Can't Take It

I can hear harry pull Into my driveway as I button my pants. I did put on one of my favorite outfits just so he can see what he is missing. Instead of knocking I hear him walk in. Uhm okay then.
" Louis!" Harry calls.
" I'm.. I'm upstairs. I'll be down in one second." I'm not ready for this. To face harry yet. He hurt me bad and im so nervous. I splash water on my face and go down the stairs slowly. I turn into the living room and there he sits on my couch. where we used to have tickle fights.
" Hey." I say sitting across from him.
" We need to talk Louis." Harry rubs his hand through his hair.
" No shit. Isn't that why you came!" I say.
" Well Louis.. This isn't exactly easy for me to do but I have to do it." Great it was going to be she thing I didn't give a shit about. " uhm the day you found out about Penelope." Oh the skank had a name." you didn't give me a chance to explain myself to you. Instead you assumed everything and left. And now I'm going to tell you what really went on-"
" no harry. You guys had dirty filthy sex while I was gone! What is there to explain harry.. Oh wait maybe you just wanted to tell me that you did use protection or that you played it safe-" harry leans over and kisses my lips. As much as I wanted to pull back I didn't. I kissed him back. But the. Remeber ing this was the guy that has broke my heart twice I jerk away.
" Harry.. No we can't! You broke my heart and now I'm miserable!" I'm crying now.
" I'm here to fix that Lou. I can't live without you. I know I'm a screw up and I fucking hate my self everyday!" He is spitting a little as his eyes water.
" Then why harry... Why did you have sex with her. When you knew I was coming home." I get serious.
" I..I. Missed you so much and.. And.. I didn't know what to do Louis! I wanted to feel something else other than sadness and pain of not being able to touch you everyday! Okay I know it was stupid but it took my mind off of things Louis.." He is beyond sobbing now. As much as I want to hold him and kiss him I ca t give in that easy.
" Harry.. You know how I feel about it. If everytime I'm gone you do that that means I could never leave."
" Exactly Louis. I don't ever want you to leave me." He looks up and moves over to me. His hand rubs on my cheek. He rubs our noses together. I missed him so much. But I can't get hurt again. His lips move over to mine and I take him in. I feel a slight smile from him through our kiss. I gently pull away.
" I do love you.. But.. But I can't get hurt again like that harry! It's too much and I need to stay sane before I do something dumb one day."
" I love you Louis. Just remeber that. And I'M not asking for you to make me your boyfriend again right now but I am asking you to remeber what we had. And I know i was the fool in the relationship... But I've changed love.. Er louis. I swear." He places a small kiss on my forehead and stands up. " listen I got to go... We can cacth up later. Just call me okay?" I am still crying but I manage a nod. He exits my house.
i can't take it I run to my room and fall on my floor. I roll I tot he tightest ball ever and just stay there thinking. I can't take him back.. It just won't work! I can't trust him and a good relationship has trust. As much as I love him I just can't risk being the fool again. I can't decide this alone. I stand up still crying and grab my phone.
" hello! Liam... I need you to come over as soon as you get this,, it's about.. It's about harry."

Notes

AWHHH luoisss! Should he take harry back or will it end badly.