Shattered

Harry pushed me up against the wall as soon as we entered his apartment. The drive here had been quick, and quiet, full of anticipation.

As I jumped and wrapped my legs around Harry's torso, kissing him, I realized how sudden this all was. How completely stupid and reckless we were being.

I realized how much this one night could ruin his or mine's life. What if Marilyn found out?

Was I rushing into this? I was just raped for God's sakes.

There. I said it. I had been raped.

It was a nasty word to say. But I had to face it.

But it the thing was, I didn't care if this was so sudden. I didn't care if Marilyn found out. Okay, maybe a little, but not right now. I cared that I got Raped, but I know that wasn't my real first time.

My real first time would be with Harry. Right here, right now.

I kissed Harry back hard. He took me off the wall and carried me down to his bedroom, gently setting me down on his bed, breaking the kiss.

I sat down on the edge and he kneeled down infront of me, his eyes finally at my height. We stared at eachother for a moment before I carressed his face.

" Harry," I whispered, taking in all of his beautiful features. His green eyes, his plum lips, sharp jaw.

" Hmm?" He hummed, looking into my blue/green eyes as I ran my hand trough his hair.

He was so perfect, as he knelt there with his hands in my lap and mine in his hair.

" You're going to be my actual first." I whispered. He looked at me with sorrow, understanding what I meant.

I wanted to forget what Chance did to me. I wanted to act like that never happened. Harry can make me forget. Harry can cloud my mind just by a casual glance.

" I wouldn't want it any other way." He whispered, standing up. I Crawled back further onto his bed towRds the headboard and he crawled to me until he was hovering over me.

He kissed me again, making my head spin and go wild.

His Hands found the hem of my shirt, running his calloused finger tips under it, giving me goosebumps.

I peeled his shirt off. His body is so beautiful. I marveled at his tattoos, running my fingers along his chest as he brought his mouth to mine, once again. I couldn't get enough of it.

His mouth left mine and trailed down my jaw, leaving kisses until he found a spot on my neck. He knew just how to make me dizzy and weak. a soft groan escaped my mouth.

He pulled off my shirt finally and I began to fiddle with his zipper and pants.

Harry kicked his jeans off once I got them down and took mine off too.

His hips grinded against mine, making me moan his name in soft breaths. I could feel his hard on.

" See what you do to me Sydney? My cock literally hurts it's so excited." His deep voice whispered into my ear.

My face began to heat up at his words. Luckily his room was dimmed and he couldn't see my face change color.

Harry unhooked my bra and began to kiss and lick my breasts.

" Oh my gosh." I whispered, arching my back. I needed him now.

I found the elastic waist band of his boxers as pulled them down before he could stop me. He was so large.

His large index finger hooked around my panties and slid them down my legs and he threw them to the floor.

" God, you're more beautiful then I imagined, Sydney." He smiled, looking at my bare body up and down. He reached for an aluminum packet off his nightstand and ripped it open.

" Do you want to put it on?" He whispered into my ear. I gulped and nodded, taking the latex.

I lightly gripped Harry's member. He took in a sharp breath as I pumped it. I guess he didn't expect me to do that. I smirked at how vulnerable he was right now to me. I slowly slid on the condom, making sure the touch of my fingers made him go crazy.

after it was on he kissed my mouth, forehead, both cheeks, then the tip of my nose before saying, " Are you positive about this?"

I immediently nod. He smiled.

I felt him begin to slowly slide into me. It felt so good. It didn't hurt like I expected it, but maybe that's because someone already did the hard part to me.

He began to thrust In and out.

" Oh God, Harry." I moaned as he did it. He whispered the syllabuls of my name between thrusts.

" Syd," he breathed. " Ney," he thrusts in again.

I wanted to stay like this forever.

But unfortunately, I felt my high coming on. I think Harry could sense it because he bent down and groaned, " Come for me, baby."

His crucifix necklace that he wore everyday banged against my chest, as he whispered the dirtiest things to me. So fucking hot.

We came at the same time, and he pulled out, throwing the condom away.

" That was the best sex I've ever had." he laid on his back. I nodded in agreement.

" Yeah me too," then I realized, " But that's really the only sex I've ever had." I turned my head to look at him. He turned his head on his side to look at me too.

" Let's go to sleep." He whispered, wrapping his arms around my tiny waist and pulling me into him.

I was trembling. That's how good the sex was.

" It's okay." He whispered, trying to calm my body.

Eventually my body relaxed, and I fell asleep to Harry's deep, steady breaths, and warm embrace.

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