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Take Away My Fears

The Effects on Us

I layed in my bed, my eyes still leaking. It'd been three days since the incident with Louis, and I hadn't left the room since. Danielle, Perrie and Gemma all stayed with me, taking shifts between comforting me and going out to get us food. None of the boys had visited, but I suspect that could be exokained by the hissing noise that came from the girls everytime the door opened.

I just laid on the bed, my whole body shaking. The boys agreed it would be best if I didn't go back to my dad's and so I was set to finish out the rest of the tour and then return to stay with Kelsey in London at the end. I wasn't too keen on the idea at the beggining since that would mean more time with Louis, but they girls told me it would be for the best and I decided it couldn't suck that bad. It's not like I ever left my room.

I looked out the window and wiped my eyes, enjoying this one time I had alone. The girls had just left for some paparazzi thing the girlfriends were doing that Gemma wanted to go to also, and so I had a few hours to my own. I just looked at the blue sky, and sighed. Nothing should get to be this happy.

I rolled over and buried my face in the pillow, letting out another cry as I realized that the rest of the world was happy today, enjoying the sun and I was inside, crying for the third or fourth day straight. I didn't even realize when the bed dipped and a hand rested on my side. Someone cleared their throat and I looked up to see Louis sitting there, his face making me want to burst into tears all over again.

~Louis' P.o.V~

I looked at her face and almost broke. This would be the fourth day she'd been cooped up in the room by the girls, not letting the boys come in, I was surprised they had the window open. I literally thought they were keeping her in here in the dark like a vampire. "The lads wanted to know if you were up to coming down and playing some games with us?" I asked lightly.

She shook her head and I could feel my face drop. "I think I'll just stay in here." She said and I nodded, makin sure not to speak in case my voice decided to break on me. Eleanor and I had gotten together yesterday again, much to the disgust of the rest of the group. They loved her sure, but I think they understood that she wasn't the one I was supposed to be with.

I left the room and walked back into the livingroom, sitting glumly in between Harry and Niall. "No go?" Harry asked and I nodded, just shrinking back in my seat as I grabbed my controller and let myself get wrapped up in the game.

~ Azi's P.o.V~

I looked around to make sure he had left and got up, letting my feet bad across the plush carpet as I made my way into the small recording studio/instrument room that the boys had in this house they were renting in L.A. I smiled for the first time in days as I sat at the bench, my fingers grazing the piano keys before I started playing a new song I'd been writing.

Close your eyes,
Take it in,
Hear the words as the music begins,
I want you to hold me close.

You said that I wasn't what you expected,
and you said that I was a dream come true.
So why is it that now I'm sitting here crying,
and you're off playing your games like you do.
~end chorus~

They warned me you would be trouble,
I knew it from the moment we met.
But I threw my cautions to the wind,
And made a losing bet.

Now that I see you,
For who you really are,
You try to come near me,
But all I can see is the dark,
That rests in your soul, now.
You've broken me down.


You said I was a new adventure,
You said it was a chance to explore.
So now that I'm looking back at you,
All I see is you closing the door.

I coughed and stood up, deciding if I was careful I could avoid the boys on my way to get a bottle of water, but turned to see them all at the door, staring at me. Louis was the first to speak. "This fixes everything." He said and I shook my head.

"What are you talking about?" I asked and he just looked at me hopefully before explaining to me and the boys everything that happend with mangement after the interview. I was still confused afterwards and just stared at him.

"So what does me singing a song fix anything?"

"Don't you see? You can sing, like amazing. So if we can get you signed, you'll be an up and coming star, like Cassette. They wanted me to be with her because she was rising up the charts. If that happens to you, management will have no reason to not let us be together!" He said and everything clicked.

"We... can be together? Like.. this was all fake?" I asked, my voice growin quieter. He shuffled in his spot before nodding. "So, you do love me?" I asked, letting my voice crack now as the tears started to roll again.

He rushed up to me and wrapped his arms around me just as my knees gave way and I started to fall. The boys were all cheering by now, and I could hear the girls yelling from the front of the house to see what all the commotion was. They came in and saw Louis and I wrapped in each other an I could hear them all gushing.

Then the one person's comments came in that no one expected. Apparently Eleanor had made her way into the group. "What the hell Louis?" She asked, looking at us. The boys stared at her.

"We're done Eleanor. I love her, this is it. She's going to be good for the label, you'll see. And then we'll be together, I mean, can't you just be happy for me?" He asked and her face softened. She looked crushed.

"I just.... That was supposed to be me. I was supposed to be in your arms right now." She said and I felt my hands clench on his shirt. I was literally clinging to him now. She looked from him to me and sighed. "Okay. You guys are kind of perfect looking together, just... let's put this all behind us okay?" She asked and we nodded, a smile cracking on my face.

Maybe the day could be saved after all.


OMG ARE YOU HAPPY NOW FANS? ARE YOU HAPPY THAT THEY CAN LOVE EACH OTHER? I seriously lost .3 stars after the last chapter. Therefore I made you guys happy again. Gosh. But now there shall only be 20 chapter. soo... FOUR MORE CHAPTERS. Untl the wedding. The end. The big reveal. So, there's gonna be a big secret. Vote for what you think it will be!

A) A pregnancy (or two)
B) A wedding complication
C) A new proposal (not like a wedding one)
D) All of the above!

I won't write the new chapter until I get five votes for what you guys think. I wrote the song in the story and my friend says I shoudl sing it and put it on youtube for you guys, what do you think?



You guys should all look at this! I made this youtube channel for you guys so you can be more connected with me!(: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SPL3978slZk
msindietomlinson msindietomlinson
That's terrible!! And that was the last chapter or are there five left?
LovingCurls LovingCurls

she is indeed...
msindietomlinson msindietomlinson
Noooo!! Alice.... is dead??
LovingCurls LovingCurls
Alex and Cotey are actually really good friends of mine, they always come up in like, all my stories. And Alice was just kinda my imagination. I don't believe we can become creative. We are born with it, and we can choose to make it grow or to supress it until it vanishes.
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