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Emaciated

thoughts

I never really thought about how everything really was with my family, I just told myself not to think about it. I never really even realized that I should have been thinking about it, until it had all been piled up to a point where it would take many mental breakdowns and a lot of coping. So much to be able to get through the piles and piles of different situations that correlated to others, just because of the simple fact that I was just now figuring out the details. Just bits and pieces that seemed to make a whole extravaganza of extreme anxiety. My therapist tells me we are going to do a therapy technique that will “help.” It will erase the negativity from the situations and make me feel all better, but isn’t that the only thing that therapists are allowed to hand out? Motivation. So much to the point that when things aren’t so motivating, everything is now falling apart and there’s no going back. There’s not a single day that things like this hasn’t happened. I’ve increased the amount of time a week I see my therapist, to be able to get that motivation a lot more, so this cycle could be prevented. It didn’t work, because it almost seems like everything needs to go perfectly for me to be able to be motivated, and the only other times I’m motivated, it’s not for the reasons you want it to be. It’s because of my high highs, and my low lows. They control me like anyone would want to be able to control themselves. The only difference is that, they are controlling me, not myself.

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