Mirrors (A Harry Styles Fanfic)
Chapter 23
( Hey guys! I'm so sorry that I haven't written in three weeks. I've had a lot of problems and I was hurt and upset and wasn't really feeling like writing which is awful because when I'm down I usually write... actually I did want to but I guess it's good I didn't write otherwise it would have been depressing and sad. I'm okay now and excited to get back to writing, I hope you like the chapter!)
"No, I told Bella I'd join her for lunch and that huge book store," he follows me inside, I step out of my boots and his brown jacket, "but you go ahead and hang out with your friends."
I rid my hair from the fish braid Jesy from the cafeteria did this morning, she's studying to be a stylist and she had been insisting to play around with my hair for the past month. I take my tights off and take the jumper I'm wearing off. I look around for Harry but he isn't in my room, I didn't see him leave,maybe he went to get some food, he barely ate this morning.
I step inside the bathroom, and there he is; naked, grinning and holding the shower curtain open.
"What are you doing?" I raise a brow at him, he cocks his head in a disapproving manner
"Come here..." he holds his hand out for me, his teeth take his bottom lip and my insides churn. I squirm and rid myself of my bra and panties, tossing them next to his clothes.
I step into the shower as the water starts running, we barely fit in here, but I as sure hell don't mind. His hands come up and wrap around my waist pulling me into the water, he buries his face in my neck and starts nibbling. My hands twist into his hair and pull his head up, I collide my lips with his, his tongue brushes against mine as the water falls around us.
The past few days, with the music video and shoots for the tour, I can't stop thinking about how he's leaving me soon. We have like a week left, and just thinking about it pains me; he's left before, but nothing like this... it's different between us; it's not just my best friend leaving for months anymore.
His large hands distract me from my sad thoughts as they run up and down my back. Our mouths disconnect, his lips run along my jaw, I close my eyes to stop me from thinking anymore.
"What's wrong?" his lips say against my collarbone. I feel him reach for the shampoo bottle.
"Yeah, I'm just... forget it." I give my back to him, he massages my head with the shampoo
"Piper, just tell me" he presses.
"No."
"What? Pipes," he grabs my shoulders and turns me to face him, a scowl on his face greats me as I open my eyes, "what is it, baby?" his hands starts brushing my hair to rid it of the substance.
"I just... I can't stop thinking about you leaving" I look at the back wall, now dripping with water.
He cups my face, his thumbs brushing my cheeks. I force myself to look at his furrowed brows and worried green eyes.How long have we been in the shower?
"It will be okay, we will be okay." he kisses me and continues to remove the shampoo completely from my hair.
As he shampoos his hair I wash my body, the weight of the tour is still on my shoulders as get out of the shower, but I'm being unfair. This is just as bad for him, maybe it's worse, and I cannot hold this against him, no matter how much I'd want to blame him.
As I dress into some high waisted jeans and a burgundy shirt, my mind starts wondering about Harry's relationships, I never really liked to ask him about them to extreme detail but I know he never actually left any one behind. Harry has never been with someone while on tour.
I pull my hair into a ponytail as Harry walks out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist, he winks at me and walks towards his bag. I pull on my Chucks and grab a bag.
"Do you want me to wait for you?" I ask Harry as he puts on black jeans.
"No, it's fine, you can go meet Bella," he walks towards me and wraps his arms around my waist, his nose runs along mine making my stomach churn, "stop worrying about the tour please, it only makes me feel worse."
My hands run up his bare chest, "No, please don't, I know we'll be okay... I just, I don't know" I kiss him to stop myself from thinking further; I don't want to say anything that will make him feel worse.
He pulls me closer, our lips part as if to say something, but he just kisses me again.
"I love you." His words make me grin,of course he does, and we'll be okay.
"I know, and I love you, I love you so much." I kiss him again, grab my jean jacket and leave him to cover his perfect, tattooed covered, body.
I park the car in a spot closest to the park. I make my way over to the bakery Bella told me to meet her in. She's sitting in a booth, she's wearing her jean jacket, her hair is light brown and in a bun.
"You dyed your hair?" I ask as I sit opposite her.
She smiles lightly, "Erm, yeah."
Somethings wrong with her, and I'm pretty sure it's Niall, "He told me," she looks at me confused, "that you're dating, Niall told me."
"We're not, dammit!" she takes a sip of her coffee or tea,why the hell would Niall lie about that?
"What do you mean? He told me the day they shot the video" I say confused,Is she keeping it from me?
"We... ugh, I told him to give me time, I don't know why he's gone and told the whole world about it! This is why I cannot do this, I can't be with someone who wants his whole life in the spot light!"
"I highly doubt is like that Bella, he was just excited that you finally decided to give him a chance," I defend the guy, this is not ending well for him if I don't fix it, "I'm sure he doesn't want his private life in the spotlight, plus he only told the boys and I."
"Still, I told him to be patient" she says angrily, "he is so fucking irritating, I cannot do this."
"I wanted to hang out because I feel like you're not telling me something, what's going on between you two?"
"I'm... erm, I'm in love with him, but I can't bring myself to be with him"
"Bella, you're in love with him!" I'm so happy that she's admitted it, but I don't understand the latter, "What do you mean you can't be with him?"
"I can't give him what he wants, it won't happen. I want to be with him; I mean the sex is just," I wince, "sorry... he's funny, hot, his voice is beautiful, but I can't. He doesn't even remember how to be in a relationship and I cannot trust him not when they're going on tour and he's going around the world meeting a shit load of women that will throw themselves at him."
"I trust Harry." For some reason I felt like she was attacking my relationship.
"That's your mistake to make, not mine, I won't do it."
What did she just say?
"Did you just call me trusting my boyfriend, the man I love, a mistake?"
"Pipe, he's going to hurt you, I'm only-"
"Just stop Bella, it isn't my problem that you refuse to make yourself happy and what's worse is that you keep Niall in this vicious leash that he won't be able to escape. You either give him the benefit of a doubt or you let the guy go, stop hurting him Bella, and stop hurting yourself."
"I-I-" she starts.
"And stop trying to break Harry and I up with your comments, as my friend it is more than okay for you to have an opinion but you go too far Bella, I'm trying to support your feelings the least you can do is reciprocate that." It feels good to tell her this, I hope it somehow allows her to make a decision, and to stop her from attacking Harry.
"Give Niall a chance to make you happy, you know I've always said 'never let anyone control your ability to be happy' as my mother would say, but sometimes we need to allow people into our lives and let them make us happy because we cannot be in charge of our feelings forever. We can't be the only ones to help us up when we're down, sometimes we need a little push, and as hard as that might be to accept its true, and it's love. I want to make Harry happy, and I know deep down you want to make Niall happy. I think he's good for you Bella." I smile at her, tears are running down her cheeks, I rarely see her cry, and it pains me to see her this way.
I climb out of my side of the booth and step in next to her, I wrap my arms around her as she cries.
"I love him, but I hate him," she sobs, "and I don't want him to hurt me, and I don't want to hurt him anymore either."
"Think about what you truly want, give him a chance and be patient."
She wipes her tears and poises herself like the Davies she is.
"I'm scared," she smiles lightly, "terrified even."
"I know Bells."
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"That was cute! But I hate that close up because you can tell you're freezing to death, next time don't do a video in the morning on a cloudy windy day in London by the beach or you'll get really sick" I say, I'm sitting on his lap on the chair by his computer.
"It was fucking cold," he rests his head on my shoulder, "so you liked it baby?"
"Yes, of course, I loved that it was just you guys singing to them."
"Well, what if I told you I was singing to you?" he kisses my neck and my eyes flutter.
"I wouldn't believe you" I whisper.
"I figured it out,
I figured it out from black and white"
The words fall out of his lips like silk, his mouth next to my ear making the hairs at the back of my neck to stand, chills running through my body.
"Seconds and hours...
Maybe they had to take some time.
I know how it goes,
I know how it goes from wrong and right" his lips get closer to my ear, his hands wrap around me.
"Silence and sound..
did they ever hold each other tight like us?" he tightens his hold on me and I giggle.
"Did they ever fight like us?
You and I, we don't have to be like them.
We can make it 'till the end.
Nothing can come between...
you and I...
oh you and I baby
But they never tried like us,
'cause you and I baby...
we don't wanna be like them.
We can make it 'till the end...
Nothing can come between
You and I...
Not even the gods above,
can separate the two of us" his voice loud like he wants to scream it, they carve themselves into my heart and I hear what he's saying, his lips press to my cheek as I turn my face and he tangles our fingers.
"No, nothing can come between you and I baby,
Oh you and I...
We can make it if we try
Nothing can come between you and I..
Nothing baby"
I know he skipped parts but I don't care, it's perfect, his voice is perfect and what he's trying to say melts me. I know he can't stop thinking about what Bella said, I had to tell him. Part of me regrets telling him but I'm glad he's realized that what other people say about us won't change my mind about us. I was scared of being with him, but he makes me feel so sure of it. I'm happy.
"I love you" I tell him.
"I love you more, baby."
That's far from possible Harry, I love you more.
I step inside the apartment, Harry and I just came back from a very interesting breakfast show; he insisted on joining me at the station to which I obliged after a puppy a face and twenty kisses all over my face from him.
"Want to go to lunch today with Nick and Mark?" he asks as I head towards my room."No, I told Bella I'd join her for lunch and that huge book store," he follows me inside, I step out of my boots and his brown jacket, "but you go ahead and hang out with your friends."
I rid my hair from the fish braid Jesy from the cafeteria did this morning, she's studying to be a stylist and she had been insisting to play around with my hair for the past month. I take my tights off and take the jumper I'm wearing off. I look around for Harry but he isn't in my room, I didn't see him leave,maybe he went to get some food, he barely ate this morning.
I step inside the bathroom, and there he is; naked, grinning and holding the shower curtain open.
"What are you doing?" I raise a brow at him, he cocks his head in a disapproving manner
"Come here..." he holds his hand out for me, his teeth take his bottom lip and my insides churn. I squirm and rid myself of my bra and panties, tossing them next to his clothes.
I step into the shower as the water starts running, we barely fit in here, but I as sure hell don't mind. His hands come up and wrap around my waist pulling me into the water, he buries his face in my neck and starts nibbling. My hands twist into his hair and pull his head up, I collide my lips with his, his tongue brushes against mine as the water falls around us.
The past few days, with the music video and shoots for the tour, I can't stop thinking about how he's leaving me soon. We have like a week left, and just thinking about it pains me; he's left before, but nothing like this... it's different between us; it's not just my best friend leaving for months anymore.
His large hands distract me from my sad thoughts as they run up and down my back. Our mouths disconnect, his lips run along my jaw, I close my eyes to stop me from thinking anymore.
"What's wrong?" his lips say against my collarbone. I feel him reach for the shampoo bottle.
"Yeah, I'm just... forget it." I give my back to him, he massages my head with the shampoo
"Piper, just tell me" he presses.
"No."
"What? Pipes," he grabs my shoulders and turns me to face him, a scowl on his face greats me as I open my eyes, "what is it, baby?" his hands starts brushing my hair to rid it of the substance.
"I just... I can't stop thinking about you leaving" I look at the back wall, now dripping with water.
He cups my face, his thumbs brushing my cheeks. I force myself to look at his furrowed brows and worried green eyes.How long have we been in the shower?
"It will be okay, we will be okay." he kisses me and continues to remove the shampoo completely from my hair.
As he shampoos his hair I wash my body, the weight of the tour is still on my shoulders as get out of the shower, but I'm being unfair. This is just as bad for him, maybe it's worse, and I cannot hold this against him, no matter how much I'd want to blame him.
As I dress into some high waisted jeans and a burgundy shirt, my mind starts wondering about Harry's relationships, I never really liked to ask him about them to extreme detail but I know he never actually left any one behind. Harry has never been with someone while on tour.
I pull my hair into a ponytail as Harry walks out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist, he winks at me and walks towards his bag. I pull on my Chucks and grab a bag.
"Do you want me to wait for you?" I ask Harry as he puts on black jeans.
"No, it's fine, you can go meet Bella," he walks towards me and wraps his arms around my waist, his nose runs along mine making my stomach churn, "stop worrying about the tour please, it only makes me feel worse."
My hands run up his bare chest, "No, please don't, I know we'll be okay... I just, I don't know" I kiss him to stop myself from thinking further; I don't want to say anything that will make him feel worse.
He pulls me closer, our lips part as if to say something, but he just kisses me again.
"I love you." His words make me grin,of course he does, and we'll be okay.
"I know, and I love you, I love you so much." I kiss him again, grab my jean jacket and leave him to cover his perfect, tattooed covered, body.
I park the car in a spot closest to the park. I make my way over to the bakery Bella told me to meet her in. She's sitting in a booth, she's wearing her jean jacket, her hair is light brown and in a bun.
"You dyed your hair?" I ask as I sit opposite her.
She smiles lightly, "Erm, yeah."
Somethings wrong with her, and I'm pretty sure it's Niall, "He told me," she looks at me confused, "that you're dating, Niall told me."
"We're not, dammit!" she takes a sip of her coffee or tea,why the hell would Niall lie about that?
"What do you mean? He told me the day they shot the video" I say confused,Is she keeping it from me?
"We... ugh, I told him to give me time, I don't know why he's gone and told the whole world about it! This is why I cannot do this, I can't be with someone who wants his whole life in the spot light!"
"I highly doubt is like that Bella, he was just excited that you finally decided to give him a chance," I defend the guy, this is not ending well for him if I don't fix it, "I'm sure he doesn't want his private life in the spotlight, plus he only told the boys and I."
"Still, I told him to be patient" she says angrily, "he is so fucking irritating, I cannot do this."
"I wanted to hang out because I feel like you're not telling me something, what's going on between you two?"
"I'm... erm, I'm in love with him, but I can't bring myself to be with him"
"Bella, you're in love with him!" I'm so happy that she's admitted it, but I don't understand the latter, "What do you mean you can't be with him?"
"I can't give him what he wants, it won't happen. I want to be with him; I mean the sex is just," I wince, "sorry... he's funny, hot, his voice is beautiful, but I can't. He doesn't even remember how to be in a relationship and I cannot trust him not when they're going on tour and he's going around the world meeting a shit load of women that will throw themselves at him."
"I trust Harry." For some reason I felt like she was attacking my relationship.
"That's your mistake to make, not mine, I won't do it."
What did she just say?
"Did you just call me trusting my boyfriend, the man I love, a mistake?"
"Pipe, he's going to hurt you, I'm only-"
"Just stop Bella, it isn't my problem that you refuse to make yourself happy and what's worse is that you keep Niall in this vicious leash that he won't be able to escape. You either give him the benefit of a doubt or you let the guy go, stop hurting him Bella, and stop hurting yourself."
"I-I-" she starts.
"And stop trying to break Harry and I up with your comments, as my friend it is more than okay for you to have an opinion but you go too far Bella, I'm trying to support your feelings the least you can do is reciprocate that." It feels good to tell her this, I hope it somehow allows her to make a decision, and to stop her from attacking Harry.
"Give Niall a chance to make you happy, you know I've always said 'never let anyone control your ability to be happy' as my mother would say, but sometimes we need to allow people into our lives and let them make us happy because we cannot be in charge of our feelings forever. We can't be the only ones to help us up when we're down, sometimes we need a little push, and as hard as that might be to accept its true, and it's love. I want to make Harry happy, and I know deep down you want to make Niall happy. I think he's good for you Bella." I smile at her, tears are running down her cheeks, I rarely see her cry, and it pains me to see her this way.
I climb out of my side of the booth and step in next to her, I wrap my arms around her as she cries.
"I love him, but I hate him," she sobs, "and I don't want him to hurt me, and I don't want to hurt him anymore either."
"Think about what you truly want, give him a chance and be patient."
She wipes her tears and poises herself like the Davies she is.
"I'm scared," she smiles lightly, "terrified even."
"I know Bells."
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"That was cute! But I hate that close up because you can tell you're freezing to death, next time don't do a video in the morning on a cloudy windy day in London by the beach or you'll get really sick" I say, I'm sitting on his lap on the chair by his computer.
"It was fucking cold," he rests his head on my shoulder, "so you liked it baby?"
"Yes, of course, I loved that it was just you guys singing to them."
"Well, what if I told you I was singing to you?" he kisses my neck and my eyes flutter.
"I wouldn't believe you" I whisper.
"I figured it out,
I figured it out from black and white"
The words fall out of his lips like silk, his mouth next to my ear making the hairs at the back of my neck to stand, chills running through my body.
"Seconds and hours...
Maybe they had to take some time.
I know how it goes,
I know how it goes from wrong and right" his lips get closer to my ear, his hands wrap around me.
"Silence and sound..
did they ever hold each other tight like us?" he tightens his hold on me and I giggle.
"Did they ever fight like us?
You and I, we don't have to be like them.
We can make it 'till the end.
Nothing can come between...
you and I...
oh you and I baby
But they never tried like us,
'cause you and I baby...
we don't wanna be like them.
We can make it 'till the end...
Nothing can come between
You and I...
Not even the gods above,
can separate the two of us" his voice loud like he wants to scream it, they carve themselves into my heart and I hear what he's saying, his lips press to my cheek as I turn my face and he tangles our fingers.
"No, nothing can come between you and I baby,
Oh you and I...
We can make it if we try
Nothing can come between you and I..
Nothing baby"
I know he skipped parts but I don't care, it's perfect, his voice is perfect and what he's trying to say melts me. I know he can't stop thinking about what Bella said, I had to tell him. Part of me regrets telling him but I'm glad he's realized that what other people say about us won't change my mind about us. I was scared of being with him, but he makes me feel so sure of it. I'm happy.
"I love you" I tell him.
"I love you more, baby."
That's far from possible Harry, I love you more.
I hope you guys see this, the website didn't let me log in to my account anymore and sent me to make a new one, I don't know why but I can't contact anyone. I can't upload the story on here anymore but you are welcomed to read it at Wattpad. I am really sorry that this happened but I can't do anything about it. I concluded that it might have something to do with me changing my username on the website I use to log in, but nevertheless it is still the same email so I don't get it. I am really sorry and I hope you see this.
7/4/14