The mentally brave ( Editing)

"I can't have her get into a state like this again" Harry said. I finally calmed down, sitting in the kitchen with a cup of tea in my hand.
Eleanor was sitting by my side, arm around my shoulder.
Niall was doing his thing to keep my emotions at bay.
"It won't happen again" I said
"You can't guarantee that" Harry turned to me
"I just- It was a shock for me that's all, I'm fine" I promised
"Give her chance" Niall said
"No, not with lives on the line"
"Maybe I can help?" Ed walked in
"I'm not letting you take her memory's away Ed" Harry told him
"Not take them away, but adding one"
"And how will that help?" Harry leaned on the table head down, curls falling over his face.
"A memory that will remind her to keep emotions at check"
"Can you do that?" I look up at him
"I can try" He smiled
"Harry?" I say. Harry picks up his head to glance at me.
"Fine" He said after searching my face "But if it doesn't work Eleanor is going instead"
Ed walked around the table and leaned on the spot next to me.
"Will it hurt?" I ask him
"No" He reached to touch my forehead with his fingers "Close your eyes"
I do as I'm told.
Ed doesn't speak out loud but I read his thought, reading the memory he gave me.
'You can do this, you are strong enough, looking in the mirror and seeing Natalie gives you strength. You control your emotions'
He lets go of me, and I open my eyes "Did it work?"
"We'll need to wait and see"
Harry gets up and strides out without another word.
After a while I go looking for Zayn. I felt bad for him. He was new, and wasn't given such a warm welcome. I fetched the sketch book and pencils I asked Eleanor to buy earlier today and started searching.
I found him sitting outside.
"Hey" I say sitting next to him.
"Hi" He gave me a quick glance.
"This is for you, since you left yours behind, Eleanor got you a new one" I handed over the book and pencils.
"Thanks that was very thoughtful"
"How are you holding up?" I asked
"I'm alright" he said 'I miss home' He thought
"I miss my home too, but we can't go back it's not safe"
"Do you always read people's thoughts?" He smiled at me
"I try not to, but sometimes I just can't help it" I shrug "How did you sleep?"
He kept quiet. Then it hit me, I can't remember where he was put last night.
"Zayn?" I look at him.
"I slept in the kitchen" He mumbled quietly
"Gosh.. I can't believe that happen to you!" I held his hand "You must have been so uncomfortable, and clod" I felt terrible finding this out. I should have looked out for him.
"It's fine, really, you lot were under a lot of stress last night"
"It's not alright. You sleep on the couch today" I tell him
"No, no.. Where will you be?"
"I'll sleep on the carpet. It will be fine, and soon a bunch of us are leaving for London, so there will be room upstairs"
"Can you show me Perrie?" He asked after a short silence
"What do you mean?" I look at him
"Well you know how I drew your sister? You thought of her and I could see and draw? Then the same with Perrie"
I closed my eyes, thinking of Perrie. Of her blond hair and blue eyes. Her sweet smile. When I opened them, there was already an accurate sketch of her.
"She is beautiful" Zayn said looking at his drawing.
"She is, and she has a kind heart" I give a little smile.
"You must get her back"
"I will" I promised him.
Just then Louis and Luke got back with dinner.
"Come and help" Louis called out to us.
Zayn and I walked over to the car, helping the boys with the shopping bags.
"Why do we always get take out? Why don't we just get stuff for the fridge and make our own food?" I ask, eyeing the MacDonald bags.
"Can you cook?" Luke asked me
"I can learn" I say
"Then we'll stick with take outs love" Louis smiled, locking the car.
We go back into the house, letting everyone know the food is here.
"Come guys into the kitchen" Louis shouts out.
Liam and Eleanor are already there setting the table, Eleanor sensing they got here as they parked outside.
"Where is Harry?" Ed asked as everyone took a seat.
"I'll go look for him" I push up from my seat, and walk straight to the makeshift gym.
I already learned his patterns. If Harry was unhappy, upset or just needed time to clear his head you could find him out running or picking weights.
"Harry" I called him.
He was running on the treadmill shirtless. I stood watching him as he ran. He had headphones on. I could hear the loud music playing from where I was.
I walk up to him and touch his shoulder. Harry jumped of the machine his fists clenched.
"Wow boy it's only us here" I hold up my hands.
"Sorry" I pulled out the ear buds.
"The food is here, come eat"
"I'm not hungry" He turned to get back on the machine.
"Come on Harry, don't be like that" I say
He glanced back and put the machine on
"Everyone is sitting together, we haven't done that in a while, join us" I try again
He started running.
"Fine. Be a dick then" I turn and walk away, annoyed at myself for even trying, annoyed at myself for getting annoyed with him.
I take my seat at the table and pick up my burger. Niall and Louis were rapping a song in between bits.
A few minutes later, Harry came in, a shirt pulled on and his hair pulled back. Ed shift to the side making him room right in front of me.
As Harry picked up his food he watched me, then right before taking a bit he smiled and winked, making his dimples pop. I picked up a chip and throw it at him.
"So Harry when are we leaving for London?" Liam asked
"Day after tomorrow" Harry ate the chip I threw at him.
"What about the rest of us?" Louis asked
"You, Zayn, Luke and Eleanor stay here, we'll be in touch" Harry said
"Is Ed coming with you then?" Eleanor asked
"Yes" Harry took another bit out of his burger.
Louis and Niall went back to rapping, and Eleanor and Luke were banging on the table for a beat.
I was looking around at them, all sitting and laughing, even Harry and Zayn joined in.
This must be how having friends feels like. Never having any besides Natalie, this feeling was new to me. I got a pickle thrown at me by Luke and a semi food fight starts.
I join in the fun getting ketchup on Harry's nose, and some lettuce in Eleanor's hair.

After helping cleaning up, I sat myself outside on the steps with the guitar. I was confused by Harry. He was sweet and kind to me, making sure I have all I need and I'm happy, and then he turns, and has this hard look to his face, eyes turning black and I just want to get away from him. I never had a relationship before, and I wasn't sure if I wanted one with Harry- if that is what this is.
"Is your neck bothering you?" Harry walked out and stood behind me.
"It's fine, it will go away" I say plucking the strings.
"From punching or the food fight?"
"Probably both" I stopped playing and rubbed the back of my neck turning my upper body so I can look at him.
He shrugged and walked back into the house. A moment later he came back holding something warm to my neck.
"The heat should help soothe the pain" He said sitting down next to me.
"Thank"
Harry was still holding the hot water bottle up for me.
"You don't need to do that" I say trying to take it away from him
"But I want to"
"I can take care of myself"
"I'm sure you can" He smiled at me, again those dimples of his made my heart pump a little faster. He put the pack down rubbing my neck. It felt amazing, and that scared me.
"Harry" I pull away from him.
"Lizzie" He said looking at me, hands in his lap. There was a world of patience in that word, and it lit a fire under me.
"Why doesn't anything go the way it's supposed to with you? It's like you refuse to be rational" I tell him
"At the risk of setting you off, from where I'm sitting I'm being about as rational as anyone could. I brought something for your neck and rubbed it to make you feel better, I'm trying"
"Then stop"
"Stop being rational? Or stop trying?"
I threw out my hands "I can't think"
"Ok, answer this. Do you have feelings for me?"
"I don't want to"
"I take that as a yes. Why don't you want to?"
"I don't know what to do with them. What to do with you. With this. I don't do relationships, I don't know how they work, and your mood swings don't make it any easier, once you're sweet and caring, and then you turn cold" My voice pitched up toward panic "I don't do relationships, I only know how to be alone"
"Take a breath love" Harry said, no smile on his face now.
"Don't take care of me, I've been taking care of myself since I was sixteen. I don't need anyone" I get up and lean against the porch post. Tears came along with the breath, so I press my face to the wood.
Harry rubbed his hands over his face and then ran his fingers through his hair. "Do I make you this unhappy?"
"You make me Happy. I'm happy when I see you, when you're in a good mood of course. I don't want to be happy because of you"
"So being happy makes you unhappy"
"No. I'm all confused now. Gosh! I'm not making any sense am I, I'm sorry"
"Don't apologize" Again those dimples of his..
"I just, It's overwhelming enough to suddenly have friends, people who seem to care about me other then my mum and sister, and then to top all that there is you"
"You know.. This" He pointed from him to me "This is it, you've got one now- the relationship" Stepping over to me, he took my chin in one hand, brushing at the drying tears on my cheeks with the other. "You're going to have to put that big brain of yours to work on how to deal with it"
"I'm capable of most things, but I don't believe I'm capable of maintaining a relationship especially with you turning on me every other minute like you just did when I called you for supper"
"We can figure it out together then, and I am trying with my mood swings" He smiled at me.
"How much of your interest in me was for wondering about my abilities?" I knew he could see in my face I needed to hear honesty, maybe more than ever.
"It started out that way. I still wonder about them, partly because they seem to keep growing, but mostly now? You just got me, I can't imagine myself without you, you turned me into a better person, you hold my heart" He took my hand, pressing it to his heart. I looked at my hand pressed to his chest, feeling the strong, steady beat. I let myself go then, laying my cheek there. When his arms came around me, I squeezed my eyes shut, and the emotion rose so fast. To be held like this by someone who truly cared for me.
"Promise me then one thing" I pull away to look up at his green eyes.
"Anything"
"No more lies"
"No more lies" He said bending down to kiss my lips.
I missed them. His lips it is.. soft but hard if it makes any sense..
He pulled back and linked our fingers together, picking the guitar up in his other hand, pulling us both back into the house.
Everyone was trying to go on with what they were doing, but I could see they all knew. I don't know if they saw, or If it was Eleanor who sensed it and told them. I know it wasn't Louis since anything with Harry in it is blocked.
Liam was testing Niall on the cards he made us for our week with Company X.
"No.. Wrong" He gave the card back to Niall.
"I can't! It's too hard" Niall slammed his hands down on the table.
"Let me try" I say standing in front of them
"NO, you will read the answer straight from my mind" Liam shook his head
"Let me ask her the question then" Harry smiled and took the cards
"No, don't bother.. I won't be able to answer" I say, taking a seat between Niall and Ed.
"You have to learn this, you can't go in there knowing nothing" Harry put hands on hips.
"I'll read them" I shrug
"What if they're like me? what if they have a system that blocks out abilities?"
"Didn't think of that" Niall said
"Neither did I" I glanced at them
"Ok, plan B then" Ed said "Come closer to me" He signed us with his finger
"New memory time" Niall clapped his hands
"We can't always take the easy way out" Harry shook his head.
"But we have no time left, so Ed will just hand over the knowledge".

We were all getting ready for bed, after testing the new memory Ed put in our heads. Harry was not happy but he was really trying hard not to show it.
"Zayn" I called out to him. He walked into the living room scratching his head.
"Take the couch" I point at the makeshift bed I made for him.
"Liz, I can't sleep there knowing you're on the floor"
"I am going to sleep on the floor either way, so please"
He gave in thanking me. He got under the covers. I got under the duvet on the floor facing him.
"You know you're part of us right?" I asked him
"yeah" He smiled "Thank you, for looking out for me"
"It's what we do here" I smiled
"Are you scared? Of going into Company X's compound"
"I'll have Niall with me, and the other boy's watching out from not far"
"You decided to join me" Harry walked in to find me in his place
"I did" I held up the duvet for him to get in under.
"How was your day Zayn?" He asked him getting in.
"It was good, thanks.. and yours?"
"Just got a whole lot better" He winked. I gave him a friendly shove.
Harry took my hand in his. I closed my fingers around his thumb, smiling up into his face.
"Hi" He smiled
"Hi" I answered him quietly.
"So how is this relationship going so far?"
"Hush, I'm only here since Zayn slept in the kitchen last night so I made him take the couch"
"Now you hurt my feelings" Harry made a sad face
"What happen to let's take this slow?"
"We never said that"
"Well I'm saying it now" I smiled. Couldn't help but feel warm and happy by Harry's side. Smelling his boyish scent, I couldn't get enough of.
"Come here" He pulled me closer. I lay my head on his shoulder still holding on to his thumb.
If this is how a relationships feel like then I think I can get used to it.

Notes

Hello..
So little spoiler.. next chapter Lizzie and Niall go to Company X.. sooooo keep posted...
Let me know what you think...
anddd don't forget to rate and subscribe
xxx