I found a blue dress in my wardrobe and put it on, I like the way it clung to my hips. I put on my boots and made my way downstairs.

"You look nice" Zach smiled at me.

"Thanks" I smiled.

"You going out with that fancy boy?"

I rolled my eyes "It's Harry" I reminded him.

"Never had you down as a One Direction fan" he smirked.

"Leave it alone Zach" I ordered.

"Whatever, I'll be in my room" he disappeared upstairs.

Harry did his usual knock making me smile, I grabbed my bag and met him outside.

"Hey, you look wow" his face lit up.

"You too" I looked down at his checked shirt and black jeans that were tighter then anything I would ever wear.

"Well let's go" he held out his arm, I rolled my eyes before linking my arm with his.

I noticed his car wasn't there "Err Harry your car?" I looked at him confused.

"We're not going far from here".

Oh... We walked over to the park nearest my house. We passed the playground and walked up to the field surrounded by trees I saw a blanket on the grass with a bottle of wine.

"Cute" I laughed.

"I try" he shrugged hiding a smile. "But I'm not trying to impress you, this calms me" he shrugged.

"What sitting out on a cold field?" I asked.

"Well yeah, in the dark, in silence" he looked uncomfortable explaining.

I finally understood part of him, it's something we share in common. The comfort you receive from sitting alone in the dark.

"But why bring me?" I asked.

"What do you mean?" he tilted his head.

"Well you like being alone right? You like the thrill of not having anyone around, of being lonely" I stated.

"Sounds like you know the feeling" he looked at me.

I shrugged.

"You're right, but have you ever shared that with someone?"

"Then you wouldn't be lonely?" I asked confused.

"Not technically, but even around people I still feel alone like I'm not really there".

I smiled "Well we can be lonely together" I held his hand.

He tightened his grip over my hand as we sat down, we lay amongst the stars in silence. No words could make this moment any better. I wish I always saw this side of him, he was like this the night before he ruined everything.

After an hour Harry finally spoke "I really am sorry you know".

"But not sorry enough" I reminded him.

"What do you mean?" he asked sitting up.

"Well normally when someone is sorry they try to fix their mistake right? But no matter how many times you tell me sorry you won't change your mind" I shrugged.

"You think it's so simple don't you?" he asked agitated.

"Clearly" I rolled my eyes.

"Well it's not, I can't be the guy you want me to be" he looked down.

"The guy I want you to be? What kind of fucked up shit is that? I want you to be yourself that's all I've ever wanted" I shook my head in disbelief.

"No it isn't you hated me when we first met, that's me" he shrugged.

"No it's not" I shouted sitting up. "That's just an act, you want to be perceived as a dick I have no idea why. Nights like this, well 5 minutes ago is who you are".

"Don't act like you know me" he shouted.

"Why do you ruin every fucking good moment? Is it so hard for you to be happy?" I asked baffled.

"A guy like me doesn't deserve happiness, it's just the way it is" he stood up.

I jumped up "That's bullshit, you could have everything Harry, what are you so afraid of?"
"I don't deserve it" he shrugged.

I pushed him hard "Why are you so frustrating" I shrieked.

In that moment he lost control, he pushed me against the tree squishing me against his body. Either hand on my cheeks as he kissed me hard taking my breath away. I kissed back instantly closing my eyes. But the moment ended and I was back to reality, he pulled away setting me free.

"You need to go" he demanded.

I shook my head and kissed him again, he kissed back for a second before shaking his head.

"Don't" he pleaded.

"Give me one reason why I shouldn't" I ordered.

"I don't want to hurt you" he frowned.

"That's not good enough" I half shouted.

He shrugged "No i'm not good enough for you".

I sighed pulling away from him and picked up my things from the floor.

"See you at the gig" he tried to smile.

I nodded and left him standing there, I wiped away the tears as I made my way back to my house. As soon as I got in I locked the door and closed my eyes.

"Did fancy boy break up with you?" Zach mocked me.

"You know nothing" I spat through my teeth making him laugh. "I swear to god one more snide comment and you are out of here" I shouted before pushing past him and running up the stairs to my room. I jumped on my bed and curled up into a ball rocking myself back and forth.

Notes

3 updates today.. okay wow.

tomorrow will be my 30th chapter 0.o oh god.
and i will be doing a contest, tomorrow the details will be out.

oh and i am writing a new book called 'Separated At Birth' check it out please. and as usual. there's daily updates xx


he is perfection

SOO CUTE