Sofia's POV


I felt weird in my own body as the warm summer air softly hit my face in a sweet breeze . The golf course was perfectly trimmed , the smell of fresh cut grass was truly overwhelming , it must of taken hours and hours to get the grass to look that green and healthy . The tall multicolored maple trees where about twenty diffrent shades all together , beautiful reds and oranges tinted the huge leaves that decorated the old trees . Even in the all white shirt and golfing skirt Anne had made me wear for the occasion I couldn't help but to feel unlike myself now that my breasts were wrapped up in the gauze . I felt flat , like if there was nothing stopping my from seeing my feet , I felt like an alien in my body . I'm pretty sure Harry was starting to notice how uncomfortable I was because he offered to carry Archer the whole time we golfed .

" How are you feeling hun ? ", spoke a sweet voice behind me . Anne was wearing the same thing I was , same white skirt and a white Polo shirt , I felt like we straight out of a suburban family photoshot . Harry and I were dressed like we would never dress in the city , it was super diffrent compared to our dark jeans and leather jackets . We actually might even look like normal couple and not teenage runaways .

" I feel better actually ", I told Anne once she walked next to me . Our feet automatically matching up to the same pace . Off in the distance I could hear Harry's booming laugh filling the quiet scenerary , when we finally reached them I realized why he was laughing like his normal self . There in all white like us , his four bestfriends stood with golf clubs casually leaning on them with wide smile when they saw me walk in with Anne . I'm going to admit , Harry looked really cute in all white , even though he looked like a water bottle full of milk , but he looked really good .

" Hello Barbie ", Louis said with a smug little smile that they had on .

" Hello Louis ", I said casually back with a smile .

" There's something diffrent about you ", Liam said squinting his eyes at me . I gulped nervously , it was super obious that my breasts weren't there to me , from a distance you would think that I was only wearing a sport bra or maybe I had no boobs , but no it was so much more than that .

" Yeah , did you dye your hair ? ", Niall asked just as confused as the others . I gave him the " are you kidding me look " .

" No , no it's not her hair ....", Zyan said walking closer to to me .

" Her boobs are gone ! ", Niall exclaimed loudly . My palm connected with my forehead in frustracion . Biggest face palm of all face palms .

" Guys ", I said groaning . Harry's chuckle rang above me when he came to wrap his arms around me , like a little girl I hid my face in his strong chest .

" Their just wrapped up ", Harry said to them with me still in his arms . I playfully bit his chest to get his attencion back to me , like I had planned his green loving eyes flashed down to me instantly .

" Are they gone forever ? ", Liam asked in a worried tone . It was a bit unsual that we were having this conversation in such an open situacion like this , it was sort of personal . Feeling uncomfortable I nested deeper into Harry's warmth , I felt so safe in his arms , like if nothing could touch me . My hands caressed the bottom of his back gently , the white fabric being the only barrier between us .

" No ", Harry said chuckling while his hands slid up and down my back . I closed my eyes as his colonge filled my nose along with the smell of fresh cut grass .

" Well whatever it is , we hope you feel better ", Niall said sweetly . In appreciation I lifted my head from Harry's chest to flash him a loving smile , I mouthed thank you to him with a giggle .

" You should wear skirts more often ", Harry whispered lowly in my ear sending shivers up my arms . My chest rose higher and higher when his large hand skimmed down to my lower back , when it finally reached low enough I squealed pulling it back up swatting him away .

" Yeah how about no ", I said pulling away laughing .

" Alright honey lets go walk around while they play ", Anne said pulling me away from my waist . As we began to walk away with Anne still holding me a larger pair of arms gripped me back suddenly .

" Harold ! ", Anne yelled laughing when he spun me around to give me a sweet kiss on the lips . I laughed into the kiss while you could hear the guys yelling at him to hurry up . He gave me a full smile before he turned to walk away from me , playfully I smacked his butt with Anne howling . It was silent for a while as we walked near a small lake filled with lily pads and pink small flowers all around , it was beautiful .

" Anne ? ", I asked her while she bent to pick up a pink flower growing from the green grass .

" Yes dear ? ", Anne asked me bending back up .

" Can I ask you something ? ", I asked shyly looking at her with a nervous gaze .

" Of course honey , come on let's sit ", she said with a loving smile while she sat on the clean green grass near the edge of the lake . She patted the spot next to her on the grass encouraging me to sit .

" Is everything alright ? ", she asked me placing her hand ontop of mine gently .

" Yeah everything is fine , it's just that something weird happen this morning ", I told her looking at the water that had small ripples that frogs created .

" What happen ? ", she asked rubbing my arm . I loved the fact that I could talk to Anne about anything , she was almost like my mum , they were so alike in ways .

" Do you ever , like feel weird around Andrew ? Not as in uncomfortable , just maybe , shy ?", I asked nervously studdering over my own words .

" Hmm , sometimes , you mean as in intimately ? ", she asked trying to catch my nervous gaze as I picked grass off the white skirt .

" Yeah like that ", I said to her finally looking up at her even though the sun hit my face .

" I guess every woman does , why what happen ? ", she asked again . Her long black hair shinning in the sun making me envy the color .

" Well this morning after you called us for breakfast me and Harry were already up , so after you called us I began to get dressed . And I don't know why but I felt really shy to change in front of Harry , I think he may of noticed because he came up behind me and helped me put on my bra , but even then I felt weird . Then he asked me if he made me feel uncomfortable , which made me feel really guitly ", I told her looking into her deep green eyes that were framed with thick black eye lashes .

" Ahh , I see ", she said smiling .

" Did you guys have sex last night ? ", she asked bravely .

" Erm , yeah we did ", I said blushing looking away . I nervously filled with the bottom of my skirt .

" Had that ever happen before ? ", she asked me frowning .

" No never , I was always very open with my body with him , but last night I don't know , I felt like a teenager about to have sex for the first time again ", I told her nervously laughing . I looked away from her eye contact to see in the distance a golf cart with the familiar curls poking out from under the seat , he smiled at waved when they passed us speeding by really fast . Archer and Swazzy in the guys arms safely .

" Do you ever feel intimated by Harry , I mean as in intimately ? ", she asked me waving at the guys who were laughing driving in circles . To my suprise it was Andrew doing all the shinanagans .

" Well sometimes , but it's not like I fear him . No , not at all , but yeah there is the time here in there where he loses control and he just kind of hulks out ", I said nervously chuckling while I picked a purple flower from the grass .
" Have you talk to him about it ?", she asked me pulling out a bag of nut from her small satchel . With a sweet gesture she offered me the bag , smiling we both ate from the mixture of nuts and cashews .

" Not really ", I said swallowing a pecan . A smile spread on my lips unwillingly when I heard Harry's and Andrews laugh all the way over here , I could just picture his laughing face , his dimples fully indented and his eyes getting all small like an Asian .

" Well maybe you should ", Anne told me smiling . I took her advice deeply in my head , maybe talking to Harry about him being so rough with me would help me feel less shy to change and be intimate with him . Not that I minded that he was rough , but sometimes I missed the sweet gentle gestures he used to do like giving me sweet kisses while love making , now they were all tounge and bitting , again not that I mind , but still .

" Like when we first started dating he was very gentle and sweet , not he's just kind of rough ", I told Anne squinting with my hands swafting all around the place .

" Andrew was like that too ", Anne told me nervously chuckling .

" So it runs in the family huh ?", I told her smiling looking into her emrald eyes .

" I guess so , but just talk to him honey , maybe he'll take it easy . You are the size of his leg ", Anne said playfully squeazing my hips . I giggled squirming around under her wandering hands . It was true , Harry was a lot bigger than me in every physical way , it was only normal that I would feel suffocated under him somwtimes , right ?

" That's true , I had never thought of that ", I told her laughing still recovering from her tickles .

" Well honey he is a lot bigger than you , I mean just look at when he hugs you , you go up to his chest ", Anne told me getting up from the grass while she swafted the back of her skirt to get rid of the grass .

" He's just taller than me ", I said frowing getting up too .

" And stronger , and taller , and bigger ", she said turning me around to clean the grass off me .

" I guess that's true ", I told her thinking while she patted my butt clean .

" Alright let's go find them , I'm starving ", she told me grinning taking hold of my elbow , linking her pale arm in mine . We talked about anything the rest of the walk , I found out that Harry has a soft spot for dogs , well mostly german shepards , Anne suggested that I get him a puppy . Not a bad Idea . We were talking about Swazzy when we reached the guys , they were all standing in a circle around Louis for some reason , leave it to Louis to do something incredibly stupid .

" Hello ", Anne said waving as we akwardly walked up to them . Harry's head turned first at the sound of her voice , his eyes landing on me with a cheeky grin . Instantly Anne let go of me when I walked up to his larger frame , he automatically put his large arm on my shoulder , my body slumpped at the weight of it . I turned to Anne who was already watching with a frown in her beautiful features , I uncomfortably slithered out to grab his hand instead . He gave me a questioning look before he turned back to Louis who was arguing with Niall .

" I told you it was an accident ", Niall plead Louis with a sad smile .

" These are very expensive shoes Niall ", Louis said crossing his arms in a childish way . Liam was staring at them with a disaproving look while Zyan just looked bored .

" What happen ? ", I asked looking up at Harry was looking down me already with a worried look on his beautiful features .

" Oh um Niall accidently stepped on Louis new shoes ", he told me snapping out of his thinking trans . Okay , now he knew there was something going on , first of all Harry never said " oh " or " um " in the same sentence .

" Oh ", I said chuckling looking back at the childish scene in front of me .

" Are you hungry ? ", Harry asked me tugging on my fingers bringing the attencion back to him .

" Um yeah a bit ", I told him without eye contact letting go of our fingers .

*****

After we had left Harry's parents house I still had what Anne had told me in the back of my head , to talk to him about it . I was pretty sad to say bye to Anne and Andrew , and I think Harry was too , they were hours away and we lived in the city miles apart . The car ride was quiet , nor did we touch or kiss , it was sort of like an akward first date all over again , but I knew that Harry knew there was something bugging me . It was just the way he was driving , all tensed up and occasionally looking at me out of the corner of his eye . Archer and Swazzy peacefully slept in their car seat unaware of the tension that hung heavy in the air , I could basically taste it .

It was even more akward in the flat after Archer and Swazzy had finally gone to bed after being showered and feed , we still had not said a single word to each other , I had a lot in my mind as I picked up the toys around the flat while Harry sat on the kitchen table on his laptop . Carrying the basket of new folded clothe I walked into our bedroom quietly humming to Lana Del Rey while I folded and hung up Harry's washed shirts and pants . God I felt like such a house wife , cleaning , cooking , bathing the kids , folding and doing the things I never would have imagined ten years ago .

" Hey ", Harry voice said near me making me jump .

" Jesus Harry you scared me ", I gasped putting my hand on my chest while the shirt I was hanging up dropped on the floor . Sighing I bent down to pick it up , after I hung it up again Harry waited by the closet door with a hard expression and his arms crossed .

" What's wrong ? ", he asked me nodding his up like a thug . I had my back to him while I folded his jeans in the cabinet .

" I just have a lot on my mind ", I told him not turning around to meet his hard gaze . I'm going to admit , I was a bit scared of him right now , he looked mean , his eyes were dark and his jaw was clenched . I could see his muscles tensing as I walked away from him to get the next load of clothe that just came on , even then he followed me to the laundry room and just watched me fold his clothe . With him just standing there I grew a bit fustraded , didn't he have anything better to do than just watch me fold HIS clothe ?

" Talk to me ", Harry said sternly . My jaw clenched at his orders , who does he think he is to just make me talk to him , suddenly the engagement ring felt like it weighed a ton on my blimp left hand .

" What do you want to talk about ? ", I asked rudely not making eye contact putting the last shirt in the basket .

" I don't know maybe about why your acting like such a bitch to me ? ", he spat rudely . My hands froze , he had just called me a bitch , Harry , my fiance had just called me a bitch . I swallowed down all my ego and pride as I ignored him , I turned to get out of the small room only to stop by his large hand slamming down on the door stopping my movement .

" I said talk to me ", he said again more louder .

" I don't want to talk to you ", I told him with my head snapping to his face . Just as I thought his expression was hard .

" Well to bad your not getting out until you talk to me ", he told me with an evil smirk .

" How about no ", I told him with my fist clenching .

" Talk to me ! ", he yelled . I flinched back at his sudden outburst , so now he was mad . He was furious , the vein on his nek was popping out like it does when he's really mad . I had only seen that vein two times in our entire existance , the night of the beach and the night he got in the fight at the amusement park , and now here , in a laundry room with me .

" Harry move ", I warned with my teeth clenched .

" No ", he said standing in front of me , his hard eye contact looking down at me like if I was a piece of trash stuck at the bottom of his shoe .

" You honestly think that i'm going to talk to you after you called me a bitch ? I don't think so baby ", I said evily looking up at his ice green eyes .

" Then I'm going to make you talk ", he said smiking . What the fuck did he mean ? My skin crawled in goosebumps when he slammed the door with his foot behind harshly , the impact of it shaking the small white room . The basket I was carrying was suddenly gripped from my hands , angry hands gripped my small waist in a bone crushing grip , I winced in pain as he sat me down on top of the washer , his large torso forcing himself in between my legs so we could be eye leveled .

" This is exactly what I'm trying to tell you Harry ! Stop manhadling me ! Your so rough with me ! ", I yelled in frustracion trwoing my hands up .

" What so this is why your mad ?! Because I'm too rough with you !? ", he yelled back inches away from my face . With anger reighing my veins I began to kick and scream trying to get off the washer to get away from him .

" God damn it Sofia ! Stop kicking me ! ", he roared slamming his heavy hands down on my thighs stopping the movement , it stinged bad , but the adrenaline pumping through my stream blocked out the pain . With a hard shove I pushed him off me , as fast as I could I jumped off the washer leaving him there with a stunned face . quickly walking away from the room I began to walk back to the room ready to slam the door on him . I was yelling vulgar words at him when his large hand gripped my wrist twisting me around to look at him .

" Don't fucking touch me ! ", I roared shoving his chest making him stammer back a few inches .

" Don't push me Sofia ! ", he growled . Tantunting him I shoved him back once more .

" Don't make me do it ! ", he yelled inches away from my face .

" Fuck you ! ", I yelled walking away . Suddenly the air underneath me was swept from my feet , I pounded his back as he trew me over his shoulder with ease , my screams were heard all over the house as he walked into the bedroom trwowing me onto the bed like I was nothing , we all the power he possed he made his way on top of me contricting my movements with his large hand gripping my wrist above my head .

" I said ", he said lowly with his lips inches away from mine .

" Talk to me ", he growled .

Then all hell broke lose .

Notes

CLIFFHANGERRRR !!!