Forever and Always
Am I Not Enough?
Chaianne’s P.O.V
Harry and I didn’t really talk to each other until the girl and lads came over for our Christmas together.
“Where are my little ones?” Louis asked as Kayla came and hugged his legs.
“Well hello there little one.” HE said picking her up and tickling her stomach.
“Hi Uncle Louis. Mommy and I made cupcakes!” Kayla said pointing to the kitchen. Louis and Niall got mischievous looks on their faces.
“Why don’t you show them to me?” Louis said. Kayla nodded her head as she and Louis walked to the kitchen with Niall behind them.
“You know they are going to eat them right?” Liam asked.
“Yea I know. That’s why I hid the good one and replaced them with the gross ones.” I replied with a smirk.
“Nice. I have taught you well.” Zayn said coming and hugging me. The twins began to cry.
“I’ll be right back.” I said walking upstairs to their room. I heard someone following me but I thought it was Liam. When I got to their room I got Colton and sat in the rocking chair. Someone sat in the rocking chair next to me with Haleigh.
“Why aren’t you talking to be babe?” Harry asked. I ignored him. I know it’s not the best way to handle it but I don’t want to fight right now. Harry let out a sigh then placed Haleigh back in her crib and left. I looked down at Colton and began to cry.
“I’m sorry.” I whispered. Liam walked into the room laughing.
“Hey Chai Louis and...” He saw that I was crying and came over to me.
“What’s wrong?” he asked taking Colton and placing him in his crib.
“Harry.” I said wiping away my tears. Liam came and hugged me that everything will be better soon.
“I hope so.” I said standing up and looking at Haleigh and Colton who are now asleep.
“We better go back down there so we can figure out what to get for dinner before Niall decides to eat one of us.” Liam said laughing. I began to laugh with him and we walked downstairs. When we got down there we found everyone else but Harry down there.
“Where’s Harry?” I asked sitting between Kaitlin and Louis.
“He left and he seemed mad. Is everything ok?” Kirsten asked me.
“Everything is peachy.” I said flatly. Louis and Liam gave me understanding looks since they are the only two that know what’s going on.
“I want food.” Niall whined.
“Nandos? I’ll text Harry to meet us there.” I said. They all nodded their heads. I sent Pressly and Kaitlin to get Haleigh and Colton for me. When they came back down we were all ready to go. Pressly and Kaitlin put the twins in the car while I buckled Kayla in and then I climbed in and drove off with the others behind me. I sent Harry the text but I didn’t get a reply. When we got there I let Kayla out first and then I got Haleigh out while Zayn got Colton out. We walked in and were seated. I checked my phone again to see if Harry had replied yet. He didn’t. I sighed and placed my phone back on the table.
“Where is he” Zayn asked. I shrugged my shoulders.
“I don’t know but I’ll be back. I have to use the restroom.” I said standing up. On my way there I looked around and saw some guy with curly hair talking to the interviewer from today. I looked closely at the face of the guy and saw that it was Harry. They then started to kiss. I began to cry but covered my mouth so no sound came out. I walked back to the table.
“Sorry guys but we have to go.” I said helping Kayla out of her seat and putting her coat on her.
“Can two of you help me put the twins in the car then follow me home please?” I asked them. Louis and Liam volunteered. I hugged everyone else then walked out to my car. Louis and Liam put the twins in then got in a car together and followed me home. When we got there I let Kayla out and then I took Haleigh and Colton both out and began to carry them but Liam and Louis took them from me so I could open the door. When we got in I turned on the TV for Kayla and went up to the twin’s room and started to pack a bag for them. Louis and Liam placed them in their cribs.
“Why are you packing? Where are you going?” Liam asked.
“Harry was at Nandos…but with the interviewer from today.” I said still crying and walking to Kayla’s room and packing her a bag.
“Maybe they were just talking.” Liam said. Louis and I gave him looks asking him if he was for real.
“It’s kind of hard to talk to someone with your tongue down their throat.” I said finishing Kayla’s packing and then I went to mine and Harry’s room.
“Why must he do this?” Louis asked in frustration. I shrugged my shoulders and continued to pack.
“Where are you going?” Liam asked.
“I don’t know. All I know is that I can’t be in this house right now.” I said zipping my bag and carrying all 4 of the bags down stairs. Liam and Louis took the twins to the car with Kayla behind them as I locked the door. I then went to the trunk and put our bags in.
“We are going to follow you there and we’ll help you take everything to your room.” Louis said. I nodded my head and began to drive off with them behind me once again. When we got there I paid for the room with cash so Harry wouldn’t know where I was. Louis and Liam helped me like they say they would.
“Mommy where is daddy?” Kayla asked as I sat up the bassinets I had to pack for the twins. I looked at Louis and Liam for help.
“Daddy is on a trip. He’ll be back soon though.” Louis said. Kayla nodded her head then ran to the living room area. Once I had both bassinets set up Louis and Liam put the twins in them and we went to the living room area.
“I just got a text form Pressly saying that she and the girls saw Harry and the interviewer.” Louis said outing his phone down. I rested my head on his shoulder.
“Am I not enough?” I asked crying again.
“He’s young. Give him time.” Liam said.
“I’m tired of giving him time. We rushed into this and look where we are at now. I don’t regret having Colton and Haleigh or adopting Kayla, but I do regret rushing into things with Harry from the start.” I said crying even more. Kayla came up to me and wiped my tears.
“Don’t cry mommy.” Kayla said kissing my cheek.
“Why don’t you and I go see a movie?” Liam asked Kayla. She looked at me awaiting an answer. I nodded my head.
“But we have to change you first missy.” I said walking to the room with her behind me. I changed her into jeans, toms, and a hello kitty shirt. I gave her a kiss and then her and Liam left.
“You know you don’t regret meeting Harry.” Louis said as I sat down next to him.
“I do. He has hurt me so many times. I’m emotionally drained and that’s not good for those three kids.” I said.
“I know but Harry love all four of you.” Louis said.
“He has a funny way of showing it.” I replied. Louis didn’t reply he just started to text someone.
“The lads saw Harry with her and they left.” Louis said. I nodded my head.
“Pressly is wondering where I am. I gotta go. Bye love. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Louis said hugging me. I nodded my head and followed him to the door. When he left I closed the door behind him then walked to my phone and put music on. The first song that came on was Warrior. I began to sing along but my phone rang. I looked down and saw it was Harry. I debated on answering or not but I answered it.
“Hey babe. Where are you and the kids? I’m at home and you guys aren’t.” Harry said. I took a deep breathe.
“We aren’t coming home right now.” I said with no emotion.
Harry’s P.O.V
“We aren’t coming home right now.” She said. What did she mean they aren’t coming home?
“What do you mean you’re not coming home?” I asked worried.
“I saw you two kissing. I don’t want to fight with you and I know that if I do come home then we will and that is unhealthy for the kids.” She replied. She was at Nandos? But I didn’t see her with the lads or girls when they saw me and Abby (the interviewer) kissing. I didn’t start the kiss she did.
“I have the right to have the kids with me! Tell me where you are so I can come get my kids!” I said into to the phone as my doorbell rang. I walked to it and it was Abby.
“Hey baby.” She said kissing me. I heard Chai gasp from the other side of the phone.
“Looks like you’ll be too busy tonight to actually watch over the. Bye Harry.” She said before hanging up.
“Hi Abby.” I said.
“I’m going to a club tonight and was wondering if you wanted to come also.” She said getting closer to me. Well might as well.
“Sure. What time?” I asked. She looked at her watch.
“An hour.” She replied. I nodded my head and she kissed me then left. I’m simply going to a club with her so it’s not like I’m cheating on Chai. I was ready and still had 20 minutes left. I tried to call and text Chai but she wouldn’t answer or reply. I finally gave up and sighed. There was a knock on my door and I went to see who it was. When I opened the door I saw that it was Louis.
“Hey man.” I said nervously because I knew Abby would be here soon. Louis walked into the living room and sat down.
“Hey.” He said as the doorbell rang. I answered it and saw Abby standing there looking really hot.
“Hey babe.” She said kissing me. She walked into the living room where Louis was. I followed her. Louis rolled his eyes then left.
“Way to forget you have a wife and kids.” He said as he left slamming the door.
“Ready?” she asked I nodded my head and we got in my car. When we got the club I got us both drinks. Soon we were both pretty drunk.
“Let’s go dance.” Abby said pulling me behind her. We danced and soon she began to grind on me. I let out a moan and she laughed.
“Someone’s a little excited.” She said. I looked down and saw that my erection was very noticeable.
“Why don’t we take this back to your place.” she asked seductively which made me moan again. I nodded my head. When we walked out I saw paps but I didn’t care. Once we got back to the house we ran upstairs and undressed and climbed into bed. Lets just say I had some fun.
Chaianne’s P.O.V
Last night after Liam brought Kayla back we both just went to sleep. I woke up this morning and walked to the living room area and turned on the TV.
“Last night star from boy band One Direction was seen out with someone other than his wife.” My heart dropped.
“People at the club said that they saw the couple dancing and kissing. Is it already quits for the newlyweds? We will keep you up to date on this story.” The show host said. I turned off the TV and began to cry. I looked down at my phone and saw that I got text form Anne, Gemma, Pressly, Kaitlin, Kirsten, Jessie, and all of the boys except Harry. I didn’t reply to any of them. Louis called me but I ignored his call. I went to my purse to find something. I then turned on “I Hope You Dance” it was my mom’s favorite song and I remember dancing around the house with her and my dad before things became bad. I walked to the bathroom and cried and took the razor to my wrist. There was a knock on the room door but I didn’t answer it because I knew it was either Gemma, Anne, one of the girls, or one of the lads.
“Mommy someone is at the door.” Kayla said walking in. she looked at my wrist and screamed. This made me cry even more and do another cut. Right now I basically have cut all along each arms. I heard the room door open and then the bathroom door opened again. In walked Niall, Liam, and Zayn.
“Chai!” Niall shouted. That was the last thing I heard before everything went black….
Harry and I didn’t really talk to each other until the girl and lads came over for our Christmas together.
“Where are my little ones?” Louis asked as Kayla came and hugged his legs.
“Well hello there little one.” HE said picking her up and tickling her stomach.
“Hi Uncle Louis. Mommy and I made cupcakes!” Kayla said pointing to the kitchen. Louis and Niall got mischievous looks on their faces.
“Why don’t you show them to me?” Louis said. Kayla nodded her head as she and Louis walked to the kitchen with Niall behind them.
“You know they are going to eat them right?” Liam asked.
“Yea I know. That’s why I hid the good one and replaced them with the gross ones.” I replied with a smirk.
“Nice. I have taught you well.” Zayn said coming and hugging me. The twins began to cry.
“I’ll be right back.” I said walking upstairs to their room. I heard someone following me but I thought it was Liam. When I got to their room I got Colton and sat in the rocking chair. Someone sat in the rocking chair next to me with Haleigh.
“Why aren’t you talking to be babe?” Harry asked. I ignored him. I know it’s not the best way to handle it but I don’t want to fight right now. Harry let out a sigh then placed Haleigh back in her crib and left. I looked down at Colton and began to cry.
“I’m sorry.” I whispered. Liam walked into the room laughing.
“Hey Chai Louis and...” He saw that I was crying and came over to me.
“What’s wrong?” he asked taking Colton and placing him in his crib.
“Harry.” I said wiping away my tears. Liam came and hugged me that everything will be better soon.
“I hope so.” I said standing up and looking at Haleigh and Colton who are now asleep.
“We better go back down there so we can figure out what to get for dinner before Niall decides to eat one of us.” Liam said laughing. I began to laugh with him and we walked downstairs. When we got down there we found everyone else but Harry down there.
“Where’s Harry?” I asked sitting between Kaitlin and Louis.
“He left and he seemed mad. Is everything ok?” Kirsten asked me.
“Everything is peachy.” I said flatly. Louis and Liam gave me understanding looks since they are the only two that know what’s going on.
“I want food.” Niall whined.
“Nandos? I’ll text Harry to meet us there.” I said. They all nodded their heads. I sent Pressly and Kaitlin to get Haleigh and Colton for me. When they came back down we were all ready to go. Pressly and Kaitlin put the twins in the car while I buckled Kayla in and then I climbed in and drove off with the others behind me. I sent Harry the text but I didn’t get a reply. When we got there I let Kayla out first and then I got Haleigh out while Zayn got Colton out. We walked in and were seated. I checked my phone again to see if Harry had replied yet. He didn’t. I sighed and placed my phone back on the table.
“Where is he” Zayn asked. I shrugged my shoulders.
“I don’t know but I’ll be back. I have to use the restroom.” I said standing up. On my way there I looked around and saw some guy with curly hair talking to the interviewer from today. I looked closely at the face of the guy and saw that it was Harry. They then started to kiss. I began to cry but covered my mouth so no sound came out. I walked back to the table.
“Sorry guys but we have to go.” I said helping Kayla out of her seat and putting her coat on her.
“Can two of you help me put the twins in the car then follow me home please?” I asked them. Louis and Liam volunteered. I hugged everyone else then walked out to my car. Louis and Liam put the twins in then got in a car together and followed me home. When we got there I let Kayla out and then I took Haleigh and Colton both out and began to carry them but Liam and Louis took them from me so I could open the door. When we got in I turned on the TV for Kayla and went up to the twin’s room and started to pack a bag for them. Louis and Liam placed them in their cribs.
“Why are you packing? Where are you going?” Liam asked.
“Harry was at Nandos…but with the interviewer from today.” I said still crying and walking to Kayla’s room and packing her a bag.
“Maybe they were just talking.” Liam said. Louis and I gave him looks asking him if he was for real.
“It’s kind of hard to talk to someone with your tongue down their throat.” I said finishing Kayla’s packing and then I went to mine and Harry’s room.
“Why must he do this?” Louis asked in frustration. I shrugged my shoulders and continued to pack.
“Where are you going?” Liam asked.
“I don’t know. All I know is that I can’t be in this house right now.” I said zipping my bag and carrying all 4 of the bags down stairs. Liam and Louis took the twins to the car with Kayla behind them as I locked the door. I then went to the trunk and put our bags in.
“We are going to follow you there and we’ll help you take everything to your room.” Louis said. I nodded my head and began to drive off with them behind me once again. When we got there I paid for the room with cash so Harry wouldn’t know where I was. Louis and Liam helped me like they say they would.
“Mommy where is daddy?” Kayla asked as I sat up the bassinets I had to pack for the twins. I looked at Louis and Liam for help.
“Daddy is on a trip. He’ll be back soon though.” Louis said. Kayla nodded her head then ran to the living room area. Once I had both bassinets set up Louis and Liam put the twins in them and we went to the living room area.
“I just got a text form Pressly saying that she and the girls saw Harry and the interviewer.” Louis said outing his phone down. I rested my head on his shoulder.
“Am I not enough?” I asked crying again.
“He’s young. Give him time.” Liam said.
“I’m tired of giving him time. We rushed into this and look where we are at now. I don’t regret having Colton and Haleigh or adopting Kayla, but I do regret rushing into things with Harry from the start.” I said crying even more. Kayla came up to me and wiped my tears.
“Don’t cry mommy.” Kayla said kissing my cheek.
“Why don’t you and I go see a movie?” Liam asked Kayla. She looked at me awaiting an answer. I nodded my head.
“But we have to change you first missy.” I said walking to the room with her behind me. I changed her into jeans, toms, and a hello kitty shirt. I gave her a kiss and then her and Liam left.
“You know you don’t regret meeting Harry.” Louis said as I sat down next to him.
“I do. He has hurt me so many times. I’m emotionally drained and that’s not good for those three kids.” I said.
“I know but Harry love all four of you.” Louis said.
“He has a funny way of showing it.” I replied. Louis didn’t reply he just started to text someone.
“The lads saw Harry with her and they left.” Louis said. I nodded my head.
“Pressly is wondering where I am. I gotta go. Bye love. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Louis said hugging me. I nodded my head and followed him to the door. When he left I closed the door behind him then walked to my phone and put music on. The first song that came on was Warrior. I began to sing along but my phone rang. I looked down and saw it was Harry. I debated on answering or not but I answered it.
“Hey babe. Where are you and the kids? I’m at home and you guys aren’t.” Harry said. I took a deep breathe.
“We aren’t coming home right now.” I said with no emotion.
Harry’s P.O.V
“We aren’t coming home right now.” She said. What did she mean they aren’t coming home?
“What do you mean you’re not coming home?” I asked worried.
“I saw you two kissing. I don’t want to fight with you and I know that if I do come home then we will and that is unhealthy for the kids.” She replied. She was at Nandos? But I didn’t see her with the lads or girls when they saw me and Abby (the interviewer) kissing. I didn’t start the kiss she did.
“I have the right to have the kids with me! Tell me where you are so I can come get my kids!” I said into to the phone as my doorbell rang. I walked to it and it was Abby.
“Hey baby.” She said kissing me. I heard Chai gasp from the other side of the phone.
“Looks like you’ll be too busy tonight to actually watch over the. Bye Harry.” She said before hanging up.
“Hi Abby.” I said.
“I’m going to a club tonight and was wondering if you wanted to come also.” She said getting closer to me. Well might as well.
“Sure. What time?” I asked. She looked at her watch.
“An hour.” She replied. I nodded my head and she kissed me then left. I’m simply going to a club with her so it’s not like I’m cheating on Chai. I was ready and still had 20 minutes left. I tried to call and text Chai but she wouldn’t answer or reply. I finally gave up and sighed. There was a knock on my door and I went to see who it was. When I opened the door I saw that it was Louis.
“Hey man.” I said nervously because I knew Abby would be here soon. Louis walked into the living room and sat down.
“Hey.” He said as the doorbell rang. I answered it and saw Abby standing there looking really hot.
“Hey babe.” She said kissing me. She walked into the living room where Louis was. I followed her. Louis rolled his eyes then left.
“Way to forget you have a wife and kids.” He said as he left slamming the door.
“Ready?” she asked I nodded my head and we got in my car. When we got the club I got us both drinks. Soon we were both pretty drunk.
“Let’s go dance.” Abby said pulling me behind her. We danced and soon she began to grind on me. I let out a moan and she laughed.
“Someone’s a little excited.” She said. I looked down and saw that my erection was very noticeable.
“Why don’t we take this back to your place.” she asked seductively which made me moan again. I nodded my head. When we walked out I saw paps but I didn’t care. Once we got back to the house we ran upstairs and undressed and climbed into bed. Lets just say I had some fun.
Chaianne’s P.O.V
Last night after Liam brought Kayla back we both just went to sleep. I woke up this morning and walked to the living room area and turned on the TV.
“Last night star from boy band One Direction was seen out with someone other than his wife.” My heart dropped.
“People at the club said that they saw the couple dancing and kissing. Is it already quits for the newlyweds? We will keep you up to date on this story.” The show host said. I turned off the TV and began to cry. I looked down at my phone and saw that I got text form Anne, Gemma, Pressly, Kaitlin, Kirsten, Jessie, and all of the boys except Harry. I didn’t reply to any of them. Louis called me but I ignored his call. I went to my purse to find something. I then turned on “I Hope You Dance” it was my mom’s favorite song and I remember dancing around the house with her and my dad before things became bad. I walked to the bathroom and cried and took the razor to my wrist. There was a knock on the room door but I didn’t answer it because I knew it was either Gemma, Anne, one of the girls, or one of the lads.
“Mommy someone is at the door.” Kayla said walking in. she looked at my wrist and screamed. This made me cry even more and do another cut. Right now I basically have cut all along each arms. I heard the room door open and then the bathroom door opened again. In walked Niall, Liam, and Zayn.
“Chai!” Niall shouted. That was the last thing I heard before everything went black….
I missed this story! Definitely continue this story!:)
6/26/14