The Only Hope For Me Is You

“You guys are in a band?” I ask them. Everything makes sense now.

“Yeah, haven’t you known Harry and us are One Direction?” Zayn questions me.

“Fuc-“ Louis is about the curse until he gets cut off by a huge ear splitting crash.

We all turn to find Harry standing in the doorway of the kitchen frozen, hands still as if he was holding what he dropped, wide eyes. I looked at the floor and saw what would have been a bowl of salad, now shattered to pieces.

“Bloody hell mate, what are you doing!” Zayn shouts at him. He just stands there unmoving. His wide eyes are looking back and forth between us all. When they land on Louis’s they narrow slightly.

“We weren’t supposed to tell her.” Louis says, covering his face with his hand. What?

They weren’t supposed to tell me? Are you kidding me? They were supposed to keep it from me this whole time? I look around and no one says anything, all eye contact is avoided. I look at Harry and his eyes are closed face in a scowl.

Why would he hide something this big from me? I look around at all of their faces again and they are just staring at me, judging me. I feel like the biggest fool right now. I thought he had some secret colt going on, but he’s in a huge ass band. I’m hurt that Harry wouldn’t want to tell me this great accomplishment, he is famous, and people love him. Is there something wrong with me? I mean every single person in this fucking town knew fuck even the whole world knew, except me. From the very beginning I felt like I didn’t belong here and now it’s definitely proven. I’m always so out of the loop. Never knowing anything, never being fucking told anything. That’s how I’ve lived my whole life. And, I thought for a split second, this was somewhere I could belong. Here, with him. I thought wrong. It’s all the same. Always the same.

I stand up abruptly. I’m so humiliated right now. I have to get out of here. I don’t belong here. I look Harry in the eyes one more time and see disappointment, fuck this. His disappointment quickly changes to confusion as I speed walk out of the room and to the front door. I throw it open and close it with a bang. I need to run, please start running. I hear the door behind me retch open. That’s when I break into a sprint. I run across the lawn and unto the pavement of the sidewalk in the direction to my aunt and uncles house.

“Stop!” Harry yells after me.

I attempt to look back and it slows me down, I see him running at full speed towards me. Holy shit he’s starting to gain! I turn my head back towards the front and try moving my legs faster but exhaustion is getting to me. I don’t have a lot of endurance in the first place and that fact is really starting to catch up with me. I hear myself wheezing and feel the familiar burn in my lungs. At this rate I’m going to have an asthma attack. I have to stop, if I don’t it could be dangerous. I stop but don’t turn around. I hear him stop a couple yards away from me and he starts to walk slowly in my direction as I’m trying to catch my breath. When I compose my breathing I turn so I’m standing side was, not fully facing him, so I have some sort of leverage if I need to start running again. He’s a few feet away from me, keeping his distance, which I don’t understand. He’s always far away even though he’s right there.

“Why did you follow me.” I spit. It baffles me that he actually came. He doesn’t say anything, just stares at me with that look. That stupid look. I get ready to turn and walk away but he actually speaks up which surprises me.

“I didn’t expect you to run.” His comment doesn’t make any sense. He didn’t want me there! Why wouldn’t I run or leave for that matter.

“You didn’t want me there.” I say my thoughts trying to sound harsh but my voice quivers. His eye brows furrow as if he doesn’t understand.

“I never said that.” He says still not understanding.

“Oh you didn’t have to, it was pretty clear.” I tell him. He doesn’t say anything just turns his attention to the ground. He almost looks guilty.

“Why didn’t you tell me something so big?” I ask my voice monotone. I won’t show him any emotion if he denies me it.

“I didn’t think it was important.” He says with a shrug eyes still on the ground.

“Is this some kind of game for you and your friends?” I ask. He looks up and glares at me.

“No.” he growls. Then if this isn’t a game why is he treating me like this. Why won’t he look at me? It’s like I’m constantly in the dark and nothing’s going to change that.

“Then why?” I question him. I’m starting to lose my patience. He never gives me straight answers, better yet he never answers at all.

“Everything’s going to change.” He says silently, frown set in place.

“What?” He shakes his head and looks at something past my head, he looks at anything but me.

“I don’t understand why you wouldn’t tell me you’re famo-“ I begin but am rudely cut off.

“Don’t.” He snaps.

“Don’t what?” I ask equally annoyed.

“Don’t say that word.” Word? Now he's telling me what i can and can't say.

He can’t possibly mean the word famous, because isn't that what he is? Famous. I don’t have much experience with any of this but isn't that something to gloat over?

“What? You are famous Harry.” He looks at me finally, but I think it was better when he didn’t. The look in his eyes hits me. Hurt flashes through his eyes but quickly turns to nothing. But I saw it. It was there. He finally had emotion. I still don’t understand how everything’s going to change, everything won’t change. I have to tell him.

“Nothing can change because of all this.” I mean it to. I don't know what it means it have all the attention he has. I've never known something like this. I look at him finally and he surprises me with a smile.

"Why would you say nothing can change when..." He pauses to look me directly in the eyes.

“You’ve just proven to me that it can.”

All emotion ceases as he walks away from me.

Notes

It is a little short but I wanted to give another chapter for ANormalGirl! And i got really excited so i had to release it early!

Has anyone guessed why Hollands dreams keep changing? Or why Harry is having these reactions? haha you might find out sooner or later ;)

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