For Your Eyes Only

It has been a week since Fred was in hospital and my dad came home, to be honest it has been a real emotional week. I couldn’t get Niall off my mind he helped me so much up the hospital and I just felt so connected to him more than ever. Harry on the other hand I was feeling more friendship but I still missed his company we hardly hanged out anymore I was missing them both. Right now though I was with Jade walking in to a fancy restaurant about to meet Ruby and Aaron to discuss the recording of our single.
“Olivia over here”
We walked on over to Ruby and Aaron shaking their hands and taking our seats ordering some wine and food we soon got talking.
“So Olivia tomorrow we will start recording we can do 11 if that’s ok with you?”
“That would be perfect Aaron”
“Good and for the video as it is called Made in the USA I suggest we head on out to the US I was thinking filming on the Miami beach sound good to you guys”
“Yes Miami here I come”
“Haha yeah I agree with Ruby here we come, can Jade join?”
“Yes of course she can”
“Thank you Aaron”
“No problem now desert anyone”
The night carried on and soon Ruby went on home and so did Jade it left me and Aaron enjoying our night now in a booth in a club. We got here an hour ago but Jade and Ruby wanted to go back to their man which I didn’t mind at all me and Aaron were getting on great.
“So Olivia are you single?”
“I am indeed Aaron you?”
“I am as well so that leads to my next question fancy carrying this on back at mine?”
“Hmm wouldn’t it be weird tomorrow though?”
“Not if we don’t make it awkward”
“Fuck it lets go lead the way”
With that Aaron jumped up and took a hold of my hand puling me out of the club. We got in the taxi and the conversation just flowed between us it wasn’t long until we arrived at his home it was in a quiet part of town but still a lovely house. Walking in to his home closing the door behind me I turned around to face Aaron and for the first time I noticed he had beautiful blue eyes. He lifted his hands up to my face and that’s when I noticed the tattoos on his wrist I couldn’t help but be more attracted to him. Soon our lips connected I felt numb I didn’t feel the butterflies I did with Niall and Harry but I had to push those thoughts out of my head. Deeping the kiss it wasn’t long until he picked me up and carried me up some stairs heading towards his bedroom. Crashing down on to his bed he got up and stripped down for me revealing his body covered in tattoos.
“Fuck you are so hot”
“Your turn babe”
“Take a seat”
He smirked and took a seat on the edge of the bed I stood up in front of him and began a strip tease. His eyes lit up and he couldn’t control himself he instantly pulled me on top of him and attacked my lips. It wasn’t long until he was inside me making me scream out his name. Position after position he soon exploded all over me with one last kiss I wiped away the mess and got dressed.
“Where you going babe?”
“Home I can’t arrive with you tomorrow Jade and Ruby will know”
“Good point ok but this isn’t the end of us you know that right”
“What do you mean?”
“You’re mine now Olivia, I’ve had you and I’m not letting you go, I will see you tomorrow”
I didn’t say anything I just left his place and decided to walk home he wasn’t too far from mine. His words replayed in my head and I was so confused what did he mean I was his now. I thought it was just meanness sex walking up to y front door I was still deep in my own thoughts I didn’t notice Harry standing there as well until he spoke to me.
“Olivia you ok?”
“Yeah urmm yeah I’m ok”
“You sure you look a bit lost”
“Just confused”
“Want to talk about it”
“I don’t know”
“Come on we hardly have spoken and you used to speak and open up to me a lot”
“Urmm no it’s ok it’s nothing important, anyway how have you been?”
“Good I guess miss you though”
“I miss you too”
We walked in and headed up to our rooms standing outside our rooms we looked at one another and I couldn’t help but just smile at him.
“Oh has Liam told you?”
“Told me what?”
“Urmm”
He scratched the back of his head and moved on over to me and opened my door for us to go in. This was a little weird but I walked on in closing the door behind me.
“What’s going on?”
“Ok so we got the date when we go off for promoting and touring”
“That’s brilliant when do you go?”
“Monday”
“Wait...what Monday but that’s only 4 days away”
“Yeah”
“Oh...”
“Look Olivia I know what happened between us but I want to forget that and just enjoy the last few days together”
“Of course so do I I’m going to really miss you Harry”
“I will truly miss you to but like I promised front row seats ok and we will be back”
“Promise”
“I promise”
“Harry I just want to say I am so sorry for how I was with you and Niall I shouldn’t have done that to you to but I need you to know I truly did fall for you both and that’s why I had to stop. You never know you might find someone on tour”
“Maybe but nothing will compare to you, you have set a high bar Olivia Stark”
“So have you do you forgive me though?”
“There is nothing to forgive ok babe look I’m going to sleep ok”
“Yeah, sorry for keeping you up”
“No it’s not that it’s just I really want you right now so I will remove myself from this situation”
“Haha sorry I will see you later”
“Yeah night babe”
He leaned in and kissed my forehead and then left me on the bench on my own. I looked around and I knew I had to go see Niall I walked out of my room and headed straight for his. I was about to open the door but I heard some light moans and then a girls voice fill the room. My heart broke in to pieces I knew in that moment it was Niall I wanted sitting with Harry I could deal with him meeting someone new I told him to. Niall though it got too much for me I ran to my room and went straight for the drug box weed really wasn’t going to do it for me. LSD, SPEED or COCAINE I don’t know why but I went for the Cocaine straight away. Pulling the bag out I laid the powder out and took a snort of the powder.
“Olivia what are you doing”
I turned around to see Jade there great, I got rid of the rest of the powder but she was already up in my space shouting at me.
“OLIVIA WHAT THE FUCK WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS I THOUGHT YOU GOT OVER THIS”
“I am over-“
“BULLSHIT IF YOU WERE OVER IT WHY HAVE YOU STILL GOT THE BOX YOU TOLD ME YOU GOT RID OF IT ALL”
“What’s going on Jade?”
I looked over her shoulder to see Liam and Harry standing there looking at me and Jade.
“Nothing Jade is just over reacting”
“You taking cocaine is not over reacting you are lucky you’re dad is out tonight”
“Don’t tell him”
“How long have you been taking it sis?”
I looked over to see Liam now stepping forward standing next to Jade, I was jealous of her then it happened the drugs kicked in but it took me in a different state of mind. One that I hated getting in to when I was on drugs.
“FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU ALL WHY DO YOU CARE”
“Olivia calm down”
“NO WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I WHY DID YOU EVEN COME IN TO MY ROOM WHAT DO YOU FUCKING WANT”
“I heard you cry I came to see if you were ok”
“OH YEAH I AM GREAT I MEAN YOU HAVE ALL IGNORED ME ALL WEEK SINCE FRED HAS COME OUT OF HOSPITAL, YOU ALL HANG OUT WITH OUT ME NOW I NEVER GET INVITED TO ANYTHING ANY MORE. OH AND DO YOU WANT TO KNOW THE BEST THING I FOUND OUT TODAY YOU’RE LEAVING MONDAY FROM HARRY YOU COUDN’T TELL ME AT WORK TODAY LIAM”
“Sis I’m sorry”
“AHH JUST FUCK OFF”
I pushed past them all just at the perfect time as the girl Niall was fucking walked out of his room. Niall looked over to me and I noticed everyone was behind me,
“Olivia just come on go to sleep”
“JADE JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE ALL OF YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE”
“Jeez what’s her problem no wonder why you wanted to keep me hidden”
Niall face just lost all colour and Jade ran in front of me only she has seen what I get like and it isn’t very pretty.
“YOU FUCKING WHAT”
“Olivia calm down”
“GET THE FUCK OF ME JADE”
I moved out of her grip and walked over to this now scared girl who thought she was fucking everything.
“So you want to carry on talking or you going to fuck off”
“Well this is Niall’s place if he wants me gone then I will go it’s not up to you crazy”
That was it I grabbed her by the throat and put her up against the wall instantly causing Liam, Niall, Harry and even Louis and Zayn now running over to me.
“YOU FUCKING SKET THIS IS MY HOUSE YOU CUNT AND YOU ARE FUCKING LEAVING EITHER BY WALKING OR GETTING DRAGGED OUT GOT IT”
“I... I ...”
“Olivia let go, come on”
I looked up to see Harry trying to calm me down, turning back to the girl I dropped my hand and pushed past everyone running out of my house. I didn’t know where I was going I just kept walking, I didn’t have anything on me not my phone, shoes nothing just in my dress. I knew where I was heading after a while it was the spot Niall took me to on our first date. I took a seat on the bench and just broke down in to tears. I felt empty completely empty. I must have been out for over an hour before I felt a jacket getting put over my body. Instantly I bolted up to soon see Niall sat there next to me I couldn’t help but just put my head back down and started to cry once again.
“Livy, what’s wrong?”
I didn’t reply I just carried on crying he moved closer to me placing an arm over me. I wanted to stay close but I moved out of his grip and sat up to meet his eyes for the second time.
“I’m sorry for putting that girl up against the wall”
“Why did you do that?”
“She was rude”
“She was and I’m sorry about that, why did you take cocaine Livy?”
“Because... drugs is how I deal with emotion and today well tonight has been emotional for me”
“Ok you want to talk about it”
I looked at him I wanted to tell him everything I wanted to tell him he was the one for me. I couldn’t though he had moved on and I needed to let him do that, as well as the fact I am now apparently Aarons. Fuck I forgot about Aaron...
“Livy”
“Hmm yeah urmm don’t worry I will sort it”
“Come on you can tell”
“I said no... sorry I didn’t mean to snap...fuck sake so that girl where did you meet her”
“Night out mistake really but yeah”
“Why was she a mistake?”
“Honestly I tried to sleep with her to get over you but I ended up moaning your name out and ruined everything... I can’t get over you Livy I really can’t”
“You go Monday when you’re not constantly around me you will change your mind”
“I won’t”
“But you might find someone who is a lot better than me I’m hopeless”
“No you’re not”
“Niall please try and move on just explore other options”
“Do you really want me to move on, to sleep around to have someone else?”
“Urmm...Yea-“
He moved closer and cut me off by his lips something I have craved for such a long time. I kissed him back and we moved in sync deepening the kiss, pulling a part I looked straight in to his eyes.
“Do remember what we did when we came up here on our first date”
“I do Niall”
“Well my car is over there”
“I believe we started out here didn’t we”
I couldn’t help but laugh slightly but we didn’t move from each other’s grip just looked in to each other’s eyes.
“I hate seeing you cry Livy just open up to me please”
“I can’t you need to move on”
“I don’t want to Olivia please”
“Niall”
“Do you love me?”
“Niall please”
“No answer me do you love me?”
Yes I do I truly honestly do with all my heart, but I can’t love you I just need to let you move on, I need to let you go.
“...No...”

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