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A life of Payne

Chapter 28

Katie's POV
*5th January 2014*

I Pulled my suitcase through the doors of our apartment and instantly ran over to the couch and flopped onto it. Oh how I have missed this comfy couch.

After six days we finally came home from the cabin today and I could not be more happy about it. Now all the boys are doing their own thing for a while which means that I don't have to feel the awkward tension between Niall and myself. It's not that we haven't been talking to each other because we have but it kind of feels like we've gone back to being just friends which is really crap because I know we both like each other but he refuses to show me any kind of affection.
After the New Years eve party the closest thing to affection he has shown me is probably patting me on the back when I was choking on water which was his fault in the first place for talking about how he is going to try and get Selena Gomez to go on a date with him. I mean who talks about stuff like that when they know someone in the room likes them!

"Katie? Are you okay?" Ash asked as she came and sat next to me.

Honestly I'm not even sure how to answer that question.
"I think I just need some time by myself, I'm going to go watch a movie. I will talk to you later." Ash nodded as I stood up, I gave Liam and Ash quick hugs then walked towards my movie room.

I locked the movie rooms door then wrapped myself in the countless amounts of blankets I had in here from when Niall was watching movies with me before we left for new years. He kept complaining that he was cold so now there is like ten overly fluffy blankets in here.
I pulled one of the blankets over to my cheek and ran the soft fabric over it to see how soft it was. I could still slightly smell the fragrance of Nialls hair product from when he had pulled the blankets over us during a scary movie. The memory and the smell made me laugh which is the exact opposite reaction that I thought I would have.

I pulled myself out of my thoughts and started whatever movie was in the DVD player. Unlucky for me it was 'he's just not that into you'.
What a great movie to watch when I already have boys problems, the ending is both happy and sad so I have no idea how this movie is going to make me feel.

The movie was only about ten minutes through when I could feel my eyelids growing heavier, I decided not to fight it just closed my eyes.


The slamming of the movie rooms door woke me up, I'm sure I locked that door!
I slowly opened my eyes to see a very unhappy looking Niall. Crap the look in his eyes scared me so much.

"I'm sick of this!" He yelled probably waking up the whole building and making me ten times more scared.

I tried to regain some of my confidence by standing up and walking towards him but I knew that my shortness wouldn't help.
"Sick of what?" I spat.

"You! Your such a tease and you don't even try to be! Ever since you came along I can't even look at another girl the way I look at you but yet you look at other guys without a care in the world!" His words took me by surprise, I gasped slightly and backed away from him.

He started to walk towards me which made me back into the wall.
"No more playing games." He whispered into my ear then began to suck on my neck until he found my sweet spot. I moaned at the feeling but then quickly tried to push him away once I realised that my brother and best friend could find us at any minute. He grabbed my wrist so I could push at his chest anymore then brought his lips to mine.

He pulled my hands above my head and pinned them against the wall. I couldn't help but kiss him back, I could feel a smirk on his face has he let go of my wrists which immediately tangled themselves in his soft hair.

He pulled away and mumbled for me to jump, I happily obliged and wrapped my legs around his waist.
He walked us over to the soft bed couch thing and pushed me onto my back as he climbed on top of me.

He roughly kissed my lips again before he pulled away and lifted my shirt over my head to reveal my plain black bra. I was not excepting this which is why I wasn't wearing a fancy bra or anything like that.

He ran his finger tips over the cup of my bra as he leaned down to my ear again.
"You know if we go any further, it means your mine and mine only."

I was speechless so I just nodded so he knew that I understood.
Softly he placed kisses down my stomach until he reached the band of my pink leggings I was wearing.

His blues eyes looked up at me like they were confirming that I wanted him to continue but before I had a chance to say anything to him there was a knock at the door. Shit.

I was about tell the person to go away but when I opened my mouth nothing came out but a small squeal.
The next thing I knew I was shaking. Why the hell am I shaking? It's not cold in here.

I snapped my eyes open to see Liam slightly shaking me to wake me up. I looked around and saw no sign of Niall and noticed that I was wearing my shirt again. In fact I was still wrapped in all the blankets.

"Sorry I unlocked the door but you locked it and I was getting worried." Liam said with a small smile on his face.

Oh my god! It was all a dream! it didn't happen....


*The next morning*
*6th January 2014*

"@Katie_Payne: They say that when you dream about people that it's your mind and body craving them, At least my dreams are about the right person."

I scrolled through my twitter feed and followed a few nice people for a while before I saw a tweet from Niall.
"@NiallOffical: Remember only God can judge ya, Forget the haters 'cause somebody loves ya."

I smiled once I realised that it was part of the song we were singing on the way up to the cabin. It was cute but then again I don't know for sure that it had anything to do with me. I decided to look at his page and see what other tweets he has had recently.

"@NiallOffical: It's not enough to try, you've gotta give your blood and tears and time."
I was shocked a little when I read the tweet because it was a line from my favourite song by Nina Nesbitt. I'm about 90% sure that it wasn't a coincidence.

Just as I began scrolling again I heard a knock at the door so I locked my phone and made my way towards the door.
I opened the door to find a very tired looking Niall leaning against the door frame.

"We need to talk." He stated simply then brushed past me towards the couch.
"I thought you were going to visit your family?" I asked because I thought he had already left.

"I leave tomorrow but that's not what I'm here to talk about."

I sighed and made my way to the couch as well. I sat quite far away from him because all I could think about was my dream last night, I really wanted it to come true don't get me wrong but our relationship isn't in the greatest spot right now.

"Uh I'm sorry I yelled at you on new years." He looked dead into my eyes as he talked but his face was completely blank.

"You don't need to be sorry, I was wrong to think it was okay for me to be so close to other guys when we both know that we like each other. So I'm sorry."

"You don't need to be sorry Katie."

"What? Yes I do! I was wrong." I am beyond confused right now, I was in the wrong and I was brought up to believe that if you did something wrong then you should be sorry.

"We need to take things slower, we are going to go back to being friends and when we have everything sorted out and you have settled in more to living here then we can talk about our feelings for each other."

My eyes began to water at his words.

"What are you saying? You don't like me anymore because I kissed Ashton?" I let the tears flow freely down my cheeks.

"That's not what I'm saying Katie! You don't have to be sorry about anything."
He sighed before he stood up and walked towards the door. Before he had opened the door I yelled out to him.

"Why shouldn't I be sorry?"

He turned around to look at me one more time.
"Because we we're never together."

Liam's POV

It was lunch time and I walked into the kitchen just to find Ashley by herself sitting at the island filling out some papers for university. Ashley had to go back to New Zealand soon because she was accepted into one of the best universities there, I felt bad that Katie had to say goodbye again.
Katie and Ashley were the prefect friendship, they trusted each other and knew that no matter the distance they would always be best friends. It made me start to think about the friendship between myself and Niall. I mean I love the guy like a brother but the thing is Katie is my biological sister and the fact that they can't be in same room without Katie crying just makes me want to punch him.
It's not just Niall, I feel like that towards Louis too. Even the 5sos boys get to close to Katie for my liking, I think I'm becoming a bit to over protective with her but it breaks me a little inside every time I see her cry.

I decided that I need to talk to Katie about this whole thing because maybe if I talked to her about focusing her attention on something other than boys, it would help her be happier and would help me be a little less over protective.

"Hey Ash? Have you seen Katie?" I asked while pouring a glass of juice for Katie once I find her.

"Yeah she is in the music room." Ash didn't even take her eyes off the papers, she must need them finished fast.

I walked down the hall that lead to the music room and as I got closer I heard the slight sound of a guitar being strummed.

I opened the door slightly to see Katie focusing all her attention on the guitar, it was so cute.
I didn't even know she could play the guitar but she played it like she had known how to for years.

It was easy to see that she was about to start singing so I quietly put the glass of juice down and opened the video camera on my phone, Katie still hadn't seen me so she began to sing.

"You got new jeans, the hood is not gone
I'm in the new dress that I've never worn
And I could have sworn
You didn't bat an eye when I walked
Into the room and I first thought
You could be the one

Have we been seeing the world through a piece of shattered glass
Something so beautiful can fall apart so fast

Just before goodbye
You had the chance to change your mind
Just before you lied saying
You gave this your best try
It's not enough to try
You have to give your blood and tears and time
You had one last chance to change your mind
Just before goodbye

Curtains are drawn but we're still dressed
The film plays on right under my bed
I ask what is left now
But you ignore, pretend that we're fine
We're not together, half of the time
I would have known the signs

Have we been seeing the world through a piece of shattered glass
Cause something so beautiful can fall apart so fast
Don't you understand

Just before goodbye
You had the chance to change your mind
Just before you lied saying
You gave this your best try
It's not enough to try
You have to give your blood and tears and time
Take the world of hurt inside
You had one last chance to change your mind
Just before goodbye

Just before goodbye
You had the chance to change your mind
Just before you lied saying
You gave this your best try
It's not enough to try
You have to give your blood and tears and time
Take the world of hurt inside
You had one last chance to change your mind
Just before goodbye
Before goodbye
Before goodbye ."

She had the most beautiful voice and I didn't even know until now, I finished the video and stood there for a moment soaking in the lyrics she had just sang.

I decided to send the video to the other four boys, I wasn't sure what to caption the text to the boys so I captioned it with the only thing I could think of.

"Who knew"


I decided that now wasn't the time to talk to Katie about the idea of distracting herself from boys.

Being still quite shocked about what I had heard, I walked towards my room and flopped onto my bed and just took some time to stare at the roof.

My phone distracted me from my blank thoughts, I looked at it to find a message from each of the boys.

I opened each one to find them about the video of Katie.

Zayn: A natural Payne!

Louis: Like brother, like sister (:

Harry: Some competition in the Payne household!!!

Niall: A lot of soul.

Nialls text really made me think, but after a lot of thinking about it I realised that Katie's feelings were much stronger then they should be.

It was time to find Katie something to focus those feelings on that wouldn't hurt her like a relationship would.


Hope you like the chapter!
So there is a lot of hints about things happening in the next few chapters!
I want to see what hints you guys found so comment what you think I am hinting at!!! (:

On a unrelated story note!
For you people who haven't picked it up yet, I live in New Zealand (:
Anywho I have been in Australia the last couple of days visiting some relatives I have over the ditch and I ran into my ex Vincent (The one I used in this story).
The point is that he is just as abusive and a dick as he use to be. Yes I am fully admitting right now that I use to be in a abusive relationship but now I have the prefect relationship.

The whole thing that this run in has taught me is that I can't be the only person in the world that went through or is going through an abusive relationship so I just wanted to give everyone who actually reads this some advice.

Don't expect every abusive guy to change for you because you might not be that girl that he is willing to change for, but just because that dick doesn't work out doesn't mean you won't get a happily ever after.


Thank you xo

This is really good!

Thank you sweetheart! xx

I only really come on this site to see if you updated. You have the best fanfictions ever

Thanks darling ♡ I'm really not okay with it but I can't put my life on hold forever so I think I'm ready to get the last few chapters done then onto the sequel! (: