A life of Payne
*Australia, 2 weeks later*
"You have a really lovely home Mrs. Hood, I'm going to miss it so much." I walked around the lounge room looking at the different pictures again as Calum and his mother both smiled and watched me.
Calum's mum was a lovely lady and was so nice to me over the past week since the boys and myself arrived for the Australian tour their doing.
"Please sweetie, how many times do I have to tell you to call me Joy." She smiled and brushed my hair away from my eyes like all parents seem to do. I smiled up at her since I was quite shorter before turning my gaze back to the photo of Calum that was sitting on top of the fire place. He was dressed in a white frilly dress with his older sister standing next to him smiling, he had to be about four or five and it was the cutest thing ever.
I laughed as Calum pulled me away from the photo.
"You aren't allowed to see embarrassing photos of me untill I see some of you." Joy laughed while walking towards the kitchen, I always tried to go and help her with meals but she would all but push me back into Calum's arms saying I didn't need to help.
"You'll be waiting a while then." I looked down remembering the fact that I barely have any photos like that and the small amount I did have will probably never be seen again. I hadn't thought about my old family in a while, do they even miss me? The horrible thing is that I bearly missed them these days.
Calum noticed my shift in attitude, he placed his finger under my chin so I would look up at him.
"Their idiots for not keeping in touch with someone as amazing as you. And I'm an idiot for bringing it up." I half smiled and stood on my tiptoes to gently peck his lips.
"Go look at any photos you want baby." I did as he said and walked around the lounge again as he sat himself down on the couch. Out of the corner of my eye I could see him taking a picture of me but didn't really think to much into it.
"Hey guys! Aw dammit their not making out, I wanted to snitch on you to Joy!" I turned around to see the three other boys walking through the front door, Ashton and luke were giggling like little girls at what Michael had said. Australia does weird things to these boys.
Michael sat down next to Calum and wrapped his arms around him while I sat next to Ashton and gave him a hug. Ashton has become an even closer best friend to me over the past month. At first it was hard knowing I wouldn't see Ashley or my big brother for a whole month but between spending time with Calum and Ashton, it got easier.
I looked up to see Calum already looking at me with a smile on his face. I gave him a shy smile back and looked down when I felt my cheeks heat up.
"I don't understand how you two can keep your hands off each other! I mean you slept together! Shouldn't you be humping like bunnies now?" My eyes widened at Michael's words and was relieved when Calum slapped him on the back off the head while sending me an apologetic look.
It's true. I haven't slept with Calum since the my first time two weeks ago.
Not that I don't want to but I'm scared to again and for two reasons.
Number one, I'm incredably scared that it will hurt just as much as the first time. Calum was gentle and careful and just made it prefect but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt. People who have sex again straight after their first time are just plain mental.
And number two is that it will make it harder to leave him if we get even closer. I have to go back to London in two days because the One Direction tour starts and Liam wants me there right from the start. Calum and his boys don't join the tour for about another three weeks from now. I'm not saying we haven't done anything but it just seems right to wait to have sex again untill we reunite in a few weeks, like a way to connect with each other again.
So yeah, I haven't turned into a tramp just because I slept with someone once but it was a life changing kind of moment I will say that.
"Aw Katie's cheeks are still pink!" I punched Ashton in the arm for his words and excused myself to the room I was staying in whille I've been here, thankfully I wasn't sharing a room with Calum so I could lock the door and just be alone for a few minutes.
I did just that and ignored the knocks on my door for a good thirty minutes. They probably think I'm over-reacting but a sex life should be private!
By the time I had calmed down I was actually really tired, I love my sleep but I've given up a lot of it lately for midnight talks and cuddles with Calum when he comes and lays in bed with me.
I decided that I would just go and say good night since I wasn't hungry for dinner.
When I reached the lounge the boys were laughing and talking with a group of people that I'm guessing were their friends before they were discovered.
"Katie! I'm sorry for what I said!" Ashton was the first to notice me but the first thing I noticed was the fake red head that had her arms wrapped around Calum. Well that hurts.
Ashton pulled me in for a hug which caused me to break eye contact with the two hugging.
By the time I pushed Ashton off me because I wasn't in the mood for hugs, the two were no longer hugging and Calum was making his way to me.
"Hey baby." He pulled me in for a hug, even when I attempted to push him away he didn't let go.
He kissed me on the forehead and I couldn't help but notice the red head roll her eyes at the small gesture.
"We're all going down to the pub. Do you want to join us?" Calum bent down slightly to look in my eyes since I wouldn't look up at him. I was tired but I didn't want that girl around Calum.
"Is she even old enough to go to the pub? How old are you sweetie like fifteen?" I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked down as everyone's eyes were now on me, there had to be around ten people in here and they were all looking at me. I knew I was small but I didn't think I looked that young.
Calum glared at the girl before pulling me into his side.
"She's eighteen Stella! No need for rude comments on my girl."
It felt good to know that Calum would stick up for me but I still didn't want to go.
"Actually I think I will stay here. I'm really tired." Calum didn't really seem to believe my words as he looked into my eyes.
"Do you want me to stay here with you?" I really wanted that.
"No you go have fun. I'm just going to skype Liam then go to sleep." I smiled up at him and he nodded realising that I just wanted to alone.
"So you're actually close with your brother? And here I was thinking it was just the media that made you look like one big happy family." My throat tightened again at her words and Calum went to hug me close again but I took a step away.
I turned around and began to walk away when my wrist was caught in someones grip.
I looked behind me to see it was Ashton who had stopped me, he pulled me in for a hug which I didn't fight this time as I watched Calum walk over to the Stella girl as they were now arguing. I didn't like the fact that Calum was fighting with one of his friends because of me but what was I really meant to do.
"Don't worry to much about it. Stella and Calum use to be friends with benefits but she wasn't to happy when he called it off all together because he started to have feelings for you." Ashton whispered his words in my ear not that it really mattered because you wouldn't have heard him over Calum and Stella's fighting even if he talked normally.
It took me a while but I finally wriggled out of Ashton's grip even though he told me not to intervene and ran over to Calum.
Using all my strength I pulled him to face me and even though he was beyond angry right now I wasn't scared. I didn't understand why he was so mad though, she didn't do anything to him.
"Calum, why didn't you tell me you were seeing someone when we started things!" His head hung low and even when I was mad I still felt bad for snapping at him.
"I'm sorry Katie! It's not like I was dating her! I just really wanted you to be mine, I worked so hard to get you." He took a step towards me and put both his hands on either side of my face.
Right now all I could think of was what it would look like if he was this close to that stupid red head.
I pushed his hands away from me and took a step back.
"Just go to the pub and have fun. We don't need to be together all the time, It's not like we're dating." He flinced at my last five words before glaring at 'Stella' and walking out the front door.
I stood there for a moment letting everything sink in before I turned around to see everyone looking at me with a sad look in their eyes. I don't even know half these people so I most definately don't want their pity.
"Have fun at the pub." Ashton looked surprised by my words and opened his mouth to talk but I held my hand up in a way that told him not to say anything and thankfully he took the hint and shut his mouth.
I walked back into the bedroom and sat down on the edge of the bed.
It's not really the fact that he was involved with Stella that annoys me, it's the fact that he acted like she meant nothing to him just because they weren't dating. Doe's that mean one day he will think of me that way since we aren't really dating officially?
I'm just confused as hell right now.
I felt a cold tear fall onto my hand, sighing a fell backwards onto the bed and just quietly let the tears fall.
It was about an hour later and I still had tears to shed. Joy came and asked if I was okay about twenty minutes ago but left straight away saying I needed time to myself.
All this alone and quiet time was driving me nuts but no one else was here so I picked up my phone and dialled the only person who I really needed in times like these.
It took him a while to pick up, I didn't even bother to find out what time it was in London so I hope I didn't wake him up but if I did then it's just payback.
"Katie sweetheart!!! How's it going?" I could hear a lot of background noise through the phone and knew he wasn't asleep.
"Hi Liam." I sniffled at the end of my sentence and tried to wipe the tears away while holding the phone with my ear and shoulder.
"Katie are you crying? What's wrong?" I didn't know if I should tell him what's wrong since it would involve telling him that I slept with Calum which probably wouldn't go down very well. Plus he seemed really happy and I didn't want to bring him down with my problems.
"Nothing is wrong I just needed someone to talk to but if you're busy then I understand." He didn't respond at first and I thought that he might not have heard what I said but then I heard him mumble something that I wasn't sure if I was meant to hear.
'Do you have your phone here?'
Who was he talking to? Of course I had my phone that's how I'm talking to him.
"Liam who are you talking to?" I heard him swear under his breathe before answering me.
"What? No one! I think you're hearing things. Anyway I uh have to go feed the dog? Yeah! So I will talk to you soon okay sweetie?" He sounded like he was just trying to get off the phone but I didn't think to much into it before saying goodbye.
I looked down at my phone to see that the call only lasted like two minutes and didn't really make me feel better at all.
All I wanted was something to take my mind off Calum but that didn't work!
My phone began to ring in my hand and made me jump and just about fall off the bed. I looked down to see it was Niall's name on my phone, now why would he be calling me?
My thumb hovered over the phone for a moment deciding if I should answer or not.
Screw it. What have I really got to loose? It's just a phone call.
Taking a deep breathe I clicked answer before bringing the phone to my ear.
"Hi..." It felt weird to talk to him but at the same time it was nice.
"Katie... you have no idea how amazing it is to hear your voice. I didn't think you would answer." He let out a very audible breathe making me laugh slightly but it didn't sound like my usual laugh.
"You're upset. What's wrong?" The background noise seemed to sound similar to what it sounded like when I was talking to Liam but started to die down as I heard him close a door.
"Oh um it's not that bad I guess. I just need someone to talk to." My mind went momenterally blank and I couldn't remember why I was so sad.
"Do you want to talk about it Katie?" It came back to me as he said that, Calum.
"Not really." He was a good distraction but I don't think I should talk to him about this.
"Do you want to talk about something else?"
"Please?" I begged him to stay on the phone, even though we hadn't talked in forever it felt like we had just talked yesterday. If only it was that easy.
"I underst-- wait what? You actually want to talk?" I giggled at his shocked tone and shifted slightly on the bed to get comfortable on my back and looked up at the roof.
"Please stay on the phone with me?"
This time he laughed before answering me.
"Of course I will Katie, anything for you."
I smiled which he most likely could tell through the phone before it turned into a comfortable silence.
"How about we play the question game?" He asked after a while of silence.
"You know the question game! Like twenty questions, that way we can learn things about each other that we didn't already know."
I wasn't really sure what he hoped to gain from this, I was once a directioner so I know a lot about him.
"Um okay. I want to go first."
"Sure, ask away princess." I sucked in a sharp breathe when I heard those words through the phone. He hasn't called me that in a long time.
I dragged myself out of my thoughts and asked the first thing that came to mind.
"What's your favourite colour?"
He chuckled slightly.
"It's green and I know yours is yellow so I won't ask that question."
"What is your favourite movie?" Niall asked with I flipped over onto my stomach.
It has been about two hours of just talking to Niall and asking lame questions to each other. He did exactly what wanted him to do, take my mind off of things.
"That's a tough one. Either The Muppets or Grease." I heard Niall gasp through the phone as soon as I finished talking.
"Grease is my favourite movie!!"
"It was mine first!" I laughed, a real laugh at how we were about to agrue over a movie.
"I'm older silly."
"Good point. Okay my turn, what's your favourite book?" I rested my chin in my other hand as I waited for his reply.
"It would have to be To kill a mockingbird." I gasped this time and heard him laugh.
"I love that book!" We both errupted in a fit of laughter.
"Okay, okay my turn. What's your favourite boy band?" Despite the fact that I was talking with a boy from One Direction and involved with a boy from 5 seconds of summer, I knew my answer straight away.
"The Backstreet Boys." I could almost hear him roll his eyes through the phone.
"Are you serious Katie?"
"Completely serious! Nothing can beat the Backstreet Boys! Except maybe *NSYNC." Okay maybe I wasn't serious about the last part but it was funny to hear him fake cry over my musical choices.
I was about to say something else when I heard the front door open and close again.
"Hey Niall I'm pretty tired. I think I'm going to go to sleep now." He sighed and I knew he didn't want me to go.
"Alright. Good night princess."
Just as I brought the phone away from my ear Calum opened the door to the bedroom I was in, he didn't seem that drunk really.
"Who were you on the phone to baby?" He walked closer to me and the I could now tell that his eyes were barely red, he smelt more like spearmint rather then beer which means he couldn't have drunk that much.
I looked down at my phone deciding if I should tell him or not. I went with my gut feeling and just said the first thing that I could think of.
"No one important."
A small smile appeared on his lips and he flopped onto the bed back first just as I sat up. I crossed my legs and sat next to him just watching as he stared into my eyes.
"I'm sorry about before."
I smiled this time. I was happy that he said sorry but I knew I needed to say it as well.
"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have over-reacted."
He looked up at the roof while running his fingers through his already messy hair.
"I didn't drink much. I wanted to be sober when I told you this, This whole day made me realize something, it's something I already knew but now I want- no need to tell you because I wans't sure about it but I definately am now. I realized something really important."
I kept silent for a moment just looking at him and didn't say anything untill I saw his eyes travel back to mine.
"That's what you wanted to tell me? That you realized something?"
He sighed again and grabbed my hand to pull me closer to him. I laid down and wrapped one of my arms around his torso while my head rested on his chest.
"I love you Katie Payne."
Can we just take a moment to imagine this last scene of Calum saying I love you. Ahhh! Swoon!
OMG guys! This story was on page two of the popular pages! Well at least it was when I typed this note! that is just EPIC! Thank you every single one of you! I love you long time.
Okay serious note time!
A lot of people asked me 'Why didn't they say they loved each other when they had sex?'
Well my answer for this would be that it was like the moment of realization that they did love each other and plus Katie has never told a boy (besides family aka Liam) that she loves them so don't you think it would have been a bit weird to out of nowhere confess their undying love?
Yeah so now you understand my reasoning!
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