Forever and Always
I Never Said Goodbye
Samantha's POV:
They left two days after New Year Day. Miranda went with them, but I didn't because I still had university. Leaving me to figure out my feelings.
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed that I didn't push Louis off because that would mean that I cheated on Niall. And I didn't want to, because I tried to be the most loyal girlfriend ever.
But I also liked the kiss. I don't know why. I just liked the feeling of his lips against mine, our touch creating this thrill. And I knew that I shouldn't like the kiss. Especially if it was from Louis.
I've been getting a lot more flashbacks recently. About Louis. I remembered when he asked me to be his girlfriend, and when we went on our first date. But I also remembered when he cheated, and the haunting two years of heartache and misery. Proving that he was NOT a loyal boyfriend. But I still felt like I was missing something, a huge piece of information that I couldn't uncover. And I still had yet to find it.
Miranda has been acting weird, lately. She barely answers my calls anymore, and when she does, she always has this high-pitched voice like she's trying to hide something. It's a wonder how she got her actress job.
I never said goodbye. To Louis. The last time I heard him talk to me was on New Year. And now it's been a full month since the time when we kissed. And I still didn't tell Niall about it. And I still didn't regret it.
I'm so confused, about love. I wondered what it felt like. Was it the butterflies in your stomach? Or the warm, tingling feeling at the bottom or your soul? Whatever it was, I felt something for two boys.
I honestly think you can only love once if their still in your life. Like, you might be so far away from the love of your life but you'll still be in love with him. You wont fall in love with someone else, unless it's not real love. But I don't know what real love feels like. But I obviously felt something for Louis in our flashbacks. And it's getting harder each day to convince myself that I'm in love with Niall.
I wished I could say I was in, or not in, a love triangle with Niall and Louis. But I don't know if Louis likes me or not. Even though he kissed me, and he was in those flashbacks, what if he's a player? That explains why he cheated on me. But there's this little voice inside me that begs for Louis to like me. And I think that little voice is getting louder each day.
They left two days after New Year Day. Miranda went with them, but I didn't because I still had university. Leaving me to figure out my feelings.
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed that I didn't push Louis off because that would mean that I cheated on Niall. And I didn't want to, because I tried to be the most loyal girlfriend ever.
But I also liked the kiss. I don't know why. I just liked the feeling of his lips against mine, our touch creating this thrill. And I knew that I shouldn't like the kiss. Especially if it was from Louis.
I've been getting a lot more flashbacks recently. About Louis. I remembered when he asked me to be his girlfriend, and when we went on our first date. But I also remembered when he cheated, and the haunting two years of heartache and misery. Proving that he was NOT a loyal boyfriend. But I still felt like I was missing something, a huge piece of information that I couldn't uncover. And I still had yet to find it.
Miranda has been acting weird, lately. She barely answers my calls anymore, and when she does, she always has this high-pitched voice like she's trying to hide something. It's a wonder how she got her actress job.
I never said goodbye. To Louis. The last time I heard him talk to me was on New Year. And now it's been a full month since the time when we kissed. And I still didn't tell Niall about it. And I still didn't regret it.
I'm so confused, about love. I wondered what it felt like. Was it the butterflies in your stomach? Or the warm, tingling feeling at the bottom or your soul? Whatever it was, I felt something for two boys.
I honestly think you can only love once if their still in your life. Like, you might be so far away from the love of your life but you'll still be in love with him. You wont fall in love with someone else, unless it's not real love. But I don't know what real love feels like. But I obviously felt something for Louis in our flashbacks. And it's getting harder each day to convince myself that I'm in love with Niall.
I wished I could say I was in, or not in, a love triangle with Niall and Louis. But I don't know if Louis likes me or not. Even though he kissed me, and he was in those flashbacks, what if he's a player? That explains why he cheated on me. But there's this little voice inside me that begs for Louis to like me. And I think that little voice is getting louder each day.
5 months :'( please update this. it's amazing
6/12/14