Emaciated

Things just weren’t the same anymore. I remember running outside, weaving in-between yards to make it to my best friends houses, and riding my bike until my legs gave up. The way that I smiled in pictures, and I always seemed so calm with who I was and what was happening around me. Some of the things that were thrown into my world were pretty tragic, I pretended a lot of things. Especially the fact that I didn’t know anything that my parents talked about on a daily basis. I knew everything, I just didn’t show how it affected me. Between my sister’s rape story, and what followed after, and my mom’s fight over custody with my father. There was always more than that, but those two events shaped my future. My sister’s rape, ended up being her biggest downfall, even though she had been in a deep depression years before. She started doing drugs and finding boyfriends that could barely handle themselves more the less than a broken girl trying to search for herself, but mistaking the journey of finding herself, by dating guys that didn’t know who they were, so they treated the world as if they knew it better than themselves. My mother’s fight over custody was a real journey that seemed to change everything. My dad got me one day a week, and my mom had all other six, not counting the night that my mom forced and threatened my dad to take me away forever, and followed through with her threats, that scared my father and I’s worlds, and futures. I now barely know my father, and have no idea what my sister is and how she’s changed for the worst. She did drugs, got pregnant, dropped out of college, lived on the streets, and only got financial support because everyone cared about the child, and had already given up on her years before. I was the only one that didn’t. I saw some type of hurt in her eyes that nobody could fix or imitate even if they had felt and lived through every tragedy possible. Maybe her glossed over eyes, was from drugs and alcohol but I didn’t care. There was something about them

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