Dancing With My Scars - On Hold
Chapter 12- Safe
Ribs - Lorde (song to listen to while reading)
Bella's Point Of View:
The boys are being nice enough to let me sleep on their couch for 'as long as I need', and Harry had already bought a small crib for Mia which is probably the sweetest thing ever. After a few hours, I finally pulled myself off of Harry and took a shower. I tried to wash all the pain and misery away, but it was still there when I got out. I dried myself off, got a pair of sweats and a sports bra on and headed out to the living room.
"I hope you don't mind... I called Perrie." Zayn said, motioning to his wife on the couch. Sometimes I think it's weird that they don't live together, but then I remember that they only tied they knot for legal reasons and they're still just dating.
"Hey Bell." She smiled extending her arms, and I quickly responded giving her a warm hug.
"Hi Perrie!" I said as enthusiastically as I could. "I guess Zayn told you everything.." I sighed and she nodded her head.
"I can't believe it." She muttered shaking her head.
"That makes two of us." I chuckled sitting next to her.
"Well there's some chinese on the counter, you should eat since we didn't have lunch and Harry says you were late this morning so you probably didn't eat breakfast either." Liam suggested pointing to their kitchen table.
"I'm not so hungry... Where's Mia?" I asked standing up and realizing none of them were holding her.
"She's in Harry's bedroom, relax twinkletoes." Zayn laughed and my feet immediately brought me down the hall to the half closed door. I peaked my head inside and saw Harry changing her into her pajamas and my heart melted.
"Hey." I whispered stepping inside. When he looked up, his eyes were glowing and I couldn't help but smile.
"I've been trying to make her walk... Let me show you!" He said excitedly pulling her up to the ground. He positioning her against the bars of the crib and put her hands out. "Come here Mia, daddy's got you!" He said in a baby voice. I couldn't stop the hot tears of joy forming in my eyes.
She looked at him and gave him a small smile before falling back down on her bottom.
"I swear she was almost doing it an hour ago... She's just tired now." He pouted picking her up and giving her kisses.
"I believe you!" I laughed, helping him tickle and kiss our daughter. We both scooped her up and gave her one last hug and kiss before settling her into her crib.
"So you're crashing on the couch?" He asked pulling out the blankets on his bed.
"Um yeah, but Perrie and Zayn are in there now so I decided I'd come in here for a little, but if you're going to sleep I'll just go find Li--"
"Stay, you can sleep in here." He suggested. My eyes bulged out of my head at this and I coughed nervously.
"Um I'm not sure that's a good idea Harry." I chuckled, now feeling a little self conscious in my sports bra.
"I still make you nervous, don't I?" He laughs pulling off his shirt. What is he doing? "If you sleep in here it's strictly sleeping... I would never take advantage of you like that." He insisted, pulling me towards the bed. My brain was telling me no, my body was screaming yes and my heart was indifferent.
"Fine, but stay on your side." I groaned slipping under the sheets. I could hear his giddy laughter from the other side of the bed and I kicked his foot when I felt it slip in my territory. "I mean it Harry." I nudged him, both of us laughing into the pillows.
"Sorry." He muttered. I know this looks wrong and seems wrong, but sometimes you just need something that makes you feel safe and warm when the rest of the world is cold and gray.
I watched his bedroom clock hit 8 o'clock and finally decided it was time to unravel myself out of his arms. Around three in the morning he made his way over to my side of the bed and wrapped himself around me, and I didn't stop it. I know the exact time everything he did last night happened because I could barely sleep a wink.
"Harry, let go... I have work in an hour." I whispered as he released his arm from my grip. Work. Niall's gonna be there. Perfect.
"You don't have to go." Harry whispered and I let out a large laugh.
"Yeah because running away from my problems always works out for the better." I smiled at him before hopping out of bed. I didn't bother showering because I would have to shower again tonight anyway after dancing all day. My outfit was simple and I put on my sunglasses from crying all night.
As I walked out of the room, I walked back in having a major realization.
"Harry, can I borrow your car for today or can you take me my apartment to get mine?" I asked and he quickly rolled out of bed.
"I'll take you to work and pick you up. We can get your car tonight." He smiled taking his keys off the dresser and we headed out.
"Perrie, will you keep an eye on Mia while we're gone?" Harry whispered to her on the couch and she nodded. At least I have one good girl friend left in my life.
"Thanks so much for driving me Harry, you're the best." I smiled stepping out of the car, and for some reason he also go out. "You don't have to walk me in too..." I said nervously, but he continued walking towards the building. "Harry, what are you doing?" I called after him, trying to catch up. As soon as we walked in, Niall and Chris were standing their talking and my heart dropped.
"Harry?" Chris said with a smile stepping towards him.
"You stayed with him?!" Niall gasped, clearly in shock. Before I could respond, Harry already had his hands wrapped around Niall's throat and was beating the hell out of him.
"Harry, stop it!" I shouted trying to peal him off of Niall, but Chris pulled me away. "He's gonna kill him! Damn it Harry, why do you always do this?! Just when I think we're getting better..." my voice trailed off when Harry gave me an innocent look and pulled away from Niall. He immediately headed out the door and Niall slowly stood up from the ground.
"I'm calling the police." Niall announced, and I leaned forward to strike him directly in the cheek.
"Don't act like you didn't have that coming, pig." I spat and walked away with tears in my eyes. Something tells me he won't be calling the police now.
"Are you alright?" Chris asked pulling me into his arms for a warm and welcoming hug. I let out a large huff and hiccup into his chest.
"No." I whispered softly as he scooped me up so that my legs were wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck.
"You know I'd never hurt you Bella." He whispered planting a sweet kiss on my forehead. I tightened up against him and cried. Never would I ever see myself sobbing over Harry and Niall in Chris Avery's arms, but for some reason this felt right....this felt safe.
Bella's Point Of View:
The boys are being nice enough to let me sleep on their couch for 'as long as I need', and Harry had already bought a small crib for Mia which is probably the sweetest thing ever. After a few hours, I finally pulled myself off of Harry and took a shower. I tried to wash all the pain and misery away, but it was still there when I got out. I dried myself off, got a pair of sweats and a sports bra on and headed out to the living room.
"I hope you don't mind... I called Perrie." Zayn said, motioning to his wife on the couch. Sometimes I think it's weird that they don't live together, but then I remember that they only tied they knot for legal reasons and they're still just dating.
"Hey Bell." She smiled extending her arms, and I quickly responded giving her a warm hug.
"Hi Perrie!" I said as enthusiastically as I could. "I guess Zayn told you everything.." I sighed and she nodded her head.
"I can't believe it." She muttered shaking her head.
"That makes two of us." I chuckled sitting next to her.
"Well there's some chinese on the counter, you should eat since we didn't have lunch and Harry says you were late this morning so you probably didn't eat breakfast either." Liam suggested pointing to their kitchen table.
"I'm not so hungry... Where's Mia?" I asked standing up and realizing none of them were holding her.
"She's in Harry's bedroom, relax twinkletoes." Zayn laughed and my feet immediately brought me down the hall to the half closed door. I peaked my head inside and saw Harry changing her into her pajamas and my heart melted.
"Hey." I whispered stepping inside. When he looked up, his eyes were glowing and I couldn't help but smile.
"I've been trying to make her walk... Let me show you!" He said excitedly pulling her up to the ground. He positioning her against the bars of the crib and put her hands out. "Come here Mia, daddy's got you!" He said in a baby voice. I couldn't stop the hot tears of joy forming in my eyes.
She looked at him and gave him a small smile before falling back down on her bottom.
"I swear she was almost doing it an hour ago... She's just tired now." He pouted picking her up and giving her kisses.
"I believe you!" I laughed, helping him tickle and kiss our daughter. We both scooped her up and gave her one last hug and kiss before settling her into her crib.
"So you're crashing on the couch?" He asked pulling out the blankets on his bed.
"Um yeah, but Perrie and Zayn are in there now so I decided I'd come in here for a little, but if you're going to sleep I'll just go find Li--"
"Stay, you can sleep in here." He suggested. My eyes bulged out of my head at this and I coughed nervously.
"Um I'm not sure that's a good idea Harry." I chuckled, now feeling a little self conscious in my sports bra.
"I still make you nervous, don't I?" He laughs pulling off his shirt. What is he doing? "If you sleep in here it's strictly sleeping... I would never take advantage of you like that." He insisted, pulling me towards the bed. My brain was telling me no, my body was screaming yes and my heart was indifferent.
"Fine, but stay on your side." I groaned slipping under the sheets. I could hear his giddy laughter from the other side of the bed and I kicked his foot when I felt it slip in my territory. "I mean it Harry." I nudged him, both of us laughing into the pillows.
"Sorry." He muttered. I know this looks wrong and seems wrong, but sometimes you just need something that makes you feel safe and warm when the rest of the world is cold and gray.
I watched his bedroom clock hit 8 o'clock and finally decided it was time to unravel myself out of his arms. Around three in the morning he made his way over to my side of the bed and wrapped himself around me, and I didn't stop it. I know the exact time everything he did last night happened because I could barely sleep a wink.
"Harry, let go... I have work in an hour." I whispered as he released his arm from my grip. Work. Niall's gonna be there. Perfect.
"You don't have to go." Harry whispered and I let out a large laugh.
"Yeah because running away from my problems always works out for the better." I smiled at him before hopping out of bed. I didn't bother showering because I would have to shower again tonight anyway after dancing all day. My outfit was simple and I put on my sunglasses from crying all night.
As I walked out of the room, I walked back in having a major realization.
"Harry, can I borrow your car for today or can you take me my apartment to get mine?" I asked and he quickly rolled out of bed.
"I'll take you to work and pick you up. We can get your car tonight." He smiled taking his keys off the dresser and we headed out.
"Perrie, will you keep an eye on Mia while we're gone?" Harry whispered to her on the couch and she nodded. At least I have one good girl friend left in my life.
"Thanks so much for driving me Harry, you're the best." I smiled stepping out of the car, and for some reason he also go out. "You don't have to walk me in too..." I said nervously, but he continued walking towards the building. "Harry, what are you doing?" I called after him, trying to catch up. As soon as we walked in, Niall and Chris were standing their talking and my heart dropped.
"Harry?" Chris said with a smile stepping towards him.
"You stayed with him?!" Niall gasped, clearly in shock. Before I could respond, Harry already had his hands wrapped around Niall's throat and was beating the hell out of him.
"Harry, stop it!" I shouted trying to peal him off of Niall, but Chris pulled me away. "He's gonna kill him! Damn it Harry, why do you always do this?! Just when I think we're getting better..." my voice trailed off when Harry gave me an innocent look and pulled away from Niall. He immediately headed out the door and Niall slowly stood up from the ground.
"I'm calling the police." Niall announced, and I leaned forward to strike him directly in the cheek.
"Don't act like you didn't have that coming, pig." I spat and walked away with tears in my eyes. Something tells me he won't be calling the police now.
"Are you alright?" Chris asked pulling me into his arms for a warm and welcoming hug. I let out a large huff and hiccup into his chest.
"No." I whispered softly as he scooped me up so that my legs were wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck.
"You know I'd never hurt you Bella." He whispered planting a sweet kiss on my forehead. I tightened up against him and cried. Never would I ever see myself sobbing over Harry and Niall in Chris Avery's arms, but for some reason this felt right....this felt safe.
Notes
hahahaha Bella feels safe in Chris's arms, she doesn't suspect a thing.yes you guys earned this update with 30 votes, so hear it is! xx
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