The mentally brave ( Editing)

"NO! Not happening" Harry shook his head in complete resistance.
"But why- I've seen it can work" Louis tapped his hands on his thighs in annoyance
"They're already keeping hold of one of us, I'm not sending in one more voluntarily" Harry exclaimed.
"Fine so let's leave Perrie there" I say.
"I didn't say that! I'm just not willing- Did you even listen to yourself?!" Harry was turning in circles glowering.
Everyone else was watching silently as Louis and I took on convincing Harry that my idea can work.
"You want to go into Company X's compound, with all of their against roaming the place, to look for Perrie, and you" He pointed at Louis "Are sitting there telling her it can work"
"But it can I had a vision- she came out with her"
"Harry then we must try" Eleanor said from her seat in between Niall and Ed. Next to Ed Liam was typing away on his laptop, as if not listening to what was going on around him.
"What makes you think you can even get in? And let's say you do, what are you doing there? Where will you go? Where will you look? What if you get caught? This plan has too many holes in it, I won't have it" He was final, but I am stubborn and not willing to let this plan go.
"I can go as part of the cleaning company, or something- I didn't say the plan was solid, and ready to happen, I just said I have an Idea"
"Liz you already had an encounter with Company X, did you forget? They know who you are, they've seen you- you won't be going" Harry was staring down at me, his eyes dark, angry that I'm defying his words.
"Louis said he saw me! and they think I'm dead" I said crossing my hands across my chest refusing to be intimidated by his anger.
"Louis's visions aren’t all accurate" Harry turned from me again "Going in as part of the cleaning crew.. you're mad" He shook his head again.
"What if they go in as something else" Liam spoke up. We all turned to look at him. A smile appearing on my face, as Liam took our side in this argument.
"Seriously? You from all people should have enough brains to know this plan will fail" Harry threw his hands up in frustration.
"Harry listen to me. The company has an open week, kind of workshop study thing with medical students in two weeks" Liam showed Harry the screen of his laptop.
"Two weeks is too long" I say, but Liam ignores me.
"If we can send someone as a student that can work. That person will be free to go in and out as he or she pleases" Liam smiled
"None of us are medical students" Harry reminded him
"I can be" I say. This time Liam smiled up at me.
"How exactly?" Harry asked
"Well how good is your American imitation?" Liam turned to me
"Eleanor has a good American accent, and so does Niall" Ed spoke up.
"I’m like, super awesome imitating Americans" I say flipping my hear acting like a stack up school girl.
"Great, we can send in a few, they can be three friends from an American college" Liam shrugged.
"I'm not sending in three people" Harry said
"Fine then only Eleanor and me" I compromised
"No, Eleanor and Niall can go" Harry decided.
"How will you be able to pull this whole thing?" Luke asked Liam.
"Luke.. you're insulting my intelligence" Liam looked at him.
"No I'm going" I say to Harry "I can read their minds, I can find Perrie that way"
"She does have a point" Ed told him.
"I need to think about this" Harry walked out the room, leaving us all sitting, looking at each other"
"Liam you can hack into the company's cameras and have a visual on us the whole time" Niall asked breaking the silence.
"Yes, and I will give you fake I.D's and fake backgrounds, put you in their systems and everything"
"Then this can work" Zayn said. I forgot about him, since he was sitting on the side keeping quiet the whole time.
"Only if we can get Harry on board" Eleanor answered him.
"I'll deal with it" I walk out of the living room looking for him. I climb up the stairs to look in the rooms. I found him sitting on the bed looking out of the window.
"You know this can work right?" I say leaning myself on the frame.
"Yes" He mumbled
"So why are you so unwilling? Tell me" I come closer to him.
"I’m not ready to let you go, I just got you back" He turned to me.
"Harry, I never left"
"No.. that's not what I mean. You're finally talking to me again, and I almost lost you twice before, third time will not be a charm"
"I have to do this Harry, and you know I'm the best for this job, don't let your feelings get in the way of saving Perrie" I didn't touch him. I stayed away knowing if I did I won't be able to stop myself.
"You go with Niall then" He made up his mind.
"All right" I'm glad he finally saw sense and agreed
"But we have to get you two completely ready. I don't feel you know enough by then the plan is off"
"Deal". WE stand looking at each other for another moment, then I turn to leave, get back to the others. Harry followed after me.

"Liam you need to make sure it all goes down smoothly. I want them to be ready. Ed you and I will teach them to fight. Eleanor since Perrie isn't here you will teach them how to unlock doors and such. Niall I know you know all of this already but Lizzie is quite new, so there is a lot to learn" Harry was giving us all orders. "Louis you will keep an eye out for Company agents in your visions, you show their faces to Zayn, so he can sketch them. Then Liam can do a search for them and we can find out all we need"
"When do we start?" Niall asked
"Tomorrow.. It's late, we should all get some sleep"
"How do we fit all of us in here?" Luke thought out loud
"I"ll take the couch" I say "It's enough for me, you lot use the beds"
"Luke Niall and I will take the room on the left" Ed said. That room had a bunk bed and a single bed in it.
"Eleanor and I will take the other, I saw there is a mattress there so someone can join" Louis said.
"Liam you take it" Harry told him
"What about you?" He asked Harry.
"The carpet in here is just fine for me" Harry was looking at me.
People started getting up and moving around collecting their things and getting ready for bed.
We didn't have much with us. Only things we managed to take, leaving most behind.
"Take this" Harry handed over a jumper "You can sleep in this"
"Thank you" I said. I left to the bathroom so I could change. I didn't have a toothbrush with me, so I used some paste on my finger. I pulled on the jumper glad it was big and came down to mid thigh. I walked back to the living room to find Harry in shorts, bare chested.
I tuck a long strand of hair in the back of my ear and make way to the couch.
Harry already got some blankets for me to use, spreading on the carpet one for himself, using the other as a cover.
"Are you all right down there? We can switch" I suggested, feeling bad that after what he's been through today, he needs to spend the night on the floor.
"Well, it could be nicer if you joined me down here" He winked.
"That would be a stupid thing to do" I say quietly.
"Why is that?" He asked propping his weight on elbows to get a better look at me.
I brought my knees up to my chest hugging them.
"I don't think it will be a good idea Harry" I say
"You're still hurt by me"
"Well, I'm trying hard not to be, but every time I let you come close, I let my gourd down, I get hurt" I was looking at my toes not wanting to meet the hurt in his eyes.
I felt his fingers close on my ankles.
"I never intended for you to get hurt" He said looking at me
"I know, but.. my heart is weak, it won't survive another break" I whisper, finally admitting not only to him, but to myself that I'm not as strong as I thought I was.
He pulled at my ankles, pulling my feet down, so I won't hide my face behind my knees. He moved his fingers to my thighs and came up closer to me "It will never happen again I promise you" His eyes were bright green, my heart skipped a beat drowning in them.
"Harry I'm scared"
"So stay here"
"No not of our mission, but of us" the strand of hair I tacked back fell to my face again.
Harry leaned back a little, though his hands still on my bare thighs.
"Are you scared of me?" he asked a crease appearing in between his eyes.
"Not of you, but what you might do to me"
Harry came closer moving a hand up to my face pulling back that strand of hair, letting it slid in between his fingers. The feeling of his fingers pulling slightly on that strand caused a shiver to run down my back. I close my eyes for a minute, opening them to find Harry watching me.
"You like it when I touch you" He said
"I am broken when you don't"
"Then let me" He whispered, leaving my hair and stroking my cheek.
"I can't" I move my eyes to the side, not able to meet his
I felt Harry withdraw his touch. I look back at him, thinking he went back to his spot on the carpet but he was sitting on his knees watching me.
"I'll make it up to you" He promised. Then lay down on his makeshift bed and pulled up the covers. I watched him for a few moments then lay down myself turning, waiting for sleep to come.

"So Lizzie, you will be Amanda Walts, and Niall will be Nick Shore. I'll have your passports ready by tomorrow, with stamps and everything. But first we need new photos of you" Liam was typing away once again while Niall Zayn, Harry Ed and I sat round him listening. Eleanor Luke and Louis went out to get things we might need.
"I think you should be blond with glasses, we should get you a wig" Ed said
"NO wig, it needs to be real as possible." Harry cut in.
"Go blond?" I looked from one to other.
"Yes, I'll take you later to someone who will make it look natural." Harry nodded.
"Niall you will go dark brown, maybe some glasses too" After a moment Liam showed us his work on the laptop. There were two photos, one of Niall with dark hair and glasses and one of me with blond hair. We looked nothing like we do now. Who would think such small changes will work so well.
"I will print some work for you to go over, so you'll have a clue of what will be going on. I found out where the students will be staying. They won't be sleeping at the compound, but at a hotel not far." Liam went on
"How does that help?" Niall asked
"We'll be getting a room there too" Harry said getting up from his seat
"Who is we?" I turned to look at him .Harry was keeping a slight distance from me today.
"Liam and I. You will not be going alone"
"What about the others?"
"They will stay here" Harry got the car keys in his hand and walked to the door "Come on you two, we need to get you ready".
Niall and I shrugged at each other and followed him out.
We got into the car, me in back letting Niall take the front seat next to Harry. Harry's eyes connected with mine for a moment through the mirror, than he started up the car.
We drove into the next town. I didn't really know where we were, but I didn't really care either.
Harry parked at a side street looking it up and down before getting out.
He walked us to the back of a building and let us in. we stopped in front of a door, after two knocks it opened and we were let in.
We were stood in a small flat, with bright colours.
"Hello Haz" Harry turned and then hugged the person the voice belonged to.
"Hi Lou" He let her go. In front of me stood a petite woman with white blond hair and a pretty smile.
"Hi Niall long time" She moved on to hug Niall.
"This is Lizzie" Harry introduced us.
"Hi" She smiled at me. I gave her a little smile, not sure what we are doing here.
"I need you to take care of these two hairs" Harry said.
"What shell it be?"
"She needs to go blond, it should look natural, real. Niall needs to go dark." Harry said
"Also natural" Lou nodded.
"Yes. I'm counting on you" He gave her a smile, full of his dimples.
"Let's start then" She said signing us to come after her. We walked pass a room, with reddish walls and stuffed animals, walking into a room with a big mirror. The room looked like a makeup studio.
"Who's first?" She asked
"The lady" Niall smiled at me. Lou pulled out the chair so I could sit.
I was squeezing my fists close, always nervous at the hair dresser.
"Give her hair a stylish cut as well" Harry ordered.
My eyes jumped by that, meeting Lou's in the mirror.
"Don't worry, I won't cut a lot off" She winked.
I kept my eyes shut the whole time not wanting to watch. Niall and Harry were laughing with Lou remembering old times together. I wasn't even sure how they know each other, but understanding they're close.
"There, love. You can open your eyes" Lou said to me. After over an hour of keeping them shut I squinted them open, the day light taking time to get used to.
She was right. She didn't cut a lot off, just a little, giving it the modern look that was going now. However, the cut wasn't what caught my eyes, the colour was. I was blond. A real blond, she even dyed my eye brows a lighter shade. I looked so much like Natalie now that it hurt. I could see Niall and Harry staring at me, and knew they were thinking the same thing.
"Is it all right?" Lou asked watching my face in concern.
"Yes, Thank you" I managed a smile, my eyes though found Harry's letting him know once again the hurt his plan caused me. after all it was his idea for me to go blond.
"Come on Ni, your go" Niall took my place as I got up.
"Mama" We all turned to see a little blond girl about two, three years old walk into the room.
"Lux" Harry smiled picking her up.
"Baby, you're awake" Lou paced over to give the girl a kiss. But the baby was too busy smiling at Harry, and touching his face.
"Hiya Beautiful, I've missed you" He kissed her nose.
I was amazed at the Harry standing in front of me. It was a different person. This Harry was a bright, smiling boy. He was so soft and loving towards this girl, I was standing with my mouth open.
"Come say hello to Lizzie" He turned to me, baby in hand.
Lou was smiling at us through the mirror putting dye in Niall's hair.
"Say, Hello Lizzie" Harry said in a sweet voice holding the baby's hand. She smiled up at me, her little white teeth sparkling.
"Hi gorgeous" I smiled back
"Come" she reached out for me to take her. Harry handed her over. She went straight to my charm bracelet on my right hand.
"Oh now you are her favorite, letting her play with that" Lou laughed
"She has good taste" I smiled. I sat down with baby Lux on my lap letting her play with it.
"That will need to come off" Harry said quietly. I looked up at him, saying nothing. I knew he was right but it was the only thing I had left from my family, my sister.
Once Lou was done with Niall we thanked her and headed back having a lot more to accomplish today.
"How do you know Lou?" I asked them
"It's a long story" Niall said
"Where is her father?"
"Long story" Harry repeated Niall's words
I get a glimpse into Niall's thoughts only to be able to see Harry rolling a little soft ball to Lux, then I get shut down.
Maybe I wasn't the only one getting lessons, it seems as if the others were learning to keep me out of their minds.
"So Eleanor shopped for some clothes for you both" Harry said. I just kept looking out the window, trying to block them out.
I was avoiding looking at my reflection as well, seeing Natalie looking back at me was like keeping getting blows in the gut.
We finally get back. I get out of the car, making my way to the little house behind the boys.
"Wow" Was the reaction I got when all the others saw me.
"You look amazing!" Louis smiled
"You're not happy with your new look are you?" Ed made a face. Eleanor who seemed to understand the emotions I'm dealing with pulled at my hand "Come on, let me show you what I got you".
"No, Lizzie is coming with me, she needs to train" Harry spoke up.
"So she'll need to change into different clothes for that" She said pulling me after her.
"Thanks" I mumbled to her
"You don't have to have special powers to see what you're going through" She said with a sympathetic look. "So I got you a bunch of jeans and shirts, I figured we are probably the same size" Eleanor was pulling clothes out of bags and holding them up.
"I also got you some shoes, trainers, toms, boots and sandals"
"Wow, how do you have the money to pay for all this?" I asked.
"Liam.. and don't ask questions you don't really want to know the answers to"
"You're right" I sat myself on the bed "Gosh" I lay down hands spread to the sides.
"What is it?" Eleanor sat next to me.
"Hard day" I covered my face with my hands "And I can't look in the mirror, I can't have her staring back at me every time, I can't hold back the tears"
"So a session with Harry will be good for you now" She said softly
"How's that?"
"He put up the punching bag this morning, which means you'll be blowing off some steam"


I changed into sweatpants and a tank top, pulling my new blond hair back, and put trainers to my feet.
"I'm ready" I say to Harry as I stood in the entrance of the living room. The boys stopped what they were doing and stared up at me.
"I- I umm yeah.. sure" Harry collected his jaw off the floor getting up to his feet.
I follow him into the far room. It is set as a little gym, with a punching bag hung up in the middle.
"There are several ways to throw a goodpunch, but you've got to make sure to use good technique and use your hips to generate torque" Harry started.
When he looked up at me he realized I have no idea what he's talking about.
"Ok come here" He pulls at my arm standing me in front of the bag.
"Stand with both feet planted shoulder width apart, knees bent a little less than 45 degrees" He says giving my trainers a little kick to make me widen my stand.
"Good. Now, Make a fist with both hands and bring both fists, fingers with thumb across them facing up, elbows pointing straight out behind you"
I do as I'm told, Harry still holding on to my shoulders as he stood in back of me.
"Now, punch the bag" He ordered me, taking hold of the bag as I punched. I do as I'm told again. I punch hard, feeling the pain in my knuckles, but I don't care. I do it over and over again.
"Breath" Harry tells me. I am not listening to him though, I'm in a frenzy. I am kicking the bag while punching it giving it all I had.
"Lizzie stop" Harry says but I don't, I go at it again and again.
"I said stop" Harry lets go of the bag and takes a hold of me, shaking me out of the state I got into.
"I can't! I can't do this" I look at him, the tears finally came, not being able to hold them back any longer "I want out"

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