Dancing With My Scars - On Hold
Chapter 11- At First
Details in the Fabric - Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison (listen to while reading)
Bella's Point Of View:
I blinked back the tears in my eyes and stared as the two fuckers scrambled to get dressed. I felt Zayn's hand on my shoulder, and I quickly shrugged it off.
"Where's my daughter?" I croaked, holding myself back from sobbing.
"Bella please, let me explain. This doesn't mean anything!" Niall begged, sliding back on his boxers and jeans.
"It doesn't?" Chloe gasped. Is she for fucking real right now? I quickly brushed past the two of them and entered my bedroom to find a sleeping Mia in her crib. I searched around the room for my duffle bag and quickly threw a few shirts, jeans, dance clothes, Mia's outfits and her baby toys into a bag.
"Bella, where do you think you're going? Put that stuff back!" Niall commanded storming inside the room. I ignored him and walked into the bathroom to grab my tooth brush and a few more things for Mia. As I walked to get out of the bathroom, Niall stood in the door frame.
"Get the fuck out of my way." I growled, avoiding any and all eye contact. He continued to block my way, only frustrating me more. "You know what's funny? The fact that the guy who told me that he's been in love with me since we were kids has the audacity to cheat on me with my best friend." I snarl, squeezing past him.
"Damn it Bella, I'm sorry! I didn't even plan on this to happen at first, but she and I kept meeting up and talking about old times and..." He stuttered as I wrapped my phone charger up and stuffed it inside my bag.
"At first? You mean it's happened more than once?" I gasped, and he was silent. "Yeah you didn't plan on this to happen at all... Well I hope this 'meeting' went well!'" I screamed, finally letting a few tears tumble down my cheek. "Mia and I are leaving. Don't you dare come after us or I swear to God Niall..." I muttered, and immediately felt his hands on my shoulders.
"You're.Not.Leaving." He said through his gritted teeth. I rolled my eyes at him and tried to pull away, but he only tightened his grip.
"Let go!" I struggled. He quickly pressed his mouth against mine, only to be rejected by my teeth against his lip.
"Damn it Bella! Let me fucking explain." He shouted, pulling me back towards him as I tried to walk away. The rage in his eyes was starting to scare me a little, and made me break down even more.
"Please Niall... not tonight. I can't do this right now." I cried, and noticed Zayn in the doorway.
"C'mon Bell, let's get out of here." He whispered scooping Mia out of her crib in one hand and my bag in the other.
"Bella, this isn't over!" He called after me as I walked out. Chloe sat on the couch fully dressed and I stood their for a moment in shock.
"Do you have anything to say for yourself?" I cried, trying to put on a strong front. Before she could respond, I needed to speak again. "Take your fucking slutty ass antics and your whorey ass clothing back to LA and don't come back. Hell, take fucking Niall with you. Clearly you two are perfect for each other." I shrieked stepping out the door. I heard a silent sob and an apology as I walked out, but I just slammed the door and followed Zayn to the car without looking back.
"Bella, we're at our apartment. Come on out." Liam whispered, helping me out of the car. I feel like a zombie, how could Niall cheat on me with Chloe? And more than once? I followed both the boys up the steps, Mia in Zayn's arms and my bag in Liam's hand. They pushed open the door to their place, and I instantly got a chill seeing Harry sitting on the couch.
"What happened?" He gasped rushing towards us. "Is Mia ok? She was fine when Niall picked her up...."
"Mia is fine." Zayn replied calmly. Harry glanced down at the bag Liam dropped on the ground, and then looked up at me.
"What happened to Bella?" He whispered, and I couldn't take it anymore. I found the nearest room which happened to be a bathroom and sat down on the floor to sob. The crying was natural, but the pain in my chest was like nothing I've ever felt before. My heart physically feels like it's breaking into pieces, and I couldn't make it go away. Minutes later, the door creaked out.
"Please, leave me be. I just need a little time alone." I cried into my hand. Without looking up, I knew it was Harry who snuck in and sat down beside me.
"You know I'll never leave you alone." He whispered, pulling me into his chest. His arms around me felt like home, but I just couldn't control myself.
"Harry, it hurts so much... my heart." I cried, huffing and puffing into him.
"I know baby, I know." He muttered softly. Instead of protesting the fact that he called me baby, I let myself collapse into his arms and cry.
"Please don't leave me." I said, barely audible.
"I won't, because I know how much it hurts to be left." He whispered, kissing my forehead. This made my breathing hitch for a moment, which he definitely recognized. "Hey, I didn't mean that to upset you Bell... I just want you to know I'm here for you." He sighed.
"I know." I sniffled and rested my head in his lap, trying to avoid the pain that Niall's cheating has caused me.
Isn't it funny how wrong you can be about someone? All this time I was thinking Niall would never hurt me, never be the one to stab me in the back, and he convinced me people like Harry and Chris were the bad guys... I'm just stupid I guess.
My heart heaved and suffered in that bathroom for what felt like an eternity, until I finally pulled myself up from his lap.
"Are you done crying?" Harry asked with a small grin, only making me cry a little harder. "Fuck Bell, I'm sorry." He whispered rubbing my back.
"Don't be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong... you never did." I finally admitted not only to Harry, but to myself. Those words took a one thousand pound weight off my shoulders, but the hole in my heart remains.
Bella's Point Of View:
I blinked back the tears in my eyes and stared as the two fuckers scrambled to get dressed. I felt Zayn's hand on my shoulder, and I quickly shrugged it off.
"Where's my daughter?" I croaked, holding myself back from sobbing.
"Bella please, let me explain. This doesn't mean anything!" Niall begged, sliding back on his boxers and jeans.
"It doesn't?" Chloe gasped. Is she for fucking real right now? I quickly brushed past the two of them and entered my bedroom to find a sleeping Mia in her crib. I searched around the room for my duffle bag and quickly threw a few shirts, jeans, dance clothes, Mia's outfits and her baby toys into a bag.
"Bella, where do you think you're going? Put that stuff back!" Niall commanded storming inside the room. I ignored him and walked into the bathroom to grab my tooth brush and a few more things for Mia. As I walked to get out of the bathroom, Niall stood in the door frame.
"Get the fuck out of my way." I growled, avoiding any and all eye contact. He continued to block my way, only frustrating me more. "You know what's funny? The fact that the guy who told me that he's been in love with me since we were kids has the audacity to cheat on me with my best friend." I snarl, squeezing past him.
"Damn it Bella, I'm sorry! I didn't even plan on this to happen at first, but she and I kept meeting up and talking about old times and..." He stuttered as I wrapped my phone charger up and stuffed it inside my bag.
"At first? You mean it's happened more than once?" I gasped, and he was silent. "Yeah you didn't plan on this to happen at all... Well I hope this 'meeting' went well!'" I screamed, finally letting a few tears tumble down my cheek. "Mia and I are leaving. Don't you dare come after us or I swear to God Niall..." I muttered, and immediately felt his hands on my shoulders.
"You're.Not.Leaving." He said through his gritted teeth. I rolled my eyes at him and tried to pull away, but he only tightened his grip.
"Let go!" I struggled. He quickly pressed his mouth against mine, only to be rejected by my teeth against his lip.
"Damn it Bella! Let me fucking explain." He shouted, pulling me back towards him as I tried to walk away. The rage in his eyes was starting to scare me a little, and made me break down even more.
"Please Niall... not tonight. I can't do this right now." I cried, and noticed Zayn in the doorway.
"C'mon Bell, let's get out of here." He whispered scooping Mia out of her crib in one hand and my bag in the other.
"Bella, this isn't over!" He called after me as I walked out. Chloe sat on the couch fully dressed and I stood their for a moment in shock.
"Do you have anything to say for yourself?" I cried, trying to put on a strong front. Before she could respond, I needed to speak again. "Take your fucking slutty ass antics and your whorey ass clothing back to LA and don't come back. Hell, take fucking Niall with you. Clearly you two are perfect for each other." I shrieked stepping out the door. I heard a silent sob and an apology as I walked out, but I just slammed the door and followed Zayn to the car without looking back.
"Bella, we're at our apartment. Come on out." Liam whispered, helping me out of the car. I feel like a zombie, how could Niall cheat on me with Chloe? And more than once? I followed both the boys up the steps, Mia in Zayn's arms and my bag in Liam's hand. They pushed open the door to their place, and I instantly got a chill seeing Harry sitting on the couch.
"What happened?" He gasped rushing towards us. "Is Mia ok? She was fine when Niall picked her up...."
"Mia is fine." Zayn replied calmly. Harry glanced down at the bag Liam dropped on the ground, and then looked up at me.
"What happened to Bella?" He whispered, and I couldn't take it anymore. I found the nearest room which happened to be a bathroom and sat down on the floor to sob. The crying was natural, but the pain in my chest was like nothing I've ever felt before. My heart physically feels like it's breaking into pieces, and I couldn't make it go away. Minutes later, the door creaked out.
"Please, leave me be. I just need a little time alone." I cried into my hand. Without looking up, I knew it was Harry who snuck in and sat down beside me.
"You know I'll never leave you alone." He whispered, pulling me into his chest. His arms around me felt like home, but I just couldn't control myself.
"Harry, it hurts so much... my heart." I cried, huffing and puffing into him.
"I know baby, I know." He muttered softly. Instead of protesting the fact that he called me baby, I let myself collapse into his arms and cry.
"Please don't leave me." I said, barely audible.
"I won't, because I know how much it hurts to be left." He whispered, kissing my forehead. This made my breathing hitch for a moment, which he definitely recognized. "Hey, I didn't mean that to upset you Bell... I just want you to know I'm here for you." He sighed.
"I know." I sniffled and rested my head in his lap, trying to avoid the pain that Niall's cheating has caused me.
Isn't it funny how wrong you can be about someone? All this time I was thinking Niall would never hurt me, never be the one to stab me in the back, and he convinced me people like Harry and Chris were the bad guys... I'm just stupid I guess.
My heart heaved and suffered in that bathroom for what felt like an eternity, until I finally pulled myself up from his lap.
"Are you done crying?" Harry asked with a small grin, only making me cry a little harder. "Fuck Bell, I'm sorry." He whispered rubbing my back.
"Don't be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong... you never did." I finally admitted not only to Harry, but to myself. Those words took a one thousand pound weight off my shoulders, but the hole in my heart remains.
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