Stand Up
I Can't Believe You Did It
That night I spent in the bathtub. My thighs and wrists became parts of me that was my tiger side. I thought about the photo I saw.
"Your body isn't ruined. Your a goddamn tiger who's earned its stripes"
I smiled a little. I looked down to see nothing but dried blood so I quickly washed up. When I opened the door Louis and Zayn where sleeping in the hall way. "Fuck!" I said walked around them. I needed to get to the doctors but was in so much pain.
I quickly got dressed. A hoody and sweat pants. I walked out to see Zayn standing outside my door talking to Louis. "Wheres the knife!" Zayn ran over bragging my wrist. I hissed in pain and Louis looked at me weirdly.
He walked over and took off my hoody and pulled down my pants. Leaving me in my bra and underwear. I screamed and slapped him. "Louis!" I yelped. Their eyes widened. My wrists looked like I was attacked by a cat witch in this case was a good thing. But my legs. They stained at my legs.
Quickly pulling my pants up and grabbing my hoody. Louis pull my in then slammed to agent the wall. Putting him arms up so I couldn't get away. He looked into my eyes. "Please tell my thats not because of Niall" he said. I looked down. He sighed.
"I need to get to the hospital" I said. "We'll take you" Zyan said. Louis moved and I started down stairs. "I need to go my self" I said. "To mad" Louis said. "Guys I need to go alone!" I yelled. Running out the door and getting into my car. I drove myself to the hospital.
~~20 minutes later~~
I was in a room with a really nice lady. "So hun whats going on?" she asked. "Im here to get an abortion I said. She lightly smiled and nodded. 2 numbers where in my head. 20 and 5. I cut 5 times on my left wrist and 20 on my legs.
She started going over what was going to happen. She took a test and when the she found out what was going on she was shocked. "Jenna, your babies already gone" she said. The flash back of Niall pushing me down again and again flooded my mind. "How?" I asked.
"Have you gotten into a fight?" she asked. "Yea, with the farther" I looked down. "Did he hurt you? or maybe push you?" She asked. I nodded. "Well you can thank that bastered for it" she said. I laughed. We did more test then got the baby out.
I felt like a new person. I also felt like hell. Niall killed my baby. I was going to chicken out last minute! I knew I was going to! But Niall FUCKING Horan killed my baby!
~~At the house~~~
I walked in and looked up stairs to see Niall sitting on the stairs. I acted like he wasn't their till he spoke. "So you killed my baby?" his words harsh and I wanted to cry. "Umm no" I spat back. "You I'm going to be a farther!?" His words where happier. "Nope" I said walking into the kitchen.
I heard his run down stairs and over to the kitchen."So your not going to let me see my child!?" He yelled. "I can't" I said looking down."I said I didn't kill my baby, I never said YOU didn't!" I growled turning around.
Tears filled his eyes. "W-What do you mean!?" He asked stuttering. "The other night when you..." I trailed off fighting back the tears. "When you kept pushing me and pushing me" I said turning back around so he couldn't see the tears running down my face.
"Thats when you killed my baby" I said then started to cry. I could hear Niall crying also. I turned and quickly walking by him and out of the kitchen. He grabbed my wrists and pulled my closs as I hissed in pain. He gave me a look.
Pulling down my leave. He looked confused and stepped back pulling my hoody off. "Niall please! Dont!" I bagged as he pulled my pants down. He looked at my legs. His eyes filled with even more tears. "This is from me?" He asked. I nodded. He pulled my pants up and put my hoody on.
I could fight it anymore I began to cry like every one I knew had just died. But really someone I will never meet died. I fell, as I did Niall grabbed me. I turned away from him and ran to the living room. I felt Niall grab me and pull my to the couch.
I was sitting on his lap. He laid back. I burst out into his chest. I tried to push away. "YOU KILLED MY BABY! HOW CAN I TRUST YOU!" I screamed at the top of my lungs into his chest. He hugged me tightly. Not letting me go. He cried. I could tell he was crying just as mush as I was.
"Im sorry, Im sorry, Im sorry" he kept whispering into my ear. After a while I gave up hope and stopped trying to get away from him. I got into a better spot sitting on his lap. Crying into his chest. His arms tightly around me, every move I mad his grip got tighter.
Niall got up holding me still even tighter and laid down. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him even closer. I nuzzled into him, tears still coming out of my eyes. I had my head on his arm. We staid like that till we both feel asleep.
"Your body isn't ruined. Your a goddamn tiger who's earned its stripes"
I smiled a little. I looked down to see nothing but dried blood so I quickly washed up. When I opened the door Louis and Zayn where sleeping in the hall way. "Fuck!" I said walked around them. I needed to get to the doctors but was in so much pain.
I quickly got dressed. A hoody and sweat pants. I walked out to see Zayn standing outside my door talking to Louis. "Wheres the knife!" Zayn ran over bragging my wrist. I hissed in pain and Louis looked at me weirdly.
He walked over and took off my hoody and pulled down my pants. Leaving me in my bra and underwear. I screamed and slapped him. "Louis!" I yelped. Their eyes widened. My wrists looked like I was attacked by a cat witch in this case was a good thing. But my legs. They stained at my legs.
Quickly pulling my pants up and grabbing my hoody. Louis pull my in then slammed to agent the wall. Putting him arms up so I couldn't get away. He looked into my eyes. "Please tell my thats not because of Niall" he said. I looked down. He sighed.
"I need to get to the hospital" I said. "We'll take you" Zyan said. Louis moved and I started down stairs. "I need to go my self" I said. "To mad" Louis said. "Guys I need to go alone!" I yelled. Running out the door and getting into my car. I drove myself to the hospital.
~~20 minutes later~~
I was in a room with a really nice lady. "So hun whats going on?" she asked. "Im here to get an abortion I said. She lightly smiled and nodded. 2 numbers where in my head. 20 and 5. I cut 5 times on my left wrist and 20 on my legs.
She started going over what was going to happen. She took a test and when the she found out what was going on she was shocked. "Jenna, your babies already gone" she said. The flash back of Niall pushing me down again and again flooded my mind. "How?" I asked.
"Have you gotten into a fight?" she asked. "Yea, with the farther" I looked down. "Did he hurt you? or maybe push you?" She asked. I nodded. "Well you can thank that bastered for it" she said. I laughed. We did more test then got the baby out.
I felt like a new person. I also felt like hell. Niall killed my baby. I was going to chicken out last minute! I knew I was going to! But Niall FUCKING Horan killed my baby!
~~At the house~~~
I walked in and looked up stairs to see Niall sitting on the stairs. I acted like he wasn't their till he spoke. "So you killed my baby?" his words harsh and I wanted to cry. "Umm no" I spat back. "You I'm going to be a farther!?" His words where happier. "Nope" I said walking into the kitchen.
I heard his run down stairs and over to the kitchen."So your not going to let me see my child!?" He yelled. "I can't" I said looking down."I said I didn't kill my baby, I never said YOU didn't!" I growled turning around.
Tears filled his eyes. "W-What do you mean!?" He asked stuttering. "The other night when you..." I trailed off fighting back the tears. "When you kept pushing me and pushing me" I said turning back around so he couldn't see the tears running down my face.
"Thats when you killed my baby" I said then started to cry. I could hear Niall crying also. I turned and quickly walking by him and out of the kitchen. He grabbed my wrists and pulled my closs as I hissed in pain. He gave me a look.
Pulling down my leave. He looked confused and stepped back pulling my hoody off. "Niall please! Dont!" I bagged as he pulled my pants down. He looked at my legs. His eyes filled with even more tears. "This is from me?" He asked. I nodded. He pulled my pants up and put my hoody on.
I could fight it anymore I began to cry like every one I knew had just died. But really someone I will never meet died. I fell, as I did Niall grabbed me. I turned away from him and ran to the living room. I felt Niall grab me and pull my to the couch.
I was sitting on his lap. He laid back. I burst out into his chest. I tried to push away. "YOU KILLED MY BABY! HOW CAN I TRUST YOU!" I screamed at the top of my lungs into his chest. He hugged me tightly. Not letting me go. He cried. I could tell he was crying just as mush as I was.
"Im sorry, Im sorry, Im sorry" he kept whispering into my ear. After a while I gave up hope and stopped trying to get away from him. I got into a better spot sitting on his lap. Crying into his chest. His arms tightly around me, every move I mad his grip got tighter.
Niall got up holding me still even tighter and laid down. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him even closer. I nuzzled into him, tears still coming out of my eyes. I had my head on his arm. We staid like that till we both feel asleep.
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