For Your Eyes Only

“Oh my god Livy”
“I’m fine”
“Fine...you’re fine...WHAT DID THAT FUCKING PRICK DO TO YOU”
“Shhhh Jade I don’t want anyone knowing”
“Knowing what?”
I knew that was Harry I should have known he would hear her shouting first due to being right next door to me.
“Nothing go to bed Harry and you to Jade”
“Not until you tell me why you’re face is FUCKING BLACK AND BLUE”
“It’s what”
Harry was then grabbing me turning me around to face him I winced as he touched me due to the other bruises that were marked on my skin.
“Jadey what are you shouting about”
Great Liam was here and so was Zayn and Louis the only person that hasn’t come out is Niall.
“OLIVIA HAS BEEN FUCKING BEATEN UP THAT’S WHAT I’M SHOUTING ABOUT”
Just then Niall’s door swung open and he ran on over to us all, I couldn’t take it I tried to get turn around to hide in my room but Harry was there stopping me.
“Just let me go to sleep please it’s nothing”
“Who did this to you sis”
“No one”
“Don’t lie”
“Louis it was no-“
“Fuck it was Aaron wasn’t it you promised me now tell me Olivia”
“I... I can’t....”
“It was wasn’t it fucking prick”
“Wait Aaron as in the manager of Ruby Aaron”
I just nodded in reply to Zayn’s question, Niall was staying quiet but he looked me in to my eyes and I just broke in to tears. I couldn’t help it I managed to push past Harry and got in to my room locking the door I didn’t want them to see me cry. Walking over to my drug box that was left out I wanted to take something but I couldn’t even bring myself to take anything I just cried. My door they were constantly banging on but soon there was key turning and I forgot dad had a key to my room I really didn’t want him coming in. I looked up and saw Jade, Liam, Harry, Niall, Louis and Zayn walking in.
“Please just leave me alone....please”
“Olivia now listen to me we need to know what happened”
“It’s my fault don’t worry”
“Livy take your jumper off”
“Jade no”
I thought she tilted my head up but no it was Niall he sat in front of me looking in to my eyes. I wanted to burst in to tears again knowing I let him go, just knowing I love him and could never have him. His jaw was locked and he was shaking I knew he was angry but I couldn’t help but back up a little bit I knew he wouldn’t hit me but I thought Aaron wouldn’t. He noticed me back up and calmed himself down.
“I would never hurt you Livy, now please can you take your jumper off”
I sat and thought for a few moments, I looked up to see Harry looking back down at me keeping his eye contact I lifted my arms up allowing Niall to pull my jumper off. I heard Jade gasp as I stood up to show my beaten body my arms were cover my stomach was cover and the top of my legs all covered in bruises.
“Livy....Oh my god”
Niall stormed out of the room followed by Liam, Louis and Zayn. Jade came over to hug me and Harry just stood there in shock I could see his eyes tearing up and soon he was off to following the other lads. I was scared so scared of what was going happen I didn’t want anyone to know what had happened. Soon Karen walked in coming over to hug me straight away I knew straight away dad was doing something and I felt bad for what was going to happen to Aaron I mean I was late it was my fault.
“You’re going to be ok Olivia Dad is sorting it the police on their way”
“It’s my fault I was late if I wasn’t late this wouldn’t of happened”
“Oh darling it is not your fault, he is a messed up man”
“Yeah Karen is right this is so not your fault Livy don’t ever think that”
“Jade where has all the lads gone?”
“Well they were going to beat up Aaron but your Dad stopped them so they are downstairs with Dad”
“Oh ok....”
My door opened I wanted it to be Niall but it was the police, I stayed in my room with Jade and explained everything that happened. They took some pictures and told me they would be in touch, after that I just wanted to sleep everyone had gone back to their rooms but I just couldn’t sleep I wanted and needed to be cuddled up with someone. I wanted Niall but I knew I couldn’t go there I got out of bed and noticed Niall’s football shirt on the floor I picked it up and changed in to that instantly. Inhaling the scent I felt better already, I walked on out of my room and headed downstairs to grab a drink needing something to help me forget I picked up a bottle of wine...okay 2 bottles....fine I grabbed 4 bottles of wine. I just couldn’t decide where to go but I soon went for the cinema room I might as well watch some films whilst I am drinking. I walked on in and picked the film Trainwreck I needed something to make me laugh, 2 bottles down and I hear someone walking in turning around I see Niall walking ntowards me taking a seat next to me holding a bottle of beer.
“I love this film”
He said taking swig from his beer and I decided to open bottle number three as I leaned back he arm was wrapped around my shoulders. I flinched a little bit which made Niall jump moving his arm as quickly as possible.
“Sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you”
“You didn’t just wasn’t expecting your arm to be there”
I took a hold of his arm and wrapped it around me like he planned on doing.
“I see you are wearing my top again”
“I am indeed”
“Last time you wore that you said you missed me and just loved the smell”
“That’s true”
“Does it mean the same this time?”
“....Yea”
I looked up to see a little smile grow across his face causing me to smile, this is the first time today I have looked at him and not burst in to tears.
“What was up with you earlier today when you left work you looked so....broken”
“I....It doesn’t matter Niall”
“It does....to me Jade wouldn’t tell us what was going on why was she so”
“Niall please just drop it, it doesn’t matter”
My face was now emotionless he couldn’t read me and this is how I had to stay I can’t crave in to him.
“Olivia I want to kill Aaron for what he did to you, did he... did he rape you?”
I didn’t say anything, could it really class as rape considering I shagged him the day before. I knew it did but right now I couldn’t think straight, my silence said it all for Niall though he moved his arm and put his head in to his hands shaking his head.
“Niall it’s ok”
“IT’S NOT OKAY HE RAPED YOU!!”
I was taken aback by his shouting and I knew he picked up on that as he calmed down and came closer to me.
“I’m sorry....I didn’t mean to shout at you I’m so sorry”
“It’s ok Niall... I think I might just go to bed now though”
“Ok...I’m so sorry I don’t ever want to scare you”
“You didn’t scare me Niall”
“I will walk you to your room”
I picked up the last bottle and headed for my room with Niall following me, as I got to my room my phone began to ring. I looked down and I saw the caller ID pop up.
Aaron Calling
I was shaking Niall tensed up beside me clearly seeing who was calling sliding across my phone I answered the call I put it up against my ear but Niall put it so he could hear as well.
Olivia where the fuck did you go, does the term you’re mine mean nothing get back now.
I’m sorry I just thought
You thought wrong you know a punishment is in order for this
No please
You shouldn’t have left now get back here also bring your stuff you’re going to be living with me
What no I can’t just move out
Well you are going to have to just move out remember you’re mine
SHE FUCKING ISN’T YOURS YOU FUCKING BELLEND NOW FUCK OFF”
Niall hanged up the phone and passed it back to me I was shaking and almost crying again without a second thought Niall brought me in to a hug and I hugged back. Oh I have truly missed being in his arms, as he pulled out he looked like he didn’t want to leave and right now I didn’t want him to leave either.
“Will you stay with me tonight?”
“Of course”
We walked in to my room and I climbed in to bed cuddling up to him laying my head on his chest.
“I have to tell you something Livy”
“Okay what is it?”
“I went on a date tonight, it sucked I couldn’t help but just think of you all night long”
“I know you had a date”
“You did”
“Yeah Jade told me.... I kind of broke down at work”
“Oh”
“Yeah... sorry”
“You told me you didn’t love me”
“I know”
“Did you truly mean that?”
“...No”
“Then why the fuck did you say that you broke my heart Olivia”
“Please not tonight not after everything I have just gone through please can’t I just lay here with you?”
“No, not if you’re going to keep playing me”
“What the fuck, I’m not playing you I’m trying to help you”
“Help me how”
“By....by making sure you get someone who you actually deserve you deserve so much better than me...I’m just some slut who has no emotions and sleeps with everyone and anyone I never took in account your feelings or Harry’s when I was shagging you both....I’m fucked up okay....I’m just....I wanted you to move on find someone better than me ..... I love you Niall I truly do love you but I can’t be with you.... I need to go back to how I was I need to cut off every emotion to not get hurt or hurt anyone again.”
“You love me”
“Really that’s all you got?”
“That’s all I care about you love me”
“Niall I can’t”
“You can Do you love me Olivia?”
“Please”
“Answer me don’t shut me out please do you love me”
“Yes but”
“No, no buts listen you love me yes”
“Niall”
“You love me right?”
“Right”
“Then how about this after the tour and promoting is all done we go on holiday me and you just me and you and we see how it goes”
“Really”
“Yes but and this is the important part ok?”
“Ok”
“And it will be a challenge”
“What is it?”
“If you truly love me you won’t get with anyone else, remember when I said I was cool with everything when we weren’t together but after this tonight what just happened.... I don’t want to be on tour and this happens to you and I know we won’t be official but....”
“I won’t get with anyone else but you Niall.... I promise”
“And I promise I won’t do anything”
“Niall”
“Yes”
“Can we sleep now I am very tired?”
“Of course.....goodnight Livy”
“Night Niall”
He gave me a kiss on my forehead and stroked the bruise across my face before drifting off to sleep.

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