Life without Niall

Harry's pov:

My eyes flutter open and I'm blinded by the a out of light in my face. I groan.

" Louis!" I hear Liam call out. I don't sit up I just close my eyes thinking about what happened.

Louis appears over my bed.

" Thank god you are okay. You had a big fall." Louis say taking a seat next to my bed.

" Am I - in my room." I say finally able to look around and sit up.

" Yeah we brought you here after you freaked out." He says.

" Freaked out?" I'm a little confused and I can't remember what happened.

" Yeah the doctor said you had an anxiety attack. Nothing big but it could be if it continues. Which we hope it doesn't." He shoots mea. Reassuring smile.

I can't really remember what happened. I know we were at the mall but that's about it. What the hell would make me freak out so much!?

" What happened.. Like what made me-"

" We arnt suppose to say.. He said it's better not to bring it up so you don't have another attack I'm sorry." He frowns slightly.

" Well okay." I scoff.

" At least get me out of my bed." I say bossily.

" Uh.. Yeah sure." He stand up and grabs onto my hand pulling me out. At least we are at our flat.

" How ya holdin up?" Liam asks patting my back. He is putting on his shoes by the front door.

" Alright I guess... Are you leaving?" I ask leaning against the door. I have a pain in my back but I ignore it.

" Yes. Sophia said she has some big news to tell me." He puts on his coat.

" Wonder what it could be..." I say truly in wonder.

" Not sure... Well hang in there." He gives me a hug before rushing out of the door.

I make my way to the living room and sit on my phone I have nothing better to do.

#HarryStayStrong

#HarryWeAreWithYou

Thos are the tags I see on twitter. They are not helping. Sure I like to know they support me and are here for me but I don't want sympathy. It's that last thing I need right now! I hear Louis walking behind me.

" I have to go out..." He says.

" Like leave me here!" I say facing him.

" Well yeah.. I have an outing with Eleanor you know that." he says.

I didn't get it. Him and Eleanor aren't even really together! They aren't dating. But she isn't covering anything up for him either. It's just PR I guess. They just go out and them he comes home. Nothing said he just comes home. He has never told me why either. Why he has had to be with her in public. But it's beginning to bother me slightly.

" Why do you still have to see her Louis! Your miserable."

" Because o-of R- reaso- look it doesn't matter I need to go. Foods in the fridge. See you later and don't wait up I'll be late." He quickly rushes out the door.

" Well love you too asshole." I say under my breath. He is so ridiculous sometimes with his secrets. But I don't care.

I turn my attention back to my phone which is now vibrating in my hand.

" Hello?" I answer.

" Hey it's Eleanor Louis wasn't answering but I won't be able to go today. I'm with max and his parents." She says.

" He already left.." I say.

" Fuck.. Okay well try to get ahold of him bye."

Okay? I text Louis. I just tell him she won't be there and she tried to get ahold of him. When he sees it he will come back hopefully.

As I lean back on the couch I see a picture frame in the corner of the room I have never noticed before. I sit up and take a closer look.

Its of Niall. He holding a basket ball and Louis is jumping on his back. Damn I miss that Louis.

*FLASHBACK*

" Get off! I'm trying to focus!" I yell throwing Louis off of me. Niall appears form behind me.

" Harry! Don't be a twat!" He helps Louis off of the ground.

I sigh and see Niall helping Louis.

" Sorry Lou I'm just nervous.." I admit.

" Why ? Your going to do fine I promise." He says.

" Yeah it'll be okay mate." Niall chips in.

" I havnt made a proper dinner in so long!" I say setting the recipe book down.

" Don't stress. Your mom will love you even if you made the worst meal ever!" Niall laughs out.

I was just nervous because my mom is coming over tomorrow and I have no idea what to make! I want it to be enjoyable because it's her first time at our house and ugh.

" Can we just okay ball or something?" Niall whines.

I think for a moment and look at the pleading eyes. I give in.

" Yeah come on." I say. I rush outside to where our court is at. Niall wastes no time in dribbling. He scores each time.

Its been over flirt five minutes and we are sweaty and having a bloody good time. It was moments like these I never wanted to lose. So why not make that happen. I pull out my phone and go to the camera.

" You two get together!" I say laughing as the do the first thing that comes to mine. Louis of course jumping onto Niall. I hold the phone while laughing and Snap a picture. It actually turned out pretty good.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

I sigh remembering those moments and wishing I could have them back. Hell i would do anything for them back.

I shift my attention to the door as I hear someone walk in.

" Harry I-it's Louis we need to go... now." Liam says tears stained his face.

What the hell is going on!

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