Drops of Jupiter

Sofia's POV

Mini Harry was kicking hard . Not like a cute " awh she kicked " , more like a " holly mother of god " kick . I felt like she was moving inside me , rioting to get out of the confines of my womb . My anxiety grew more as the pain grew in my belly . I was an excruciating pain that I could no longer bare or maintain . I felt like mini Harry was literally scratching my insides , ripping them apart with her small hands . I couldn't help to think that she was in pain , I cried silently at the fact that I was powerless in my own body . It was almost as if I could hear her cry in pain , my own panicked imagination made me believe it was her cries of pain , but they were just mine .
I laid on my back in attempt to ease out the pain that was building up in my back . Rolling to the side in the soft bed I screamed out in pain as a sharp pain hit my stomach . Harry paced around the floor as he tried to figure out what to do , he too felt powerless as the small fetus destroyed my insides , leaving me to a vast pain that seemed as if it would never stop . With slow cautious movements Harry laid next to me in attempt to comfort me .
Slowly the pain subsided as Harry rubbed my belly with his hot hand , circling out the pain that mini Harry was causing . With his small movements he rubbed me to sleep in a sleep so deep , that only my baby could wake up out of .

I jolted awake at a piercing pain hit my stomach . The pain was so excruciating . As a reflex my hand patted around for Harry to wake up . I let out another shriek that jolted Harry awake .

" Jesus Sofia , are you okay ?"

He spoke rubbing his eyes while he found the light near his bed side . I gasped as I felt a warm liquid escaped my body .

" Babe what's goin-"

He stopped . His eyes darted to the side of the bed were I slept . My hands flew to my face as I tried I get a better look at the warm liquid on my fingertips .
Then I saw it.
The whole bed was covered in my blood . The sheets , even my pillow . It was all drenched in the velvety liquid . I gasped as I saw that Harry was covered in blood too . My hands reached down to where I felt the liquid leave my body . In horror I felt that I was still bleeding . Harry stood there with wide eyes at the scenes he was looking at . It must of looked like murder had killed me under his guard . I started crying and screaming as I felt more and more come out of me . I got up in a panic and flew to the bathroom . Not caring about the mess behind me , or the shocked Harry . All I cared was about my baby , and why I was bleeding out . I slumped down on the cold tile before I felt one last pain . The pain that cause everything to go black .

It was white . Everything was white . I wondered if I was dead . I couldn't be dead . I had to be alive . Alive for Harry . Alive for my baby . My baby . I had to be dead . Death could not be this peaceful . I felt like if i was floating in a warm cloud . I was suddenly dragged down from my cloud as I heard a small beep in the far distance . It go closer and closer before it became clear of where I was . My eyes tried to adjust to the light , only to cause me to squint at the blinding monster that made me coward away . Suddenly the memories of what happen caused my eyes to snap open in attempt to hold my belly . I felt dizzy , disoriented .

" Sofia ? Sofia can you hear me ? "

A familiar voiced spoke through a muzzled sound . It heard as if they were in the other side of the phone line with a towel wrapped around the mouth piece to muzzle the sound .

Harry , where was Harry ? Where was my sweet loving boyfriend ? My everything . Where was he ? Why wasn't he here at my side , like he promised ? Where were his beautiful features that kept me from having nightmares at night ?

" Sofia ? Babe ? It's Harry , please babe open your eyes . I'm right here , please just open your eyes ."

My eyes frantically tried to open in attempt to console Harry's pleas . I forced my eyes to open , I had somehow found the inner strength I had buried beneath my exterior . Slowly everything came into focus . I laid on a hospital bed , with wires hooked all around me . The beeping noise dimmed in the back of the white room . My eyes focused on the angel like figure above my head , emerald eyes found mine . A mop of curly hair poked out the sides .

" Sofia ? It's doctor joe , Harry is here with me , your at the local hospital . It's alright love , just open your eyes slowly , I know it's hard but you can do it "

Encouraged doctor Joe . My eyes fully adjusted to the light and came to a clear focus .

" Sofia ! Oh babe I'm so glad your okay "

Harry spoke sweetly through worried eyes as he kissed my hands .

" Harry ? Babe ? What- what happen ? Why-why am I here ?"

I asked Harry , confused .

" Sofia you passed out in the flat after you saw all the blood . I called the ambulance and now your here "

Harry spoke reassuringly through a hushed tone . The clear memories crept into my mind about what had happen in the bathroom . The bed , how it was covered In blood . The screams that filled the room , Harry's expression of fear as he starred at me . It all came back .

" Why - why was I bleeding ? "

I asked doctor Joe turning from Harry's tired eyes .

" Actually while you sleep we took some test , so now all you can do is wait in here . "

Doctor Joe told us as he grabbed his clipboard and left us alone to wonder about what happen .

" Sofia , you're covered in blood ..... Do you want to change ?"

Harry asked my quietly as he looked under the slim covers that secured the horror show . All I could do was nod . I had no words . No thoughts . All I could feel was Harry helping me off the bed and leading me to the bathroom where he then changes me like a child . I could not look at myself in the mirror . I was afraid of what I would see . A monster maybe . Maybe a baby . Maybe a silent tear would escape my eye . Harry did not shy away from my physical state . I was drenched in blood . My hair was wild in a bun , while my eyes looked close to a wild animal . Harry tried to wipe away the blood with a towel but then quickly gave up and ridded me of all of clothe . He pulled me into the hospital shower where he showed me . I was like a zombie . His touch did not send a reaction through my body . His body did not react either . It was just ... Empty . He did not care that his clothe were wet nor marked with blood . He only cared about helping me . With out any warming the tears I had been holding back betrayed me . I wanted to rip them off my face . After Harry had washed my traumatized body he helped me get into the warm bed while he sat next to me . No words were spoken for hours . Just silent tears that escaped out worried faces .

I was awake . Wide awake . Sleep could not console me . My worried mind would jerk me awake . All I could think about was my baby . My mini Harry . All I wanted to do was hold her in my arms . Rock her to sleep in a safe lullaby . But I knew we were nowhere near safe . The safest feeling I had right now was Harry's hand wrapped around mine as he slept next to me in a chair . But other than that I felt no safeness . No peace , no warmth . It was a small knock that awoke Harry from his sleeping trans . Doctor Joe came in slowly with a blank expression .

" How are you feeling ? "

He asked me as he checked the machines around me . All beeped at a normal state .

" Are the lab results back , doctor ?"

Harry asked as soon as the doctor finished . He hesitated before he began .

" Ah yes did come back . You lost a lot of blood , most of which your recovered almost instantly . But what had caused the bleeding was that ......." .

He paused giving us a look of regret and remorse .

" I'm sorry to tell you this but ..... You lost the baby .... I'm sorry .. But what happen was that the cord that connected you and the baby was broken . That's what led to the massive bleeding .."

I let out a gasp . I could hear Harry inhale a deep breath .

" I'm so sorry about your lose .... We did everything we could but .... The umbilical cord was too broken to fix "

Harry let out a cry I had never heard before . Tears flowed and flowed out of his eyes . My tears danced along with his as we cried in unison . I had to be dreaming . This was a dream . My baby. My body felt like jelly . I was dreaming . I was waiting for Harry to wake me up and kiss me and tell me that it was all just a dream . My heart was aching . Literally I had never felt such a string before . My chest felt like it was being pressed with a shoe . Stoping all sort of breathing activities. With out any words the doctor just walks out and left us once more to grieve in a unconditional black hole of pain . In a hurry my hands found my empty belly , that just hours ago it contained life it's self . My everything was in placed on the hands of the small child that I longer filled my heart . I felt empty as I wrapped my hands around my no longer living belly . My heart clenched to the words I had spoken in my head . She was no longer there . My kicking baby . My curly haired baby, no longer hugged my womb . Her small body no longer swam in mine . I felt the bed move while Harry's body shifted to lay next to me and the small bed . We laid there together as we faced each other . No speaking . Just a pure utter silence that we shared . No words of comfort . Nothing prepared you for this moment . There was no class in school that told you how to act if you ever got heart clenching news . No president told you what to say if you were left speechless . No one could mend our broken hearts . No one but our little baby .
Harry cried uncontrollably next to me , when he did stop I stoped . His eyes were red , puffy and sore . His nose was covered in a shade of pink that matched mine . He fianlly let out a loud sigh of surrender , that ended his crying . In seeking comfort I pushed his curly locks out of his eyes so that I could get a better look . His green eyes peered up at me , they usually had a sparkle or a little small light , but here they were empty . With pressed bodies he hugged me tightly . With a small movement he looked down to my emty stomach , a small tear rolled out of his eye as he realized there was nothing there that connnected us together anymore . We laid there for hours , together unbothered.
A small knock jolted us awake at the same time , a small smile escaped Harry's lips .It was Louis and his Eleanor , Liam and Danielle , Niall and Zyan . They filled the small room until it was slightly crowded , Harry kissed my forehead and slipped out of the warmth of my hands . I watched as he went to hug each of them tightly as they all whispered sorry's and comforting words . They all turned to me , each of them hugged me gently . The room was filled with flowers bright flowers and colorful ballons .

" Are you guys okay ? "

Asked Louis slowly . The silence that filled the room gave him a small answer . Harry looked worn out , the hoodie and gym shorts he had trown on were slightly wrinkled at the fact that he had laid with me .
The guys ate with us here , in the small packed room . I felt loved , they seeked out to comfort us in a time of need .They did not care about the sircumstances , nor why the reason we were here .
They ate their food , while I waited for mine that the hospital offered me . I was thankful that they had brought Harry food , it was almost as if I was more worried about him right now that I cared about myself . When my food had fianlly got here , I began to eat slowly , my appetite was no where to be found . I had this wierd theory that it was mini Harry who made me eat like a wolf . But now that she was no longer here , she took everything . My heart , my hopes , my apetite , my everything . I was about to eat a bite when someone gasped . I looked around the room to see what had happen , but all eyes were on me . I removed the plate of food and looked down . Red liquid had spread all over the covers . I panicked again . My eyes franticlly searched for Harry who had already ran out for help . I began patting around , in search for anything , only to find nothing . I was still bleeding . Bad . By the time they had made everyone get out my intire lower half was drenched again . The doctor told us that they could nothing about the bleeding , that I had nothing to worry about , that it was not my blood . It was my babies blood . Harry proceded to wash me again , to wash the blood of our child off my body . I felt as if it was my fault . My body was incaplable of berring a child . I felt as if my womb was cursed . I would scream and cry as I thought about my small Harry bleeding out . Her small body laying lifeless in my own body . I screamed at the thought at the fact that I could do nothing but to wait for her small body to bleed out . My small ginger , curly haired angel was no longer living . No longer kicking . No longer breathing . My stomach turned at the thought of her being gone - Gone , the word turned my staomch and sent me to the blakest blasphemy . As if my heart was incapable of holding anymore pain , it proved me wrong . The heart never stops feeling pain . Because death is not an easy feeling or an emty feeling . Death is full . Because it was not just my child who died , apart of me was taken too . The emtyness in my heart could not be filled by anyone . It could only be saved my my ginger curly haired baby .

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