Shattered

There was literally nothing on TV right now. The house was dark and boring, sitting here by myself. I left it on Sponge Bob with a sigh and threw the remote across the room out of frustration.

Its been about four days since Harry and spent the night together. We occasionally flirted at work and yes, my guilt has been eating my insides but so far I've kept it from Marilyn.

I dont know know why Harry wanted me sexually like that when he has Marilyn, who was probably a freak in the sheets. But even if I wanted to tell Harry no, I couldn't. I used him for my own selfish reasons. I was going to take what I could get, and if that meant doing things with Harry behind Marilyn's back, I would do it.

I felt bad though. I felt like a whore sleeping around with my sister's boyfriend, but I couldn't help it. There was something about those emerald eyes and dimples that assured me that it would all be okay.

I mean, after what Chance did to me, those eyes and dimples are what helped me make it through. They still are.

I jumped a little at a knocking on the front door. I Heaved a sigh and pushed myself up, walking across the living room to the front door. I opened the door and gasped at the sight.

It was Harry. With a bouquet of flowers. I gulped. He always came when I was thinkin about him.

" Uhm Harry..." I trailed off. He shifted uncomfortably.

" Hey Syd." He smiled. I forced a smile. He was so beautiful. Why couldn't he be mine?

" Hey. Erm, Marilyn isn't home." I said, clutching the door as if I was holding into my nerves.

" What makes you think I'm here to see her?" He smirked, leaning against the doorframe. I blushed.

" Well she's your girlfriend so..." I slightly laughed but he didn't find it very funny. I cleared my throaght.

" Well these are for you." He pushed away the tension from my words and put the bouquet of lilacs out front of him. I took them and sniffed their light scent.

" How do you know I like lilacs?" I asked with a smile. He shrugged and shoved his hands in his pockets.

" I didn't. They just look innocent and small and reminded me of you. I guess I just know you." He smiled, proud of his educated guess. I blushed and backed away walking towards the kitchen. I heard his footsteps follow me.

" So what're you doing here?" I asked as I pulled a vase out from the cabinets.

" To take you out." He shrugged. I cut the faucet water off when I saw there was enough and snapped my head up at him.

" Take me out?" I grabbed the flower and slipped them into the water. He nodded.

" Yeah. Like a date. I want to take you on a date." He smiled I blushed. I loved this soft side of Harry. At one glance you would never assume of him to be so nice and caring. I sighed.

" Alright, let me get my shoes on."

I scurried from the kitchen and to my room.

-

When I came back downstairs Harry was in the exact same spot as I left him.

" You ready?" He asked. I nodded.

" Yeah, let's go."

We walked down the sidewalk to his car in silence. It's almost as if he was nervous or scared to make a move as he had his hands in his pockets.

" So where you taking me?" I asked as we hopped into his car.

" You'll see." He smiled and started the car.

He pulled away from the curb and drove down the road. A light sprinkle began to fall onto the windshield.

" It's raining, it's pouring, the old man is snoring..." I began to sing quietly. Harry nodded.

" I love it when it rains." He says quietly.

" Yeah me too. It's so comforting." I agreed.

We kept driving until we pulled up to a resturant called Passion Pizzas. It was a sit in Pizzaria.

" Hove you been here before?" He asked, pulling into a parking spot. I nodded.

" Yeah, we used to come here as a family when I was young," I smiled at the fond memories when we were all a family.

" Dammit, I was hoping I'd bring you somewhere you'd never been before." He sighed. I laughed and reached over to pat his leg. I felt him slightly flinch as we made contact but it didn't phase him.

" It's alright. I love this place." I gave him a reassuring smile before we opened the door and headed inside.

" A date huh?" I smiled, looking up at him. He smirked and shrugged.

" I figured that I'd take you out to eat since we haven't really spoken at work and that we've never been on an official date before." I blushed at his kind words. There was that one time we went to McDonald's and at it on the top of Herman's hill but I guess that didn't count for him. It counted for me.

I'll treasure that night forever.

Harry opened the door for me a and I stepped inside, thanking him.

I ran into someone hard. I gasped, looking up to be met by a pair of familiar eyes.

" Marilyn."

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