Marigold

Harry’s Point of view



Alright, don’t get me wrong! I’m not anti-social. I am a loner. I don’t really like being around people if I don’t have to. Fans and friends don’t count, but other people, blehg!! It’s not like I don’t like people. I love people and I’m good with people. I’m a great people person. I’m just not the best in social situations. You may think I’m just making it up, but I’m not. I fall on stage, tell jokes when I’m nervous or uncomfortable, I sometimes have strange posture when I’m in public, and people staring at me for too long makes me anxious. I don’t care if I'm talking to you. You better look away every minute or so. I’ll puke on you.

People think I’m just this happy, together (did that accidentally), all time smiley person, but I can assure you, I’m not. I have serious problem and for a while I was okay with being alone. It has been about nine months since I’ve been in a real romantic relationship.
Don’t count that Camile thing. It was a publicity stunt to get her more out there. It wasn’t my choice. I was forced into it. But anyway! Nine months! The average time period for a baby to develop within a mother’s womb is how long I’ve been without. No hugs, kisses, cuddles! Ohhh!! All the CUDDLES I’ve missed out on!! For a few months, I was fine with the whole ‘No relationship’ thing, but then I started to become lonely. I tried taking up hobbies that I put down in the past, but it didn’t work.

I’ve decided that I’m not going to be as picky anymore. I’m not getting any younger and my mom wants grandkids before I turn 30.
Ive also decided to slow down a bit. I have been told I have a tendency to rush things a little. Like kissing on the first date, buying them gifts too soon, expressing my affection toward them way to early. Stuff like that, so I’m just going to slow down and enjoy the time I have with them. That will definitely be an adjustment for me.

Before I put my plan into motion, I need to find someone that I at least tolerate and that tolerates me. Things may seem alright in the beginning, but finding someone that you tolerate after seeing who they really are is harder than it sounds. Especially in this society. It won’t be easy but if anyone can do it, Harry Styles can.

Said no one, ever..

Notes

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I just want to make sure that everyone knows that this is based around an early April, this year. Thanks for reading!!