I woke up in the middle of the night, I just couldn't sleep. I had too many thoughts in my mind so I got up, took like 8 pills and went back to bed.

"Beep, beep, beep" Was all I could hear.

I was awake but it was too hard for me to open my eyes. I didn't know where I was cause I was damn sure I didn't have anything in my room that beeps. C'mon Ali you can do it, I said to myself trying to open my eyes again and I succeeded.

"Louis?" I said really slowly.

"Alison! She's waking up, Niall go call the nurse" He said holding my hand.

"Wha- what happened?" I stuttered.

"They said it's overdose. I thought we've agreed on not harming yourself Alison" Louis said broke.

But I wasn't self harming, I just wanted to sleep peacefully for couple of hours. Then the nurse came in. Phew, saved by the nurse.

"Hello Alison, I'm Emma, your nurse for the day. How are you feeling?" She said smiling.

"I have this terrible headache and my stomach feels weird" I said closing my eyes cause the lights in the room made my head worse.

"Well you shouldn't have overdosed your medicine, and we've performed gastric lavage so you'll feel better in no time" She said leaving after saying that I should rest.

I was looking around to see who was in the room. I saw Niall sitting on my left, Liam, Zayn and Elena standing in front of me, Louis was on my right holding my hand and then I saw Harry standing beside the door. I felt even worse, by just looking at him. I was pretty sure he looked worse than me, like I wanted to get up and give him my bed. Louis saw me looking at Harry.

"Come on people, let my sister rest for a while." He said getting up. "I'll be back to check up on you missy" He said as he kissed the top of my head.

I really did adore him. He was the perfect brother. He was always looking out for me. On his way out I saw him say something to Harry before he shut the door. Harry stayed in front of the door for a while before walking towards me.

"How are you feeling?" He said as he sat next to me.

"Been better. You?" I said looking him in the eyes.

I really could tell he was broken. My poor baby, he didn't deserve this at all.

"Alison, I'm not in a hospital bed, you are" He said totally ignoring my question.

"Harry, I said how are you feeling" I said slowly, feeling tired.

"Been better" He imitated me.

I just couldn't stand him being this upset, I thought it was for the best but obviously it wasn't. Then I gestured him to lean down.

"Harry come closer" I said quietly. "This doesn't change anything but.." I said as I kissed him.

I just needed to figure out who I liked the most. I couldn't even compare the feelings I got from their kisses. Harry was nice and soft but on the other hand Fabian was manipulative and cheeky. They were completely opposites. He just hugged me gently.

"You know I'll wait forever for you to decide cause I can love you more than this and when you close your eyes I hope you see us in your dream" He said before getting up, and leaving the room.

I had tears in my eyes, he was amazing. Why was I even torturing him like this? I could set him free or just be with him. Well I wouldn't let him go cause I couldn't even stand the though of him being with another girl. I guess that's how he'd feel if he found out about me and Fabian. I was distracted from my thoughts by Louis.

"How did it go?" He asked hoping I'd say we were back on.

"Fine, I just can't believe he doesn't hate me" I said as he sat down next to me.

"He loves you too much to hate you but Ali" he said taking a deep breath. "I know about Fabian" He said whispering.

I could sense the disappointment in his voice mixed with a bit concern.

"How?" I asked him shocked.

"Well I saw you two kissing" He replied, apparently being disgusted even thinking about it.

"You know I can't hide that from my best friend" He said looking down.

"Louis please" I said coughing a little.

"Well you have to tell him one way or another. I can't lie to him and neither can you" He said seriously.

He was right. He was always right which was a bit annoying sometimes but helpful too. I nodded and closed my eyes. I really did need some rest...

Flashback

"Jason, please wake up. I know you can hear me" I said holding his hand.

It was two days after his car crash and still nothing. I tried talking to him like every hour for his mother plus I couldn't lose him this way. We were good friends before we started dating.

Couple hours later

"Ali" I was waken up by his voice.

"Jason. Oh my god, I've been so worried" I said hugging him gently.

"What happened?" He asked confused.

"Apparently you were in a car crash because of me" I said with tears in my eyes.

"No don't say that babe, it's my fault" He said trying to smile but I could tell he was in huge pain.

Thank god his mum called a doctor to check on him. That was my chance of escape. I got up and walked to the door.

"Alison, please don't leave me" He said broken.

I muttered "Too late" before leaving the room and that was the last I've heard of Jason.

End of flashback

When I woke up, I was in tears and it was just afternoon so I decided to go back to sleep before anyone came and tried to talk to me...

Notes

Another short chapter, again I'm sorry. I'm just too confused these days I can't even think straightly but I wanted to post cause I love you all for reading! I hope it's good enough for your expectations, will write another one as soon as I can xx
PS: Tell me what you think should happen next? I'll take it into consideration :)