A/N: Hey guys. So, from now onwards I have planned on how often I will update this story. I will be uploding AT LEAST 2 times a week, but there may be some additional chapters if I have time. Hope you guys like this.

Chapter 6: Being discreet

Louis´ point of view:
That kiss was by far different than the one before. He had been the one who kissed me and it was my turn to kiss him back. I could feel him smile through the kiss and that made my heart flutter and my stomach revolve in happiness.
I pulled apart and pecked his lips, teasing him for more. He responded to that grabbing me and kissing me forcefully once again. Oh, how had I waited for this moment to finally arrive! I giggled as I pulled apart and spoke to him frankly.
“Harry, sorry if I ask but, what is all this about?”.
“I really do not know Lou, I haven´t had time to go through all that has been happening and all the thoughts that have been running through my mind. I hope I can use my time in Melbourne to do so though. But be conscious about me having actual feelings for you, something I haven´t experienced before. But this whole situation is brand new and I need time and space to process it in my mind, you know? The only think Im actually sure about is the fact that Diana is not meant for me and that I wanna break up with her as soon as possible before I hurt her more. I know she is quite into me and knowing Im not that into her would devastate her. But eventually Ill have to talk to her before it becomes worse.”
“Harry, be 100% sure Ill give you that time and space you are needing at this moment. I´ve gone through that too a few years ago and can totally understand what you are feeling” And I felt a sudden need to trust him and tell him all I had never told anyone, my first boycrush. Harry gave me that sensation, that I could rely on him and tell him all I wanted to without fearing him from judging me or criticizing me. “You know, I was fifteen when I realized I was having feelings for a guy. And it hit me really hard, I didn´t want to accept it, I feared what others would say, I was worried about my family´s reactions… But then I made up my mind after some weeks, it was my choice and I had promised myself I would never let anything/anyone stop me from achieving happiness. And this case would not be the exception. If my family didn´t accept me, fuck them, if my friends didn´t accept me, fuck them too. But believe me, those who truly love you will accept you and stand by you whenever you feel down or bullied. You know, standing out the other day in the assembly was hard for me, especially for the reactions I received. But I inmediatly got help from the amazing people we have met during our stay. Trust me, it does get better and you will be happier than ever as you rediscover yourself”.
Harry showed no kind of reaction in his eyes and that scared me. Was he pissed? Was I hurrying things too much? Absorted in my thoughts I didn´t realize Harry was getting closer to me until I finally felt his arms embracing me, as well as his scent. He had found my little chat useful and that made me feel great.
He just whispered “thank you”. And we both smiled to each other. Nothing else seemed to matter, we were delighted with each other company and it seemed as if we both wanted everything to stay that way, inmaculate.
But we knew that wouldn´t be that easy. As we heard some footsteps in the aisle I left the cabin in which we were and proceeded to leave, followed by Harry a few steps behind. I didn´t know what Harry would want to do about Diana but didn´t want to ask either, afraid of bothering and annoying him. Especially after all that “I need time” thing he had said. Maybe he was just trying to avoid me? Or maybe I was just overoveroverthinking everything.
It was time to go home as the bell rang for the last time in that sunny day in the city of Sydney. I was expecting this. Time alone with Harry. To talk about everything and nothing at the same time. To peck his lips and tease him. To curl his hair around my fingers. To rest my face in his chest and bury in his armswhile hugging.
“Hey Harry! Are you ok?” that was the annoying bitch. I didn´t like her from the beginning but now he was actually pissing me off as she was an impediment for Harry and I going public.
“Oh hey Diana, Im fine thank you” I said sarcastically.
Harry´s eyes flashed me with anger and I feared. Did he still love her? FUCK. There were SO many doubts and insecurities in my head.
They kept on talking as if I wasn´t even present until I decided to leave them alone and headed towards the flat, my heart breaking in pieces as I heard him saying cheesy things to her, some of which he had said to me a few minutes before.
Once I got to our place I just threw my stuff into a corner of my rood. All I could think about was Harry and that hurt really bad. How come he was being so chessy, corny and lovedovey with Diana when he had told me he didn´t want to continue having “that kind of relationship” with her?
I felt fast asleep and didn´t even hear Harry entering the flat. But did realize he was there when he calmly and sweetly woke me up since dinner was ready. The first 10 minutes of our meal were really long for me and I was too perturbated to speak. Luckily he took the lead and decided to speak up.
“Lou, I know you are probably really confused at this moment, especially after what happened with Diana a few minutes ago. But you really have to understand something. I have had feelings for her and I really appreciate her and do not want her to be hurt. Being rude towards her wasn´t a solution, you know? It would have been as if I had thrown her a buck of iced water in her head, with no apparent reason. We cannot just go around kissing each other as if she didn´t exist, you know? “ Him saying “you know” all the time was freaking me out but I wasn´t in a mood to confront him and just kept listening. “I really wanna fight for my feelings and that is spending time with you, kissing you, laughing with you, touching your hair… and so many other things we haven´t experienced yet. But we have to be careful and make it slow. Let´s be discrete, at least for a while, you know? Until I can talk properly to Diana and she understands the situation. I personally have a huge duty here. And even if she doesn´t like you and you don´t like her either you HAVE TO respect my decision. As I was telling you, we will have time to go public later, I want our relationship to actually last and be serious and for that to happen we have to make sure every little detail is taken care of and not hurting Diana is one of those”.
Was he being serious? I couldn´t help myself and smile. I actually had quite stopped listening after he said ““I really wanna fight for my feelings and that is spending time with you, kissing you, laughing with you, touching your hair… and so many other things we haven´t experienced yet”. I had actually never expected to get this far with Harry and especially hadn´t predicted going any further, I thought we could eventually have a really short relationship, a touch and go.
But Harry was proving me wrong. I talked to him about my thoughts and we both agreed on being discrete and keeping it for us.
I then helped Harry pack for his Melbourne trip, for which he was leaving soon. That week without him would be tough, especially when he had asked for it to think about his feelings, which included me. I was terrified about him changing his mind. But at the same time I was extremely excited at what the future seemed to hold for both of us

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