Forever and Always

Harry is coming over today. It's been a week since I've seen him. And after what I heard and seen I'm not surprised I havnt seen him. I don't even think he knows what I know. He doesn't even care how I feel probably.
Finally I hear his car pull up. He knocks and I yell for him to come inside. " hey Louis!" He walks in like nothing's wrong. He goes for a kiss and a give him just a little peck knowing he expected more... He's lucky I gave him a peck. He gives me a weird look and goes to sit on the couch next to me. " no harry go in front of me." I say still looking at the ground trying to keep my eyes from flooding. " Louis what's going on?" Wow does he really not know or is he playing dumb with me. " oh harry hmm... What the fucks going on with me? Huh what the fucks going on with you!" I'm yelling in the loudest whisper yell I can manage.
" What are you-" he stops and thinks for a minute. " oh Louis I'm sorry.... I was really really." I finish his sentence. " drunk? Yea I don't think so. Liam told me everything and.. And I can't handle that harry." My eyes fill a little with water but I hide it from harry I needed to be tough for this. " Louis it was one fucking time and it was a mistake! All I can say is sorry.. Okay? SOR...SORRR.SOOORRRRY." He sounded it out. Okay no he didn't. " I'm not fucking stupid! You don't have to sound out words for me to understand you. I just don't understand why you would do that." I look him dead in the eyes. " you hurt me harry! You didn't have do that shit. And I've seen it happening all damn week. That's why I've been avoiding you! I needed to think if what I was hearing was real but then to see it with my own goddamn eyes hurt! You don't hurt people you love harry! " I'm getting twitchy and harry starts to cry. " Louis I don't know what I was thinking. You know how I am I get caught up in things. I would never mean to hurt you on purpose. I.., I really do love you and only you. I only did it for pleasure." He stops when he relize she just said pleasure. What a bloody idiot. " yea.. Well I didn't mean to fall in love with you harry either." My words break him he tries to touch me and hold me but I push him away. His face is beet red and he is crying really hard. Good he deserves this. I am truly hurt and all the I love yous he told me met nothing. Nothing at all. No meaning... No hope... No lust, just fucking nothing! I was beginning to feel sad to angry. " harry I think you should just go.... I'm sure that hoe will be wanting you anyway. Go on do it for your personal pleasure I don't give a fuck!" He stops and looks at me. " no I want to be wi-" "NO HARRY GOOOOOO! I don't need you okay! You already broke me and it's going to take a whole lot more to fucking fix me. I don't need your duct tape of a sorry. That shit doesn't last!" I stand up furious and hold the door open indicating he needed to go. He stands up slowly and walks out the door. I close it and look at him leave. I relize what I've done to add kindle to the fire in this situation. But what he did was just... Vulgar and cruel. I can't just let him get away with it. You can't sleep with another girl all week... And not to mention video recording of there so called " pleasure " from Inside the girls bathroom hit me. Made me believe. Ugh disgusting. He didn't love me.. He wouldn't have done that if he loved me.. But I know one thing.. I sure in the hell didn't know if I even love him.

Notes

Omg larry! What's going on! Will they get back together...:/