It's been 3 days since I last saw or spoke to anyone. I couldn't bring myself to face the disapproving stares, the pity talks. My phone has been ringing and ringing, but I don't answer, the door has been knocked on hundreds of times but I don't let them in. I really needed to stop feeling sorry for myself, I knew what I was getting myself into before I accepted the deal. It's my own fault not his. I needed to get a grip and go to school, I had a long hot shower, I scrubbed every part of my body leaving no trace of Harry Styles. I'm surprised I haven't been kicked out yet, I was meant to have paid them yesterday.

I put on some jeans and my favourite hoody, put my hair in a ponytail and got my bag for school. I know I've been avoiding this but I need to, I looked at my phone. 103 missed calls, 45 text messages shit. I didn't bother to look who they were from, I deleted everything.

I walked to school with no rush at all. I didn't care if I was late, I put in my earphones to block out the rest of the world. When I got to school everyone stared at me, I didn't bother smiling at them. They didn't care about me, about what I feel they just want gossip. I had Mr. Daugherty this morning, I was half an hour late so that won't go down well.

I knocked on the door and let myself in, everyone stopped what they were doing to look at me. I had the urge to wave and stick my finger up at them all but I didn't. Ashley was sitting in my seat next to Harry, the pain reappearing in my chest. I wasn't going to let that bitch come and take my seat once he's finished with me, I was there first.

"Hey Ash" I smiled. "Do you mind getting out of my seat?" I tilted my head to the side.

"Is that really a good idea sitting next to Harry and all" she smiled.

"I think that is my problem not yours, now I swear to god if you don't get out my seat I will make you" I glared at her.

Harry stared at me stunned, I refused to look him in the eye I was stronger than that. Ashley got up from my seat and returned back to hers without looking back. Jess turned back on her seat and stared at me.

"What the hell is going on with you?" she asked half disgusted.

I ignored her and put in my earphones, I allowed Coldplay to fill my ears instead of listening to any of these people. Mr. Daugherty pulled out my earphones from my ears stopping the music.

"Hey" I shouted.

"Since when have you ever been allowed to listen to music in class?" he asked appalled.

I rolled my eyes "There's nothing wrong with music to help you work, sir" I said coldly.

"Don't give me that smart mouth of yours" he shouted.

I didn't answer back, if I said much more if would get me in huge shit.

"Are you okay?" Jess asked me calmly.

"I'm wonderful Jess thanks for asking" I said sarcastically.

"Don't take it out on me, it's not my fault he dumped you" she said coldly.

I looked at her then at Harry who wasn't saying a word, I wanted nothing more than to run out of this classroom. Run away from him and stupid Jess but I didn't, I stayed strong.

"Wow Jess, loving the support from my best friend" I said sarcastically.

"I'm sorry, it's just you've completely shut me out, won't return my calls or texts".

"I deleted them all, I wasn't ignoring you personally I never read any of the texts I just wanted them gone".

"Just because your life's a bitch doesn't mean you can make mine it too" she said dryly.

"That's enough" Harry half shouted at Jess.

"And he speaks" I said coldly. "Thought you had forgotten how, my bad".

"Don't Morris, I get it I've messed up, why do you want to lose everyone else because of me?" he asked tilting his head to the side.

"I've lost no one because of you" I said dryly.

"You seem to be pushing everyone away" he frowned.

"That's my decision, I don't need anyone, people suck, and you suck" I shouted.

"I'm sorry" he whispered.

"How many times are you planning on saying that? Because all of them sound like bullshit" I said coldly before getting out my seat. "I should have let Ashley sit here" I shook my head.

Saved by the bell, I smiled and walked out of class with my head held high. When all I wanted to do was hide from everyone. I skipped my next 2 lessons and sat in the girls bathroom, believe it or not I had more friends in here.

Lunch time came, this is the part where I see how much has actually changed. I went and sat at my usual table, the canteen started to fill. Finally Louis came and sat next to me, joined by Niall and Zayn.

"Hey Morris" they all smiled at me.

"Hey guys" I tried my best to smile back.

Harry approached the table "Guys I don't think it's a good idea if we sit here" he said frowning.

"Why? Just because you decide to mess everything up doesn't mean we have to suffer. I like Morris, she's my friend and I want to sit here" Louis said coldly.

Louis has showed a completely different side recently, I've really grown to like him. I smiled warmly at him letting him know I appreciated it. Harry sat down awkwardly next to Niall and, Liam came over and sat next to me.

"Do you not know how to answer a phone Kate?" Liam asked agitated.

"I'm sorry" I looked at him apologetically.

He nodded "Are you okay?" he asked frowning.

"Do I really need to answer that?" I tilted my head to the side.

"Okay fair enough".

We all sat there in an awkward silence. I noticed Jess, Louise and Tyler were sitting somewhere else. The only people I actually have are One Direction, the irony in that...

"I hear Ashley's having another party Saturday" Niall clapped his hands.

"Yeah like I'd be invited to that" I said rolling my eyes.

"Come with me, I'll get you in" Niall smiled.

"Thanks, but I don't know if I'm in the mood for a party" I shrugged.

"Course you are, you can forget about the past and future and live in the moment" Louis smiled.

"Oh fine" I said giving in.

Harry kept his eyes on the table throughout the rest of lunch, whether it was because he was afraid to look me in the eye I don't know. Jess pulled me away from the table and pushed me against the wall.

"Er Jess?" I said confused.

"You're hanging out with them?" she spat through her teeth.

"They're my friends Jess" I shrugged.

"They broke you" she shouted.

"No they didn't Harry did, and to be honest it's my fault I shouldn't have gotten too attached".

"You're sticking up for him?" she shrieked.

"No, I don't know" I looked down.

"Do you know how pathetic that makes you?" she moaned.

Tears rolled down my cheeks, I pushed past her and stormed out of the canteen. I found a nice patch of grass by a tree and sat down. I wrapped my arms around my legs and wept.

"Morris?"

I looked up to see Harry standing there, I wiped my eyes.

"What do you want Harry?" I asked agitated.

"I wanted to see if you were okay, I heard your argument with Jess" he looked down at the floor.

"Well I'm fine" I said coldly.

He groaned before walking off. I know he's trying but it hurts too much.

Notes

Not my best, but i try.



i am giving another update todaaaayyyy x