Harry's POV

"Loosen up a bit, mate. Get a drink or something," Louis says, nudging my arm.

"I'm driving," I remind him. He shrugs.

"We can just stay here, lots of people are. I'm sure Courtney wouldn't mind." I turn and glare at him, to which he just flashes one of his classic sarcastic smiles.

"I didn't want to come here in the first place, why the fuck would I want to sleep here?"

"Harry, come on. One drink won't kill you," Niall says. I'm about to respond when a blonde head comes bouncing up behind him, wrapping her arms around his torso. Caroline. She kisses his cheek and then her eyes fall on me, her stupid smile immediately disappearing.

"Harry." She stares at me with wide eyes. "I didn't think you'd be here."

I just shake my head and walk away from the group. Caroline tried to visit Adie during the first two weeks, but after that she completely stopped trying. Her and Tyler don't hang out with us at school anymore, though I know Niall hangs out with her a lot on his own. She can't even look at me. Serves her right, she deserted her best friend when Adie needed her the most. What a bitch.

I manoeuvre through the drunken bodies and finally get out to the back of the house. We've been here so much in the last few years that I know exactly where I can go to get away from the craziness. I wonder what Adie is doing right now. Would she be asleep already? Her phone has been off for the last while but since she was going to be on her own tonight I made sure she had it so she could call me if she needed to. Maybe I should call her, just to make sure. Is she mad at me? I wonder if she really wanted me to come tonight or if she just said that because she thinks I wanted to be here. I don't. I miss her.

"What are you doing out here?"

I turn around and try my hardest not to roll my eyes. Thankfully it's not Courtney, but it is her stupid friend, Ashlee. Definitely a step up, but not by much.

"Just needed some air," I tell her quietly.

"Oh." She nods and just stands beside me, leaning on the railing. I've known Ashlee for a long time; her dad works with my mum. We were actually good friends for a while, but over the last year or so she started trying really hard, dressing like a slut and acting dumb on purpose when I know she's actually really smart.

"So you and Liam?" I ask after a minute or two, the silence too much for me. Liam and I don't really talk about girls anymore after everything that happened, so I'm not sure if they actually got together after the formal.

"No," she says, shaking her head and laughing a little. "That was just a drunken mistake."

"You really hurt Adie." The words come out before I can even process them.

"I know, I always meant to apologize but you know how Courtney can be."

"She told you not to?" She nods slightly. "That's bullshit, Ash. How long are you going to let her tell you what to do? You're so much better than her."

"Says the guys that made out with her on multiple occasions."

"Fair enough. At least I realized I was an idiot."

She sighs. "I don't want to be on her bad side, Harry. Honestly, there's no way in hell I'm going to be friends with her after we graduate, but while we're still in high school I just need to put up with her."

"Do you hear yourself? Courtney has you and Tia wrapped around her finger for no reason. You just let her push you around. It's not even-" I stop and take a deep breath. "Nevermind. It's not my problem."

"Nice to see that you still care," she says quietly. I look down at her and she smiles a bit. "I thought you hated me."

I shake my head. "No. I just didn't want to be around Courtney all the time. She's annoying as fuck."

I smile and Ashlee laughs quite loudly, nodding her head in agreement. I laugh lightly to myself as well and start to feel lighter somehow. Maybe I did need to get out tonight.

"Listen, I'm really sorry about everything that's happening. I don't know much about it, but I noticed that Adison hasn't been at school for a long time. I hope she's okay."

"Thanks. She's...getting there." I look out at the backyard and sigh to myself. I can't get my head on straight right now. Should I be here or at home with her? I don't know if I'm doing the right thing. "Anyway I don't really want to think about it. I'm trying really hard not to leave and go see her right now."

"Are you guys still together?" she asks, her tone light. She seems genuinely curious.

"Honestly..I have no idea. I think so. My mum found out about us and got pissed and then Adie...yeah. So I don't know what's going on with us. I just want her to be okay."

"She seems like a really nice girl."

"She is. Are you seeing anyone?"

She shakes her head. "I went out with this senior a few times, but it didn't really work out. Did you hear my sister is getting married?"

"She is? That's awesome." She nods and I smile at her. Ashlee and her older sister are really close. I'm pretty sure she's only twenty, though. That's pretty young. "I guess you'll need to find a date then, huh?"

She laughs. "I guess so. I think I'm going to get a drink, do you want one?"

Hmm. I guess one won't hurt. It'll be out of my system by the time I drive home, right?

"Sure."

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"One more, one more!"

"Nah man, I can't," I slur, swaying slightly. Louis pouts another shot anyway. Eh, what the hell. I down that one too and slam the small glass on the table, laughing as everyone else cheers. "How many was that?"

"Who cares!" Louis shouts. We both start laughing our asses off at...nothing, walking or stumbling around the house as the party carries on. Well this wasn't exactly the plan, but fuck it! We somehow managed to get ourselves outside to the backyard, where it wasn't raining for once.

"I told you this would be fun," Louis says, pointing a finger at me. Well, sort of.

"I guess you were right. I'll give you this one."

"Harry!"

I turn around and practically fell sideways from the movement, my eyes taking a few seconds to adjust to the person coming towards me. Ashlee.

"Come back inside!" she said happily, taking my hand and pulling me towards the house. Louis ran past us, screaming at the top of his lungs. Apparently it scared the shit out of Ashlee; she screamed and somehow tripped, pulling me down with her so we both landed on the grass. We both start laughing so hard tears come out of my eyes.

"I haven't laughed like this in so long!" I groan, stretching my arms above my head.

"That's just sad," she says, rolling over so she's laying right beside me, both of us looking up at the stars with our arms against each other. "Can I ask you a question?"

"You just did."

"So funny," she says sarcastically. I just laugh. "Do you ever get bored of being in a relationship? Especially when most of yours has consisted of like...you know."

If I wasn't drunk right now that question would totally offend me, but right now I can't be bothered.

"I'm not bored. I love Adie, so I'm going to be there for her."

"Woah! Love her? Shit, that's intense Harry."

"Yeah tell me about it."

"Does she know?"

"Nope. Haven't told her yet." We both stay silent for a few minutes while I try to keep everything still. "I miss her."

"You see her all the time, don't you?"

"Yeah but...it's like she's not there. I don't know how to explain she's just like...gone. What the fuck am I supposed to do if she never goes back to the way she was?"

She rolls onto her side and leans against her arm so she's looking down at me. I see two of her.

"Well that would suck," she says simply. I sigh and look up again. She starts giggling.

"What?"

"You have grass on your face," she says quietly. I start to reach up for it but I freeze in place when I feel her fingers brush against my cheek. I look over at her face and just stare at her. What's happening right now?

Notes

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