Louis P.O.V

It's literally killing me to see Harry go through all of this. Just a few months ago he was well and happy enjoying life with the rest of us now his life is being cut short. I obviously cant let him know how much this is hurting me that'll only make him lose hope even more than he has. What am I supposed to do though? If this news is making me so upset how is Gemma going to take it? How did Ms. Styles take it? They've known him since he was born I've only known him for 4 years and it's impacting me so much. Its been a day since I've known and since the moment he told us the news, Eleanor and I haven't left his side. How could we leave him when he's going through so much. The doctors said that they'll start doing some tests in a day or two, I wish they would just hurry up and get rid of this horrible disease and let Harry be the old Harry. The one who could light up a room with his smile, who knows when not to push someone. The Harry that knows how to have fun. This Harry has hidden that Harry so deep inside of him that I'm afraid I'll never get my old mate back. The other lads are going to be here any minute they just texted me saying they just got to the hospital. It's been so hard keeping the truth from them. They've been texting me non-stop asking me what's wrong with Harry and if he's doing alright. Hopefully they don't freak out in front of Harry, it'll break him apart if he gets to know that somebody is hurting cause of me. I guess I should probably wake him up now. He has been sleeping for a while now but he should probably get up and get ready to tell the boys. I really need Eleanor by my side at times like this.. But she had to leave in the morning for school. "Hey, Harry. You need to get up now the lads are going to be here any moment," I say quietly to him. "Ugh no 5 more minutes." he puts the pillow on top of his head. I laugh to myself, at least this habit of his isn't gone. "No you got to get up now. You don't want me to get the water do you?" I shake him while taking the pillow away from his face. "Alright alright I'm up. Don't have to be so harsh." he rubs his face and stretches "Are the lads here yet?" he asks me but before I could answer a familiar voice speaks up "Of course the lads are here," Niall says while running and hugging Harry revealing the other two guys. "Hey make room for us," Liam says running and jumping on top of them both. I couldn't help to join in but I regret it now cause Zayn just jumped on top of me. We've literally made a dog pile with Harry on the bottom. "Oi get off of me you fat asses. You weigh a ton, Niall especially," Harry says. Laughing we all get off of him and I grab chairs for the rest of the boys placing them near Harry's bed. They all take a seat and we all stay quiet for a bit until Niall decides to speak up "So, Harry what did you do? Break your leg or something? Cause I mean when someone says 'break a leg' when you're about to go on stage they don't actually mean break your leg," Niall says laughing. I look up to Harry and see he's fidgeting with his hands, he's nervous. Of course he's nervous! He has to tell 3 of his best mates he has cancer. "Err.. Not quite! So the thing is that uhmm.." Harry looks at me for some help "Well you see Harry here uhmm," I stammer "Come on spit it out," Zayn says "I have cancer," Harry finally says. For a minute the room goes eerily quiet. "Oh that's hilarious. No but seriously what happened to you?" Liam says "He's telling the truth. He has leukemia and the doctors are going to be doing some tests on him either today or tomorrow. He has to stay in the hospital until they're sure what has to be done and how far the leukemia has spread," I try to convince them "Seriously, you're in on this too, Louis? It's not funny. Look at him he looks perfectly healthy!" Liam says "Are you kidding me? Okay I've gone through this conversation way too many times. You don't want to believe me? Fine by me. I'm going to go see Emma, at least she's probably worried about me. I haven't seen her for two days now! If you all actually care about me than ask Louis what's going on," he points at me and leaves the room. Now all eyes are on me, great I got to explain this to them. "Guys he's telling the truth. He has leukemia! We wouldn't joke about something so serious, you know us," I tell them. "Fuuuck," Liam screams standing up knocking the chair down on the way. He starts to pace the room an old habit of his when he gets stressed. "Wow.. I just I don't know what to say. How can he have Leukemia? He's so young," Niall says "That's exactly what I thought when he first told me but than again cancer hits people of all ages. Cancer got to him too but we all have to be strong for him. If we break then he will for sure break down too," I look at Zayn who hasn't said a word since the news got out, "Zayn, you alright?" I ask him "I.. Yeah I'm fine, but what about the band? What are we going to do, Harry's the one that brought all of the publicity. What are we going to do?" he says. "Are you being fucking serious right now? We're all worried about Harry but all you're worried about is the band? Zayn, this is our best friend who's dying. Slowly fading away but no you're not scared about that. You're scared about what's going to happen with the stupid fucking band!" I can not describe the anger I am feeling right now towards him. I just cant digest the fact that he doesn't ask how Harry is doing how can that not be the first thing running through your mind when you hear that your best mate has cancer? "I was just thinking out loud. I'm sorry, but everyone is thinking it I'm just brave enough to say it," he says but I can tell he's regretting what just came out of his mouth. "Okay so are you guys thinking about the band right now? Are you guys worried about what's going to happen to the band or Harry? Cause if you are so worried about the band than you can leave right this second," I say with pure hatred in my face. I look at all of the faces in the room except for Zayns, I cant even look at Zayn right now! "No of course not! Who cares what happens to the band, we can talk about that later but right now we got to know if Harrys going to get better," Liam assures me "Yeah don't worry about Zayn. You know he says things that he doesn't mean when he doesn't know what to say. Don't take it to heart he obviously cares about Harry," Niall says. Zayn gets up and walks over to me I don't know if that's such a good idea though because I swear if another stupid remark leaves his mouth than he wont be leaving the way he came in. His pretty little face wont be too pretty! "Mate, I'm sorry. I don't even know what I was saying. I'm so fucking stupid I just.. This came out of nowhere and I don't know what to do. I cant lose him, Louis. I cant lose Harry. We all cant afford to lose Harry he's the one that keeps all of us together, look at us we're already starting to fight." I start to relax and realize that everyone is going to react to this differently. I can't get angry at every single person that doesn't support Harry at first. "It's okay I know how you feel and I totally understand you saying all of those things. I don't blame you and I'm sorry for being such a dick it's just, I don't want Harry to think that we aren't going to be here for him. He's already losing hope in himself and I don't want him to give up on himself. We cant give up on him," I reveal to him. "And we wont give up on him. We will stick by his side and support him throughout it all no matter what happens to the band. Remember we became friends before we became band mates. We will always be friends before business!" Niall says standing next to me. This whole Harry thing isn't only going to take a toll on him it's going to take a toll on all of us. We just can't let him see that. "Niall's right! We wont let anything happen to Harry even if we have to call doctors from all over the world. We will get Harry better no matter how long and how hard it will be," Liam puts a hand on my shoulder. "And most of all we will do this all together," I say pulling them all into a hug. We're going to get Harry out of here! Cancer has to go through all of us before it gets to him. (Ignore Harry in the picture) Harry's P.O.V I quickly wipe the tears from my eyes before I enter Emma's room. I can't let her know there's something wrong with me. I go inside to see Lily and Emma sitting on the bed criss cross talking to each other. Lily sees me first due to Emma's back being towards the door. I put a finger to my mouth letting her know I want to surprise her. I quietly go up behind Emma and put my hands over her eyes. "Guess who?" I say in a very deep voice "Uhm I don't know is it Taylor Lautner?" she says "Do I sound like Taylor Lautner?" I say kind of happy. Woah she's comparing me to Taylor Lautner! "Well your hands seem like girl hands so you cant be Taylor Lautner, I'm guessing it's Harry?" I remove my hands and she turns around, "hey look, Lily, I was right," she says with a huge grin. I pout at her and ask her if she really thinks my hands are girl hands! She takes my hands pretending to examine them, "well your nails are long and your hands are really soft so I guess it's a compliment cause I love soft hands," she says while looking up at me with that cute little smile of hers. Wait cute? No I meant that in a friendly way.. I hope. "Now your hands are a bit sweaty which I don't love so I'm just going to putting them down," she says dropping my hands. Lily and I both laugh. I sit down in the empty seat and decide I should probably further explain what happened in the Dr. Greens office. "So uh I just wanted to explain what happened in Dr. Greens office," I say to them. "Well than that's my cue to leave," Lily says giving Emma and I a hug. After she leaves the room I continue, "As I was saying, what happened in the office really wasn't that serious so I don't want you to worry. I was still recovering from the day of the accident and I guess it caught up to me." Emma still didn't look convinced so I continued lying to her face, "Also I was so worried about you that I hadn't eaten much the past couple of days. Than I went into Dr. Greens office and he told me that my dad knows about the car accident and I guess that blew me over the top and I fainted." That should convince her. "Well why didn't you say that before? Why does it matter if your dad knows about what happened though?" Oh I wish she didn't ask me that question. "I don't really like talking about my dad. Lets just say my dad and I aren't on good terms so now that he knows about this accident, he's for sure going to try to criticize me and bring me down about it. Don't worry though I'm fine now, the doctors said I should eat healthy and I'll be fine," I let her know. Ugh I just keep lying to her, it disgusts me how easy it is for me to think up a lie. Well the dad part wasn't a lie. If he found out about the accident he would probably tell me how bad of a person I was and how I don't deserve to live. I guess part of my insecurities came from him and his words. That's why I don't trust people too often they all leave just like my dad did.

"So you got discharged already?" Crap, I didn't think this through. What if she happens to walk passed the room I'm staying in? Than she's going to know I've lied to her. I should get a room far away from hers! It's just a week, how bad can that be? She's going to be gone in a week, I can totally keep this from her.

"Yeah I did. Hey, how about we watch some movies? You probably don't want to stay here all alone."

"It's like you read my mind. Here lay down here so you can see the screen. I've already got a movie loaded on my laptop." She moves over to give me some space on her bed.

"Are you sure? I don't want to mess up any wiring. Or hurt you!"

"Of course. Harry, seriously it's fine just don't let the doctors know than we're all good," she pats the space next to her. I really don't want to sit in this chair while watching the movie. I get up and lay down beside her. She starts up the movie and I groan to myself. Of course it had to be this movie we just had to watch a walk to remember. A movie about cancer!

"Is everything alright? If you don't like this movie we could watch something else," she looks at me uncertain.

"No, no everything is perfect. Start this sucker up!" I assure her. She smiles at me and returns her attention to the screen. Oh, Emma if you only knew that this isn't only about the movie.

Emma's P.O.V
As much as I want to believe Harry I just cant do it. I want to continue asking him about his father but I can tell it's a sensitive topic. Even Lily said that she noticed he was a bit on edge on the day of the accident but she said that it was probably cause he hit me with his car and also Lily had totally told him off but I don't think that's it. There's something else going on and I wont rest until I find out! I look towards Harry and I mean really look at him. His skin has gone a bit pale and he has dark circles under his eyes. He didn't even care to fix his messy curly hair. They're all over the place. How did I not notice any of these changes before? I know for sure there is something wrong now.

"What are you staring at? You should just take a picture," he says while staring at the laptop screen but I can just feel his cheeky smirk.

"Oh shush you aren't that special for me to have your picture in my gallery," I smirk.

"Hey that's not very nice. Come on let's take pictures!" he says a bit overexcited

"Okay but only cause I like you," I say to him hoping he didn't take it the wrong way. I mean he's cute and all but I don't like him in that way.. Well I think I don't.

"Alright whip out your phone girl!" he says with too many hand gestures. I laugh and take my phone out and we start to take the most goofiest pictures ever. I squint my eyes and stick my tongue out while Harry just sticks his tongue out.

(I know it's not Harry or Miley but just imagine it's them.)

We take another one with him kissing my cheek and I'm just smiling at the camera.


"Perfect now lets take a normal one!" I smile at him and nod my head. We take a picture of us smiling at the camera. I take a look at the picture but honestly is Harry actually happy? Maybe he's pretending. Ugh these thoughts will be the end of me I swear!



"You alright?" he asks

"I'm perfect! I love this picture," I let him know

"So do I. Can you send me all of them?" I nod but I tell him only on one condition that he doesn't post them anywhere. He agrees and we go back to watching the movie even though we missed most of it. It was so worth it though.