Next to me {on hold}
Tearing apart
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Chapter 5: tearing apart.
Harry´s point of view:
I really don´t know whether I regret more the kiss itself or my reaction. I mean, whoever would have asked me if I would kiss back any guy I would always answer no. But this time it was totally different, and it hurt. Louis and I had basically been avoiding each other during the whole day, we sat at opposite ends at lunch and even asked not to be put in the same classes during that day. The whole school was surprised as nobody knew what had happened and it was weird to find two guys who had been so close now not even wanting to see each other.
I really did want to talk to him, to tell him how sorry I was for ignoring him, even if only one day had gone by, express how much I had liked that kiss, even if I wasn´t able to explain why. But he seemed so reluctant to speak to me, to look at me. It had been a whole day without seeing him smile towards me, or hearing him laugh at my silly jokes.
I was extremely happy to have been offered a trip around Melbourne for the following week, which Louis had decided not to attend. I know it may sound contradictory but I really needed time for myself, to clear up my mind. Was I actually having feelings for somebody of my same sex?
Before that, I had to talk to Diana about what was going through my head, or at least try to do so. I went into her class were she was talking to Ailu and Anto and gently asked her to go out and into my “office”. She seemed so happy and delighted that I had gone out to reach for her. Telling her what was going through my head was no easy task.
“So… Harry, what is it?”
“Mmm… I wanna talk to you about something, if you don´t mind”.
“Why would I mind?” Right after that phrase she kissed me, passionately. I was forced to kiss her back, I couldn´t just not kiss her. And I could sense her smiling through the kiss. It was definitely killing me.
“Just wanted to make sure you didn´t mind me going to melb next week?” Man, what a skittish guy I was.
“No way im not letting you get to know the best city in the world babe!!”
Diana´s point of view:
I was having this weird chat with Harry when I saw his gaze move from my face towards the window in the room. I kept talking, wondering what had distracted him. But he wasn´t listening. He was oblivious to my presence and my voice and I was forced to turn around. There was Louis Tomlinson, sneaking his nose where he shouldn´t. What the hell was he doing here, interrupting our moment? And why had they been staring at each other for like 3 minutes nonstop? Fuck. It would be hard to ask harry about what was actually going on but I had to.
“I´m still here Harry…” My voice sounded more annoyed than I expected and Harry and I looked at each other, surprised. Was I really angry at him? I think it was far more than that, this weirdo stares with Louis were common in our young life as a couple. I was pissed. This time it was different, the desire I saw in Harry´s eyes made my heart beat increase rapidly and shivers go down my spine. And as soon as I turned around to face Louis again I saw something that made my worries increase even more, I could see he not only wanted Harry but that he wanted to be in my position, being able to talk to him, hug him, kiss him, daily. He wanted a relationship as ours… and with Harry. THE Harry I loved with all my heart.
“Sorry Di, I got to go”. And with that he left the little room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Maybe I should just start accepting nobody is into me…
Louis´ point of view:
Seeing him with her really hurt and this wasn´t new for me. But what was actually new was a feeling I was experiencing the moment I walked down the aisle and saw them kissing in the office. I started to question myself and wonder whether that kiss felt better for him than ours. I needed to know how different our kisses were. And even if he had not liked me kissing him and hated me for that (which apparently he did), knowing would be better than going through all this pain of not knowing.
And then he noticed me staring and, even if I tried, I couldn´t stop myself from doing the same. For the first time since we two had met, I found something new in his gaze; desire. And that made my body shake, my hands tremble and my whole body burn.
I heard Diana saying something which made Harry look towards her and that was the point in which I started to feel pain again. Even if he desired me as much as his eyes seemed to show, he was going out with a gorgeous blonde who he seemed to love and was definitely straight.
I continued to walk down the aisle, thoughts storming me until I felt somebody pushing me into the men´s bathrooms. Once inside, I was finally able to turn around and find Harry staring at me, that same desire present in his eyes. He quickly checked there was nobody in the place and took me into one of the cubicules, where he placed both his hands in my face and pressed his lips against mines.
THank you sosososo much.
I love you all. Please comment thoughts.
Chapter 5: tearing apart.
Harry´s point of view:
I really don´t know whether I regret more the kiss itself or my reaction. I mean, whoever would have asked me if I would kiss back any guy I would always answer no. But this time it was totally different, and it hurt. Louis and I had basically been avoiding each other during the whole day, we sat at opposite ends at lunch and even asked not to be put in the same classes during that day. The whole school was surprised as nobody knew what had happened and it was weird to find two guys who had been so close now not even wanting to see each other.
I really did want to talk to him, to tell him how sorry I was for ignoring him, even if only one day had gone by, express how much I had liked that kiss, even if I wasn´t able to explain why. But he seemed so reluctant to speak to me, to look at me. It had been a whole day without seeing him smile towards me, or hearing him laugh at my silly jokes.
I was extremely happy to have been offered a trip around Melbourne for the following week, which Louis had decided not to attend. I know it may sound contradictory but I really needed time for myself, to clear up my mind. Was I actually having feelings for somebody of my same sex?
Before that, I had to talk to Diana about what was going through my head, or at least try to do so. I went into her class were she was talking to Ailu and Anto and gently asked her to go out and into my “office”. She seemed so happy and delighted that I had gone out to reach for her. Telling her what was going through my head was no easy task.
“So… Harry, what is it?”
“Mmm… I wanna talk to you about something, if you don´t mind”.
“Why would I mind?” Right after that phrase she kissed me, passionately. I was forced to kiss her back, I couldn´t just not kiss her. And I could sense her smiling through the kiss. It was definitely killing me.
“Just wanted to make sure you didn´t mind me going to melb next week?” Man, what a skittish guy I was.
“No way im not letting you get to know the best city in the world babe!!”
Diana´s point of view:
I was having this weird chat with Harry when I saw his gaze move from my face towards the window in the room. I kept talking, wondering what had distracted him. But he wasn´t listening. He was oblivious to my presence and my voice and I was forced to turn around. There was Louis Tomlinson, sneaking his nose where he shouldn´t. What the hell was he doing here, interrupting our moment? And why had they been staring at each other for like 3 minutes nonstop? Fuck. It would be hard to ask harry about what was actually going on but I had to.
“I´m still here Harry…” My voice sounded more annoyed than I expected and Harry and I looked at each other, surprised. Was I really angry at him? I think it was far more than that, this weirdo stares with Louis were common in our young life as a couple. I was pissed. This time it was different, the desire I saw in Harry´s eyes made my heart beat increase rapidly and shivers go down my spine. And as soon as I turned around to face Louis again I saw something that made my worries increase even more, I could see he not only wanted Harry but that he wanted to be in my position, being able to talk to him, hug him, kiss him, daily. He wanted a relationship as ours… and with Harry. THE Harry I loved with all my heart.
“Sorry Di, I got to go”. And with that he left the little room, leaving me alone with my thoughts.
Maybe I should just start accepting nobody is into me…
Louis´ point of view:
Seeing him with her really hurt and this wasn´t new for me. But what was actually new was a feeling I was experiencing the moment I walked down the aisle and saw them kissing in the office. I started to question myself and wonder whether that kiss felt better for him than ours. I needed to know how different our kisses were. And even if he had not liked me kissing him and hated me for that (which apparently he did), knowing would be better than going through all this pain of not knowing.
And then he noticed me staring and, even if I tried, I couldn´t stop myself from doing the same. For the first time since we two had met, I found something new in his gaze; desire. And that made my body shake, my hands tremble and my whole body burn.
I heard Diana saying something which made Harry look towards her and that was the point in which I started to feel pain again. Even if he desired me as much as his eyes seemed to show, he was going out with a gorgeous blonde who he seemed to love and was definitely straight.
I continued to walk down the aisle, thoughts storming me until I felt somebody pushing me into the men´s bathrooms. Once inside, I was finally able to turn around and find Harry staring at me, that same desire present in his eyes. He quickly checked there was nobody in the place and took me into one of the cubicules, where he placed both his hands in my face and pressed his lips against mines.
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