Sofia's POV


Dawn broke out from the window early in the morning , sunlight broke in tearing me away from my sleep . My mind was a fog as I attempted to clear up and wake up from the state of confusion I was in . My hand began to wander the bed searching for my curly haired lover , only to find that It was empty . I began to wonder in the small hotel room searching for him , but he was no where to be found . He left no note , no text no call . My heart began to beat as I realized that I was truly alone in this creepy place .


Three hours had gone by and still no sign of Harry , I tried calling more than ten times , and I left numerous messages . But still no answer , I was being to grow worried about where he could be at 12 in the afternoon . Giving up I sat back the middle of the bed curling my legs to me and resting my head to the head board . My mind began to wonder off about where he could be , or what he could be doing . A loud thump jolted my eyes open and my head to snap . As the door opened I could easily make out brown curls poking in from the door entrance . He walked in legs wobbling , and stammering about tipping off balance , he also had a bottle on his hand . He was drunk.

" There's my girl ! " , he announced drunkly as he walked in . Even from here I could smell the alcohol murmuring in his breath .

" Just the girl I wanted to see " , he told me walking over to me . All he got from me was a cold stare .

" I missed you " , he purred as he climbed the bed . Just before he could grab me I shuffled out of the bed out of his grip .

" Where were you !? " , I yelled at him anger filling my head and veins as I stood in front of the bed .

" I just had a couple of drinks with that nice lady " , he slurred .

" Do you know how worried if been ? Harry why didn't you call me or text me that you were okay " , I told him rudely .

" I'm here now baby , and not drunk " , he told me laughing , his head rolling back with blood shot eyes . I turned my back from him sitting on the edge of the bed , my back facing him . I could feel the bed shift as he climbed towards me .

" Are you mad at me ? " , he purred against my shoulder and placing small kisses to my skin . His hands rubbing up and down my forearms .

" No " , I spoke somewhat harshly .

" Yeah you are " , he told me kissing my neck .

" Ugh stop it Harry I'm not mad " , he told him announce hitting my voice . I was annoyed at the fact that he had gotten drunk early in the morning , and the fact that he had drinks with that woman .

" Babe .... Come on .. Don't be like that " , he told me rubbing his large hands up and down my back . Suddenly I remembered that the guys were coming today to pick us up , for unknown reason and relief warned my head . And maybe while they were
at it , they could sober him up .

" Don't you want me ? " , he spoke huskily in my ear . The alcohol filling my senses , I could smell the jack Daniels as his lips moved further up to my jaw . All along his hands sneaked up to grab my waist harshly to him , forcing me to press up against him .

" Not when your drunk " , I told him as he nudged my head to the side so he could get better access to my neck .
A chuckle vibrated throughout our joined bodies .

" I'm not drunk babe " , he lied .

" I can smell the Jack Daniels Harry " , I told him as he began to caress my arms . I knew what he wanted from me , every man does in his drunken state . He had one thing in my mind .

" What Jack Daniels ? That's water you smell " , he told me giggling . I rolled my eyes at his knowledge , he thought I was stupid . His drunken self torn his body from me as he climbed of the bed and kneeled in front of me . I was still sitting as he pried my legs apart so he could rest his head on my collar bone breathing i my scent . I let him , part of me told me to play his drunk game to please him so he could sober up , but another side of me told me to yell at him and be mad . I giggled as he growled playfully bitting my skin , my attempts to be mad at him faded away as his messy lips pressed to mine .

" See I told you I was not drunk , could a drunk person do this ? ", he asked me as he placed on hand on the top of his head and rubbing it while his other hand laded on his stomach patting it . All along he had a childish grin that me made me laugh .

" Anyone can do that Harry " , I told him . He quickly stopped his eyes darkened as they landed on my lips . A snarl left his throat as he crushed his lips to mine , harshly he asked from entrance with his tongue . But I was left in a haze with his harsh actions . I gasped as his hands gripped me tighter to him leaving no space between us . My mouth parted when I gasped so he took the opportunity to slip his tongue in . His mouth was rough against mine , his skill full lips working fast against mine . Before I knew it he had managed to warp my legs around him , my ankles locked against his waist as he effortlessly carried me up . My fingers tangled in his hair as he pulled away to breath , both of our chest rising fast against one another . His hands were on the back of my thighs as he began to walk back wards to wards the bathroom .

" Where are you going ? " , I asked him out of breath . He chucked darkly as he pressed his lips to mine again .

" To have a little fun " , he mumbled against my jaw , wet kisses were planted all along my neck and jaw as he found my weak spot just beneath my jaw , I let out a small moan . Before I could blink we were in the bathroom , he sat me down to the small place he had lifted me last night where I had cleaned his injuries.

With out hesitation he swiftly removed his shirt from his body reviling toned muscles . My hands automatically began to feel his smooth chest , his nipples hardening as I brushed past them . I could taste the alcohol in his breath as he kissed me , his hands landed on my thighs he sneakily inched them closer and closer .

" You know what's funny ? " , he asked me against my jaw .

" Hmm ? " , I hummed as my he kissed me .

" I've had you so many times " , he paused looking into my eyes , " but somehow I want more " , he told me . His facial features softening , almost as if he was no longer drunk anymore , and It was just him , just Harry . My heart broke .

" I love you " , was all he told me .

Imagine hearing the words from some one not related to you , someone who's not your best friend , but when someone you love , someone you dream about actually says them , it makes your heart melt and your breath gets caught in your chest .

" You love me ? " , I asked him .

He nodded .

" Say it again " , I told him placing my hand on his cheek .

" I love you " , he repeated .

* Harry's POV **********************

How did I love her ? Let me count the ways.
The freckles on her nose , like if they were the shadows of a shadow ; the way she chewed on her bottom lip when she was thinking and the way her pony tail swung when she walked or how when she ran she looked like she was born going fast or how she fit perfectly against my chest ; her smell and the touch of her lips , her skin which was always warm , or the ways he smiled like if she had a secret .
How she always made up words like Quaw ( the sound a baby duck makes ) how she burped her way half way through the alphabet and I laugh so hard coke came out of my nose .
How she looked at me like I could save her from every bad thing in the world .
This was my secret : she saved me .
Maybe it was the alcohol clouding my mind , but I had never felt so compelled to tell somebody why I loved them , or at least think why I loved them . All I could think about was about this girl who sat in font of me staring at me like of she had heard everything I has just thought of . A rush of guilt roamed my body , how was I going to tell her ? How could I possibly tell her that she kissed me ? Would she believe me ? I had only had two drinks when we began chatting , I admit it was nice talking to someone who was not constantly on my ass , and yeah I admit it took me awhile to pull back . I hated the fact that I had cheated , I hated my self for it , I was drunk , scared , the alcohol swarmed my scenes ..

" Sofia ? " , I spoke softly to her as her forehead rested on my chest .

" Yeah ? " , she spoke still facing away from me.

" Babe , we need to talk .... " , I told her softly . The alcohol in my system was begging to wear out as I looked in her eyes . I had no idea how I was going to do this , I wanted to protect her , with all my heart . I new I was the reason why she was in danger , I had cheated , I had lied to her . I knew she would hate me if I told her the truth . My heart felt like it was being stabbed as I began to speak . I was doing this for the both of us , this relationship had been built on wobbly rocks from the beginning , now I was crashing from our high of being together . Oh but I loved her , I loved her . But it was for the best if we stopped it now before one of us got hurt , she had already gotten hurt so many times . I could no longer stand it , so I did what I did best , and I lied .

" About what ? " , she asked pushing me away from her , it was as if she new what was coming .

" I-I can't do this anymore " , I lied to her . Her eyes began to water , my heart felt like it was slowly being shattered . My head pounded as it yelled at me to stop .

" What are you talking about ? What do you mean ? " , she asked me with her voice shaking like a stack of paper cards ready to collapse on its self . It took me a while to put my soft side apart and bring out my hard side to make it easier on me .

" Us " , I told her with my jaw clenched trying to hold back tears of my own , this was the hardest thing I had ever had to do in my entire life .

" What- what do you mean ? Harry.. " , she paused looking straight at me her voice quivering as she spoke once again , " Are- are you breaking up with me ? " , her voice sounding like a small gasp . It took all my strength to speak again to her .

" I just can't do this anymore Sofia , I'm tired of being held down " , I lied once more , I knew this would set her off .

" Held down mother fucker !?! I'm holding you down !? " , she yelled a me pushing me to the wall and jumping off . Her eyes were blood shot as she stormed out of the room .

" I'm sorry Sofia , I just can't right now " , I told her walking over to her .

" Why tell me this now huh !? Why not yesterday when we were at home ! Tell me ! " , she spat . I had never seen her look so angry , so wild . There was a rock in my throat the size of a base ball as I made myself look at her . I need to keep her safe , and if breaking up with her was the only way , then so be it .

" I'm sorry " , I told her . I watched as she began looking for her stuff , all I wanted to do was hold her to my chest and tell her I love her .

" Who does that Harry !? Who tells someone they love them and breaks up with them the next second huh !? Who does that !? " , she yelled trowing a shoe at me , I managed to doge it but it hit the wall hard .

" Oh god I hate you ! I hate you Harry ! I hate you so much ! " , she screamed through rushing tears . I could no longer hold in my own tears as I heard her tell me she hates me , I felt light headed , I felt like shit .

" No , no , no baby I didn't mean that , Harry babe I'm sorry " , she told me walking up to me . She tried to wrap her hands around me but I gently pushed her back .

" What did I do ? " , she whispered placing her head in her hands , her long red hair flowing in front of her .

" It's not you , it's me Sofia , I just need some time off " , I explained to her.

" Some time off !? You need some time off !? Oh god I hate you Harry , you mother fucker ! You need some time off ? I'll give you some time off alright ! " , she told me lounging for the door . I grabbed her wrist to attempted to keep her from going but she gripped it back to her chest . She looked at me dead in the eye as she spoke the last words I was ever going to hear from her .

" You don't get to touch me anymore Styles , I gave you everything , everything I had and i placed it at your palm . This is the last you will ever see me Harry . I don't know why you would end it just like that , but I guess if you don't love me anymore " , she spoke lowly he voice barely above a whisper as she finished her sentence .

" Then I guess this is goodbye " , she spoke , her tears escaped her eyes one last time as she squinted her eyes in pain .

" Good bye Sofia " , I told her coldly .
She searched my eyes once more hoping to find anything in them , but with a quick snap her head and body walked out of the hotel , leaving me alone , truly alone this time . I watched her walk out of the hallway until she disappeared into the next hallway , her figure disappearing like a ghost . I slowly closed the door behind me as I slid to the floor against the wall , my sobs were uncontrollable as I cried and cried like I had never cried before . I was so stupid , how could I ever let such an amazing woman like her slip from me . I had to lie , I could not think about her getting hurt , I need to protect her , and being with me was a danger to her . Her I hate you bounced around my brain digging into me as I remembered her words .

" I hate me too " , I whispered to my self .

Notes

*sniff sniff * le tears roll out .