here tonight." Louis says in my ear as we look out at the dance floor.

" I see a few." I say in response.

" what would you boys like?" The bartender asks.

" I wouldn't mind just a bud light right now." I say.

" Make that two." Louis smiles. He brings our drinks over and we swig them down.

" Well let's go!" Louis laughs and runs out to the dance floor. I smirk and follow behind him. He immediately finds a blonde and grinds up on her.

She seems to push him away a few times but he keeps going back. She soon gives in. I laugh at his stupidity. I glance around well moving around a little bit and I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and it's a brunette. She's wearing a purple dress.

" I'm Stephanie." She smiles and moves her hips against mine in no time.

" Harry.'' I smiles and wrap my hands around her hips pushing her against mine. Some song by Justin Bieber I'm sure is playing. Lolli? I think that's the name of it.

" Your fucking hot!" She says once the fog clears out a little bit.

" Thanks.. Your pretty sexy too." I wink. She bites her bottom lip and I can already tell what's coming. She's going to kiss me. She leans in and I close the space interlocking my lips with her. It's pretty soft. Then I think of Lindsey and I kiss even more. I run my fingers through her hair and imagine it's Lindsey I'm kissing and not some stranger- I quickly pull away relizing what I'm doing.

" What's wrong baby?" she says as she try's to kiss me again. I shake my head.

" I... I need to go sorry." I run off the dance floor and into the bathroom.

I stare at myself in the mirror. What the fuck was I just doing?!

I've never done that before. I've never pictured another woman's face while I was with a different woman! Fuck. It's like she's taken over life.

all I want is her! To be with her. To laugh with her. I feel awful if I do one thing wrong to her. Why am I- no I don't like her. Only as a friend.

But you do like her..

No I don't! I wrap my hands around my head to block out even my own conscious. I vowed to never try for love again.. After that day.

*FLASHBACK*

It's been a week, and I'm excited to get home early and surprise my girlfriend. Ahh! Courtney's going to be so glad I'm home! I pull out my phone and ponder rather or not I should call her. Nah. I'm really set on surprising her.

I pull onto our road and feel my heart beating. She thinks I went out for work when really I went out to get her parents blessing and buy her a ring. I want this proposal to be perfect.

The ring took ages to find. It was costly but it's for her. The love of my life. I hope she likes it. I'm even wearing a tux right now. Fuck this will probably give what's going on away! I laugh to myself.

I mean she has helped me through everything. From me being a notorious cheater to me being a sappy twat who is love drunk. I just hope she says yes. I really hope.

I pull into our driveway and look at the house. Good to be home. I get out leaving my bags in the car thinking I will just grab them later. I make sure the ring box is in my pocket and feel around for it. Yup. Everything is going as planned.

It's a little later so she might be relaxing so I'm going to sneak on in the best I can. As I walk up I notice the dog is in the back yard. He begins to bark.

" Shh Stark!" I say. Then I continue my way. I quickly unlock the door and rush up the stairs in a quiet walk. I hear something underneath me and brush it away. Then I get to our door and open it.

" Baby! I'm home!" I say throwing my arms out for her. But when I see who is in the bed I quiver. My mood changes dramatically. My smile now faded. And my heart now broken.

" Ezra!" I hear Courtney shout from downstairs. tears are filling my eyes and I'm shaking badly. I am hyperventilating and I can't believe this is happening. I hear her gasp from behind me.

" Babe! Uh.. I can explain!" She says.

" Get out! GET THE FUCK OUT!"

*END OF FLASHBACK*

I find my self still in the bathroom in the corner rocking back and fourth. I don't want to remember the rest of what happened that day... I don't want to.

I hate me.

Love isn't real.

Its simply another word we use for happiness.

And all happiness ends.

Notes

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what do you think of Harry's past?
does it give him a reason to not want to fall in love again?